Dancing with my heart, my words, my song, and my love, before my God…


But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who
LOVE YOUR NAME may rejoice in you. Psalms 5:11

Monday, January 10, 2011

Mother's Prayer

How special to take the thoughts and concerns
of my own grown-up babies to my Father,
to whom I call Parent, Daddy, my Maker;
concerns for my sons You placed in my arms so long ago
 while I was a child myself. 
Forever grateful for the Gift of these babies
who have never stopped filling my heart,
birthed to me by Your design. 
What a wonderful inspiring prize they have been
as I watch them grow,
even to becoming grandparents themselves,
and how it has better developed my own knowledge of
Love from above. 

My oldest child holds keys
to the smiles of those he works around,
in constant servitude which brings such delight
as he views their pride of his work,
so happy to give. 
Always with the attitude of how
Good You are to him. 
Such a grateful heart.

My middle child giving me adopted children
 and enlarging my love strings
to be tied to the gracious world of
beyond children from my own womb.
His gigantic heart sees right from wrong,
peace verses stress,
and truly operates as the middle man
between so many situations
to bring balance and peace to hearts. 
I watch those who know him
see a unique tenderness as he calls upon God
for his life and family. 

My youngest a strong warrior
standing as a tower
for his children given to him as treasures,
like I do. 
Moving in the Life given him
with little ones in constant mind.  
Power of a strong man
but the heart of a soft daddy. 
His direction solid with eyes of steel.

Three boys Given to me
as a continuance of my own life! 
Your choices for me
as each of my boys have such Special Assignments
from Your above intelligent Foresight
and matchless Love. 

Oh the miracles I see as an overwhelmed receiver
of their love
from such miraculously enjoyable treasures;
treasures placed with me. 

Why me? 

These sort of splendid favors
are hard to understand
how I was granted such inheritance. 

I read yesterday how
Mary, Jesus’ mother,
was so surprised
when an angel by Your Request
 came to her
to tell her she would bare a Son. 
 How excited she was
as well as concerned
for her role in this amazing event.
  She pondered this call
as she accepted
Your Pleasure be done within her
and no doubt watched
it play out in her life
with eyes of love
and devotion to her Given son. 

I understand her great excitement
as I too find such joy in the Gift of sons. 
How I relate when Mary felt
such loss
and worry
when Jesus remained in the temple
while her and Joseph returned home
after traveling to Jerusalem
for the Feast of Passover
and could not find their son, Jesus,
in their party
for He had stay back
to speak with the temple scholars
to both ask questions and give His own Answers. 
When they finally found Him,
He was so at ease to tell His mother
that He was about His Father’s business. 

Oh Father, Daddy to my given and myself;
I find myself in this state of loss and worry
over my three treasures
and know only to come to You with these concerns
and run in search as Mary did. 
And when I do run to find them,
to find them at Your Temple as I do
puts my soul at ease.
For as I am put in remembrance
that they have
the dwelling of Your Sweet Spirit within them
and that Your Spirit
is greater than anything in this world,
I am put to ease of heart. 
My God
let the Mind of Christ be strong in their hearts
as You Dwell and Move them to the Knowledge of Your Love
 as they mature by walking out
Your Call within them. 
Stand them tall in Your Knowledge
and
Perfection of Your Love. 
As they stand
in the Temple of the Most High God,
Answer the curiosities
they hold of Your Kingdom
so they may declare
to the scholars of this world
Your Glory and Your Love’s Purpose. 
Carry out today and tomorrow’s Wisdom
over their own desires
as You so kindly did
when I ask
for things less than Your Greatness. 
Move the mountains
that tries to blind them from Your future
and the future of their children given
that far exceeds any desire
we might carry of our own flesh. 
Oh to hear they bring You Pleasure
as they have brought me. 
Thank You
for escorting me through the caring of such treasures. 
I know Your Eyes are in constant watch
and I see Your Favor upon them
as they grow in Your Wisdom
and find the favor of men
as their lives become closer and closer
lined up with Your Walk Designed for them. 
In humility I have this confidence
because
I cannot credit these treasures
as my work
but simply because
Your Work is/was/and forever will be
done through Christ who Dwells within us. 
Cause Your Love to be
Abundant in them,
just as Your Son’s work was accomplished
let my sons Work Through You
be done
with the Tremendous Power
of Jesus Blood
over their numbered days,
held Tight by the Sweet Holy Spirit.
I remain in Your Arms
and bring my children
in Jesus Christ’s Holy Name.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Love Capacity

I am after You, my Lord today, I am after You now. 

Oh what joy to search my heart to love You.  To go deep and find it full of emotions and smiles of delight.   Love that carries me from moment to moment in a different atmosphere of Spirit.  Finding You there and so Excited to find me searching.   You seem so Pleased to return Your Sight towards me as You move my heart to a larger capacity to hold Your Love so enormous. 

I accept the enlargements as I consume what You have to Give.  I weep as I encounter it touching my heart.  I am humbled as I find it so over the top of my own love to return.

I have given birth to three beautiful boys and each time I wondered… oh how I wondered… how would I find room to add love to my heart for each.  How can I add to what I have for this first child, for this second child...But what a marvelous explosion to my soul as each child seemed to not only add their life love to me but to add multiple love lives to my heart.  How I stand in awe of its addition to the abundant capacity to hold and experience past my expectations. 


Now I find the pleasures of my sons' loves and children.  Multiplied by 100 by each one to my heart to love and cherish. 

How this must be something like You feel as we come into Your Kingdom with our love to return to You.  Filling You with such Joy as one by one a child comes to the Feet and surrenders to Your Son as the Only One to Follow..!

Accepting us and Adopting us to Your Kingdom and multiplying Your sons and daughters to love with more love beyond what visual or hearts could know.  Oh how Beautiful and Awesome to be Yours.  Your daughter, the one you love. 

As You Ask but one thing from me… simply "Follow" You.  Oh how wonderful it has been to follow You this past year.  For I have been so void of answers and knowledge but to follow You has been the pleasure of my heart.  Adding, adding, and adding to my love capacity like a child born in my arms.  Worth it all!  Worth everything You place before me to find You.  Worth opening my heart to all that is set for me as I follow You, the answer to all things. 

To follow You to the end of time.  I seek after You today.  I seek after You now.  To follow, to go; enlarge my heart with love, my God, as I follow. 

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Awaken By His Love

What a Special morning after Christmas as I am awaken
with an extra satisfaction in my heart that
amazed me
and caused me to ponder its soft
and refreshing increase of affections. 
You know how mushy you feel when you received what
you wanted for Christmas or your birthday…
something that satisfies your heart in great measure
 and it carries an extra ump to it.
This is as close as I can come
to explaining my heart
as songs of worship
explored words of praise from my heart
 and stirred me awake
 out of my calm deep sleep this morning. 
Amazing yes,
always,
as I slowly become conscience
 of the morning hour nudging me of its arrival;
speaking to me as I sense the vibrating
of songs happening inside me
and the Joy it offers me of Comfort
while the waves of its Messages make melody
all through my being of the One I love
and who Loves me deeply. 
The Sounds slowly penetrate my consciousness
with its tender kisses until I respond. 
So pleasing and rich to my soul
as my spirit is lifted! 
I understand in part
that this One finds pleasure in my praise
but reluctantly I must admit
I worship at times with almost a non-connected mind.  
Like entering a store and absent mindedly begin singing
the song playing while I shopped. 
But this morning there is a beautiful awareness of connection
 as a love affair is tied
and accepted in my mind, heart and soul,
with He who walked
the same earth I now find my days numbered in,
so, so, long ago. 
A Love that gives pleasure to both I and He
and causes the little girl in me to jump out of bed
with giggles! 
 Worship to honor generated from
true feelings
towards the One who has won my affection
and such Good towards me.
One who has awaked my eyes of love
to desire a playful reunion
after the slumber of a fulfilled night’s sleep;
excited for the day as the heart of my passion
runs for the search of which fun thing to do first?
A heart so completed and full;
choices so many,
oh where do I start? 
What a wonderful play-date He is,
this One who has knocked upon the door
of my awakened heart this morning. 
A firm foundation of Love
poured upon my thoughts,
causing the voice of my inward treasures
to expose its face with the words of my song to Him. 
My countenance speaks the loudest
of its fulfilled joy. 
Nothing within me has the strength to remain silent. 
All my emotions explode
as my arms reach to accept the call of His Dance. 
Carry me
in this abundance and power of its existence! 
I must begin the process
of shedding the weight of such Love
as it leaves its tracks where my feet walk. 
My body overly filled with this Substance
spilling in order to continue moving. 
I must hold hands,
speak with a smile,
give my ears to the sounds of all the beauty around me. 
The simple becomes brilliant
 and the complicated becomes simple. 
Heaven comes to earth
and torment has passed far from me. 
My eyes begin to wonder around
to soak up all the satisfaction of this Lightness
as the weight of weariness drops its hold. 
The sounds of this day
become the background for my song to He who I love. 

And there it is… I hear His Name again
…Jesus…  
I say and hear it with a smile
as Love boils inside me with this Heat of Passion. 
Over and over and over
I listen with Passion
of this love and soak in all His Name holds
for it carries
millions and millions of stories and pleasures. 
So many experienced
and so many more to explore! 
My heart beats more excitedly
as my entire attention has been captured. 
The Passion I ran to
has encircled the room I occupy
and its silence consumes all my hearing. 
With all creation, the earth and the skies,
I join in declaring it is He who I give praise
and my own heart of devotion. 
The air that fills the atmosphere
holds His Presence with this silent Power.
My love knows only to return to this Source
that first awakened me
this Christmas day after
 and express my affections
as I walk in its Life giving
constant
availability. 
I know only to enjoy…
only to accept His Touch
to my heart
and sing back my love. 
I love His Goodness and hold it dear today.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

The Gift of Jesus was Sent Again Today

Father, it is the most honorable day of the year here in the earth where You sent Your Son so long ago.  Before I was born, before I was able to hold His Hand and Hear Your Voice; before I knew how to weep, to laugh, to witness anything inward or outward, Your Son arrived so humbly.  The massive earth Formed by Your Hands accepted this tiny baby and the angels rejoiced for no One was or ever would be born like Him.  It was a history day Created for the Light of Your Glory to Shine.  Mankind would never be the same as heaven sent its Beauty and Substance to us in the form of a baby who grew and completed Your Will of Capturing our hearts towards You as He Gave even His Life to save us. Teaching as He grew how to Hear Your Voice and See Your Face.  And here I am this morning being Visited by Your Spirit that Sings to my heart the Glories of His Amazements; Visited by the same Gift sent to earth so long ago. How it makes me marvel.  God, the Father of my creation also, You who have placed the Greatest Gift within my heart… I am taken into a praise that Saturates my thoughts with a Powerful Love I crave from morning to night,  I am so humbled as I see the Worthiness of This Beauty and how it blesses my life and how Your Love Falls upon Your children as we can but seek this understanding. For our salvation was this done and the life we live be surrounded by abundance of Your Splendid Works.  Hidden for Your children only are the Unknowns.  Oh how Your Coming Marks my days with Moments of Love, how it Marks my days with Memories, Your Visits so Kind.  How my days become places and stories of Your Work as I speak His Name on earth.  The Name so Tender yet conquered this world with the Enormous Power of His Love. My Jesus who called me to Follow.  Who Whispers to my heart all the Marvels of a Kingdom not of this world.  Whose Beauty is so far passed my escape that I have been Set for eternity to its Claim.  For again I am visited by the Christ (mas) Love You Created for Your Glory and Presence to Manifest the Wonders of Your Story.  This morning I am awaken to the Song of Your Love as I hear of the Holy Night of my Savior’s Birth within my heart.  Sweetness of what this Christ child Gave in all His Walk, from beginning to eternity.  I am taken to the very thought of His first appearance to man and how Hope was revived in the weary world.  As I recall my own first recalled memory, so young but vivid to my mind, Your Acceptance and Love for me, I am overwhelmed with what a Mighty New Place I was taken to as I have grown and lived in Your Love.  The Christ child was born for me, for His Power and Glory was Shone in my heart and I wept with Joy.  I sang to my friends and my family.  A Savior had come; a Savior had Given me His Life to Live forever.  I proclaimed a New Place for His Dwelling.. in my heart to Live forever.  What a Marked Day for me and how I have treasured so many Marked days since of those Visits from Him that Changed my mind to the mind of Christ. 

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

When God Speaks, What Will I Do?

Recently I’ve been challenged to see Jesus as the baby/man that He was on earth.  Learning and listening to His Father for instructions to find just how His life on earth will develop and for what reason He came.  The detailed Example He was for us to find the Father.  I was reading this morning in Matthew 17 and found an interesting thought as I carefully read deeper than my normal routine.  I have to admit that since this challenge I want to read everything that is written in RED… :0)  Matthew 17 is the story of Jesus taking James, Peter, and John on top a mountain alone (that was interesting…. Why alone… did these three have something others did not have?  Because I read later, on the way down the mountain, He tells them NOT to tell of this event until He has risen, it makes me think they must have been more trust worthy; for how many times did Jesus tell someone to not expose what He did for them and they went immediately out and declared it all?)   But the real interest I had was when Jesus begins to talk to Moses and Elijah… wow… mighty men of old and leaders of great world changing events for the Kingdom!  I can’t help but wonder…. WHAT did they talk about; and yet my thoughts immediately tell me that they must have been encouraging Jesus, this Son of God not yet ascended on High, still on earth to endure such hardships and travail over man kind with the work God had given Him, just as they saw the call from God fulfilled in their lives.  What a Glorious time for Moses, Elijah, and Jesus…. but what about James, Peter, and John?  They were absolutely absorbed in this Sweet Presence that was an actual visual before them as they just watched with such satisfaction going on inside them.  Ahhhh… allowing the ‘Sun’ of this mighty hour consume their insides as NEVER had they FELT such amazing Substance as the Glory of God and the visual of the Light so bright to look upon.  Jesus’ face brightly shone, his clothes even turned into a white that appeared as light.  They were able to look upon it and be amazed, enriched, adorned as it no doubt caused them to have a brighter reflection on their own clothing.  Oh how I relate to sitting in the Presence of the Mighty God; soaking in His Delight as He Pours out His Spirit to allow me to see the Insides of His Wonders.  His Love shooting down every care and worry as all my affections and attention is on Him. I am overcome and ready to stay there FOREVER…!  FOREVER..! BUT… have I had GOD ALMIGHTY show up like Peter, James, and John did?  I read that a Lighted Cloud came and overshadowed them…  WHAT?… a BRIGHTER LIGHT…?  They were fine as they watched the Light of God’s Glory upon others but what about when God Him Self shows up to manifest to you and not by way of another?  …. They fell on their faces… scared beyond anything that had ever scared them before.  It appears they were NOT going to MOVE nor look upon this Light for Jesus had to literally go over and touch them to let them know it was okay.  It was life changing. I can only imagine how speechless it would make them. To Peter, staying on that mountain and building a ‘room’ for each of them was a great idea as long as he was allowed to just sit and enjoy this Glory as it flowed off of or through some one other than him self; but I don’t read of any complaints as they actually start back down the mountain when they had their socks knocked off by a Reality of God speaking to them indivually.  I think they were ready to move on… completely overwhelmed with the Penetration of that Voice which told them that Jesus was His Son….LISTEN TO HIM..!  I don’t know about you but I don’t think God EVER speaks to just be saying this, that, or the other. He Speaks to Move things. Moses or Elijah didn’t need to know who Jesus was; Jesus knew he was the Son of God.  So God had multiple reasons for this encounter and I believe a big one was He wanted these three guys to LISTEN to JESUS, get serious and LISTEN TO JESUS.  As I read this story I can’t help but cry as I relate… Oh God…. help me LISTEN TO JESUS..!!!!   Something within me becomes scared for I am aware of God’s ability.  Didn’t He create all things out of nothing…!  What will I do when God turns to me and says it is TIME for me to LISTEN…!  Fall on my face… of course.   Then the Wonder of it all hits me… oh for the amazing Love Jesus was for me before I was even born and would need the Salvation He Brought.  For He is the Way… the Perfect Way to know and understand my Father!  He has showed me that ‘it is okay’. Matt. 17:7 But Jesus came and touched them and said, Get up, and do not be afraid.(Amp Bible) This is too much..!  Not only do I see that Jesus completed the call to allow for my salvation but He shows me it is okay to even be in the VERY PRESENCE OF THE FATHER, Listen to Jesus and hear the Father for myself.  Oh God, how Lovely is Your Holy Name and Work upon man kind.  I turn my heart to hear Your Voice and come unafraid for Jesus is still showing me the Way through His Life.  He has the Answers and is the Salvation to my soul.  I give my hearing to the Call of Your Work in me.  I get up from being afraid and in aw I accept Your Loving and Embrace.  I am Yours to Teach and Train…!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Accepting the Duties of His Ownership

Good morning Lord, I am finding another moment of searching my soul to be so difficult.  I’m so guilty of wanting all the Riches of Your Kingdom without the Duties of its Ownership.  This morning I just want to express my concern and leave it at Your Gentle Side.  I see my list of wrongs with sorrow, not in pity, oh Lord, not in pity; but in repentance and in need of the Correction with Your Love.  For Your Word is like the powerful heat of the sun on a cold day.  I walk out into the blizzard weather to find in spite of the chilly stand I must go through; there is warmth that I appreciate with sincere attention, for it gives an easier attempt at passing through its tunnel and I cannot help but voice with gratitude the shining sun.  This morning I voice the gratitude of Your Son who gives me His Wisdom along with His Mercy and Love while I pass thorough this awareness of my sin.  Show me how to follow that Mighty Unction that Sounds its Plea within my hearing that I might not sin against You.  While I Wait on Your Purposes in me to be Fulfilled, help me to be humble and not stray away from the Sun’s Warmth and run under the shade of darkness.  I am longing for Correction because the Reward is Life.  Life so abundant that it’s Character is the Delight of Heavenly Sources.  The result of shedding sins coat is the Pouring of Spring’s Sunshine to warm the insides of my bones.  Heavenly Sources that Refresh and take me back to the playful child under the Watchful Eye of her Creator.  Asking not for more than my share for knowing the Order of Your Kingship and delighting in Your Provisions I am Given the Ultimate Care for my best in mind.  Playing in Your Secured Guardianship as I submit to the Taking of my cares.  My Father, who has the keys to my heart, I lay down my right to be right or wrong and give You all Rights to make Your Word Known to me.   I give in to the breaking of my stony heart that I might find it moldable and soft for the Renewing of Your Ways Accomplishments.  It is my desire to accept Your Favor by accepting Your Call.  I take hold of the Name of Jesus as I follow His Example to Hear Your Voice and Obey.  Sound out Your Love in me.  Your Kingdom come and Will be done in me as it is done in Heaven..!    Amen.