Come Take Your Place in the Center of My Heart

Good morning my God and all of Your Creation so Beautiful.  Thank You Most Precious God for awakening me this morning.  Please come and take Your Place in the center of my heart today as I ponder Your Love all around me.  

I read this morning a blog that has enriched my thoughts with such Joy. 

She wrote: I get busy here in this world and all of a sudden my soul aches. I feel like I need to reconnect with You. Only you will do Lord. I feel like I'm away from home and I start to feel homesick.

I am a stranger in the earth; ~ Psalm 119:19. Of course I miss You.

Written at http://encourageandedify.blogspot.com/2010/12/i-miss-you-today.html

My heart encountered a beautiful song this a.m., Savior, Please; by Josh Wilson. The words are such a deep prayer asking the Savior to please, keep saving me. His need for God to hold on to him as he is just not strong enough.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=002Q4gBUsy8

Last night my mother told me so kindly, ‘Got to just keep trusting God’.  I hold even today to the passion of her heart so full.

Your Love, my Savior, is my fortress and my shield.  I am safe…!

Psalms 48:3 (NIV Bible)

God is in her citadels; he has shown himself to be her fortress.

Then There Is A Voice and a Stop of Motion

I don’t know how, I don’t know what, I don’t know when but I know that Your Source is the Healing of my mind day and night.   Undistracted Devotion will Carry me for the world holds pains I cannot bear.  Their words and their cry’s give me the uneasiness of failures and most of those feel as if this one will consume me beyond repair.  Your Hope for me is total surrender and I know it is the salvation of making the wrong Right.  You are the Creator, my God… YOU are the Creator.  Is there a Creation that can take me to this Place?  Is there a trial or funnel that will cause me to fall into this surrender that Saves me.  My flesh screams but this takes me nowhere.  My mind is loud and its demands trip me into confusion.  I sing of my want of You yet the Walk gives me knowledge that I am crippled and unable to go.  Where is the bottom so that I can run to it for then my eyes will know there is nothing but You to Save.  I taste a bit of bitterness and spit out the very Wish of Your Kindness. And then it happens…I fall forward and find my life in Your Love that Gathers the Wind of Your Spirit to touch my face and my hair tumbles in its lift as I circle to experience the Life of Your Breath Blowing so Softly to Caress my heart.  The sky opens and the Glorious falls as I accept Your Kiss of Passion one finds only seldom in a lifetime.  Lost now in this garden of Your Love I sink deep into its Rich Soil and I find the Roots of Strength as I remain crippled with unknown solutions.  Looking to all sides I realize I am no longer my own, no longer alone.  No longer must I make the decision that made me fall but I can sit Here to Rest and You will Close my eyes to dismay.  You and me Here alone and only Love Speaking.  I dare not get up.  I dare not ask.  But I dare to wonder in this Garden for its Beauty has Captured my attention so strong that all I can think of is that I want to be here forever.  I would rather be here and its door keeper than to exit to any other place.  Abiding Here as Creation is Formed in me.  Abiding Here as the Wind Blows and Gives Air to my lungs.  I am so satisfied that my thoughts make a question, ‘how do I stay with You forever in this Love Burning?’  And its answer comes as I see a Walk I did not walk, a Love I did not begin, a House I did not build, a Fire I did not start.  I see a Blaze and He Sits upon a White Horse that Rides the heavens.  One that Conquered a place I never saw.  Its Brightness so Brilliant my eyes cannot look.  One all heavens and earth call Jesus.  Power and Mighty is His Fire.  I watch as the Waves of the Flames Push and consume Ownership of all space.  I crumble as His Eyes Pierce my soul.  Then there is a Voice and a Stop of Motion.  Love Speaks to me from inside first which penetrates throughout my being to escape every pore of my body so that I am now a part of a huge Fire.  His Flame of Fire Torched my heart and I became a furnace fueled by His Substance.  More, we cry… MORE, we plead.  Do not WAIT, my God.  Live in me and Burn with Your Love…!

I Didn't Know I Was Loved

Father that Comforts and Gives as if I were Your only child, Eyes focused on me today as Your Goodness was assigned to follow me, Watch me, Bring me the Best of Your Favors.  Protecting me with the many guards of Your angels assigned to see me through each day as Your Work and Love works in me.  I stand in Your Kingdom as the Seal of Your Song is upon me.  I sang a Song this morning that awakened a new place and awareness of Love.  I sang as my eyes were closed and my whole being was captured in the moment of Your Sweetness a simple thought but one that reaches the heavens with Power.  “I didn’t know I was Loved, I was Loved…. I didn’t know I was Loved, I was Loved… I didn’t know I was Loved, I was Loved.”  Over and over sang the life of my spirit within as I carried this thought to my emotions of wonder.   For I travel about here and there with lightness of a child.  I climb my mountains with the safety of Your Rope around me.  I swim the oceans with assurance that Your Life Boat Floats beside me.  And then I am awakened, I am caught by the Glimpse of Your Eyes and I stumble in awe.  I walk with two left feet and run with double jointed limps.  And again, I see Your Face and I suddenly take note that I am Loved, as a child, young as I make unwise moves and with full force set out to see to my own attempts at pleasures.  And I am stopped; I am quickened as the Words of Life set up Shields and Road Blocks that keep me from falling off the cliff of wrong pursuits.  I see Your Hand Reaching as I continue to learn to walk and feel the Love catch me at each step.  I am Loved.  I didn’t know I was Loved, I was Loved… I didn’t know I was Loved.   I sing today of what You are and how You Give for You Formed me and then Gave me the Life of Your Son for each breath that I take to sustain me as I swim my oceans and climb my mountains.  Your Eyes are beautiful and Your Hands are soft.  Your Face has Brilliance that the stars reflect.  In all I see, I awake afresh for I didn’t know I was Loved, I was Loved… I didn’t know I was Loved, I was Loved…!

In Fear I Come Before Him

God, You who Whispers and the earth hears, You who Watches and the earth is under Command, You who Spreads the skies with Your Glory for the earth to ponder.  I bow my heart and give, surrendering to what is Almighty and who Created lightening, what my mind comprehends as unsearchable powerful, but is more Powerful than a million bolts its strike could produce.  I am in awe of Your Thunder this morning as I respect with eyes low Your Voice and yet find Tracks before me to follow to come close.   I fear yet follow.  I step closer but wobble in strength.  There is a Place, Your Place, that Wakes me to so many of the real Life journeys my heart cries for.  The world looks so different from Your Place that when I fall back into my own self centeredness I can’t help but find myself wanting to run and begin a process of self cleansing and then I get caught in its trap of continuance because it doesn’t work.   I want Your Work in my life and yet it comes and I tremble.  I ask to drink from the Cup of Your Life Giving Flow and I crumble as Your Burn sets my heart in Flames.  I am weak, so very weak and need the Waters of Sanctification to Soak into my skin so that the Name of Jesus (His Worth) shows and draws all hearts to the Throne of Grace where we find Your Strength to eat of Your daily Bread.  Oh God, The God, who gave Your Son to Swallow my sin with Grace, how do I come?  How do I plead?  How do I stand under such Wonders?  How, Mighty Spirit of Fellowship, do I stay at this alter and live?   It Consumes and Takes Down the construction I built to fight with; it Forces the sand under my feet to move and I fall; it Pierces my ears with Sounds I am unfamiliar with; it weakens every muscle of my soul… I will be destroyed and die and I am scared…!  But I am Wooed by a Source that Warms my heart and Assures New Life in return.  I want to run but I seem to crawl.  I want to jump but I seem to only fall.  God, with all Greatness and Power, I know only to ask; to ask Your pardon and that Your Strength continue to Embrace my weaknesses so that daily I am brought to This Place, Your Place of Mercy and Love.  I fear but You are Safe… I tremble but You are Righteous… I fall but You are Mighty… I come by the Help of Your Hand…!

Prayer Made SIMPLE, Just Believe

What ever you believe in prayer, you shall have it. Matt 21:22 (Message Bible)

We have been afraid of what we believe and have tried to pray things we don’t believe. 

Okay, here is what I’m thinking.  Jesus is hungry! Okay… I can identify with that, …I SURE get hungry!  He sees a fig tree… I LOVE figs!  He goes to pick some for breakfast and finds it isn’t producing so He tells it; Fine, you’ll never grow fruit.  Wow… Okay, so I was with Him until He did that. 

I’ve heard all sorts of sermons and thoughts on this scripture but I can’t recall hearing the thought it gave me this morning.  This act of authority over this tree absolutely amazed His disciples, as it does me!  Why did He do this; and even a more intriguing question I have is HOW?  Jesus tells His disciples it is more or less ‘simple’, you just have faith and do not doubt…!  Hum…. No doubting??  Oh my, I’m bad about doubting L 

BUT, not in all things J Ah ha..!  That’s it… My thoughts begin to swim around a little…! 

My faith has built so much in the last year simply because of the falls and successes of tremendous trials.  As I was bombarded with them, I began putting all my trust in Him, the One who cares for me and I started being more real than I have EVER.  If I was screaming mad, I took it to Him and told Him I’m screaming mad and allowed His Love to calm and direct me, and this occurred many times through family and friends.  If I was excited out of my wits, I took it to Him and gave praise.  But I began TAKING it ALL to Him… good and bad....all that I am, all that I want to be and absolutely all my doubts and fears with a new confidence He could handle it, or better put, He would ‘help’ me with it. 

I learned… praise moves my heart, honesty moves His Heart..!

I saw His Hand over and over and over building me as He gave me room to grow.   I see this scripture as a new Light and reason to be glad when trials come my way.  Why, because it will built my faith as I look to the One Source and He works over the ‘real’ me…!  BUT I must be real, pray real, and not be afraid to look in the mirror and see myself for who I am and take that image to Him to change to become Like Him.  And in that building, I will find faith to move the mountains and cause the fig tree to die. 

Jesus was so involved in the mighty moving of mountains; but even so and more where I am, the small hungers of our day. 

This is just amazing to me…!  What a Great Savior to show us the Way to the Father..!

Here is the story told in the Ampliphed Bible.

Matthew 21:

   ¹⁸In the early dawn the next morning, as He was coming back to the city, He was hungry. ¹⁹And as He saw one single leafy fig tree above the roadside, He went to it but He found nothing but leaves on it [seeing that in the fig tree the fruit appears at the same time as the leaves]. And He said to it, Never again shall fruit grow on you! And the fig tree withered up at once. ²⁰When the disciples saw it, they marveled greatly and asked, How is it that the fig tree has withered away all at once? ²¹And Jesus answered them, Truly I say to you, if you have faith (a firm relying trust) and do not doubt, you will not only do what has been done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, Be taken up and cast into the sea, it will be done. ²²And whatever you ask for in prayer, having faith and [really] believing, you will receive.

Loved So Deeply

I offer now,

early this Sunday morning,

something in my heart that smiles. 

Something that one might even call cheesy…

it’s just so full of mush. 

I have a grateful heart this morning

and from that attitude

I find all sorts of giggling thoughts. 

Loved so deeply,

I keep finding my walk more like a skip! 

Loved so deeply,

my conversation seems more

like a song

rather than just a combination of words! 

His Name that brings such Rewards,

has this Melody

that rolls around in my mind

as if a waltz

in step with the Melody. 

The Foundation and Strength of so much Love

causes me

to feel consumed and satisfied

as the total Life Source for my existence. 

As my eyes began to open this morning

I pondered

this Miracle of Life so Abundant. 

With a childish acceptance

I realize I didn’t deserve it

but was Awarded its Gift just because. 

Just because He Is...! 

Just because

He has this Abundant Supply

and long ago,

He Gave it to the world...!

:-) 

I didn’t do anything

to earn it. 

I didn’t do anything

 to own it. 

I am just His and so I get it. 

I am so Loved…!

I Love You, Nana

I stare before me, my Lord, a note upon my monitor that says, ‘I love you Nana’ and a drawing of a heart to represent this love from a portion of the center of my precious granddaughter’s feelings, her heart. 

She placed it on a door

and then decided that her choice of location

was extremely too far away from my eyes. 

She wanted it to be

at the utmost prominent place

where I had no choice

but to get this message she did not take lightly. 

For as a child,

they are quick to say or expose

those they do not like also;

so if you are loved by a child…

you are truly loved.  

And what brings them such delight

when sharing this message with you

is to see your response in return…

your love. 

This morning as I look at this note,

I am reminded

that Jesus has written me so many notes

and in that same hope of my response,

to favor His Gift of Love to me.   

Oh Jesus,

I do,

oh yes, I do! 

How many times

have You wrote upon my heart

and placed it so I would not get through

without stumbling into it. 

How many times have You placed it

on the very objects of my affections

so that You could

Shine Your Presence

and very Heart Beat of Love

where I could not possibly overlook it. 

How many times

have I simply walked my day

to find Your Fingerprints

upon my work and play. 

Oh Jesus, I Love You too. 

So much,

I love You too…!