Search Me Oh Lord

Psalm 139:23-24

“Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”

God has me in a ‘search’ mode.  Gosh, I love His Love Potions drenched upon my heart so much better, where I shower in a Place that tickles of His Passion.  I love His Lap of Pleasures as I sit up so tall and tell Him of all my journeys of fun adventures and His Smile returns to my eyes with Sincere Warmth.  As I talk, He Rubs my thoughts with His Approval and Tenderly He Encourages me to continue.  It swells up as I become amazed at His Love so un-Judging and with such long-Suffering to Cover my silliness and just enjoy and delight in our time together. He Listens as I learn what a Love Relationship is built with.  I marvel.

I read a scripture yesterday that startled me.  It is about a rich ruler that came to Jesus in Luke 18.  The ruler wants to know how to inherit eternal life for he had kept all the laws as far as he knew.  The ruler’s approach was even to address Jesus as ‘Good’.  Jesus heard him call him appropriately and returned a question that was really a Declaration of this ruler’s understanding and Depth of knowledge the ruler had of Him (Jesus) as Jesus/God was One.  As the ruler told Jesus all he had done, Jesus did not say 'oh no you didn't...!' Jesus asked him, ‘why do you call me Good… only One is Good and that is God.’  I could see something I have always been puzzled about.  This ruler actually did what he had said he did and he saw God that dwelled in Jesus for no answer to His question was made but just what Jesus/God felt the ruler was to do to inherit this Kingdom of eternal life.  I use to wonder if Jesus was saying He wasn’t Good… but that never made sense to me.  This startled me as I realize I too SEE God, asked God what to do.  Do I then turn and say,,,, ‘geesseeeee, why are You asking something so big of me, isn’t that a bit overboard?’   Something inside wept as I identified with the knowledge of God, the seeing of His Mercy, the understanding of His Word… a visual of God and often find the inability to make the change to my weakness.  I weep this morning as I continue to pray…

Psalm 139:23-24

 “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”  

Father, that Treats me to the Abundance of Your Table day and night.  My Lord that Carry’s my burdens and Lifts my countenance as each day arrives.  I am in mourning for my flesh is found weak.  I am in weariness for my desire is to take in more of You and yet I am faulty with what I know.  Father, Forgive me, oh my God, Forgive me, and Thank You for Covering me with the Righteousness of Jesus’ Blood that was Shed which allows me to be Bold with my heart’s need to change.  Jesus Loves me this I know, for the bible tells me so.  I have risen to Heights of Amazements as I wonder in the Gardens of Your Love.  I have known above understanding the ability of Your Power to Save.  I now come as an adult but with child like assurance of Your Response for my good.  For You only are Good; You only are found without fault.  I am in working of this Word that Dwells in the center of all my thoughts and decision and weep for the times I have heard You Call and I respond with ‘that is too much’.  Father, Your Yoke is easy, Your Burden is Light.  I am sorry for I know Your Heart is to Heal, and yet I stumble in that knowledge.  I know Your Love is to Cover, and yet I stumble by accepting it but not giving it.  I know Your Salvation was sent to Place ‘ME’ in high Places and yet I am found placing others lower.  Jesus came to earth laying down ALL to only Follow Your Way, yet when I don’t get my way I whine and become bitter.  Father I repent and find Your Grace so Abundant.  I know my strengths but I am weeping over my weaknesses.  I can and will only be satisfied with Your Love that exposes my weakness for Your Glory to be shown.  I rest in the Guidance and Comfort that Your Word is over me.  Lead me to Your Righteousness...!

Hebrews 4:15

For we do not have a High Priest Who is unable to understand and sympathize and have a shared feeling with our weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of temptation, but One Who has been tempted in every respect as we are, yet without sinning.    

I hold to Your Understanding above my own.  I keep pressing in to that Mark that You have Set for me for You Understand.  I am excited for Your Direction is Full of Joy and Satisfying.  I look to the Mighty Given Source with a grateful heart as I stand under the Blood of Jesus who has not only Paved this Way for me but IS NOW Guiding me to Your Kingdom of Righteousness to Reign.  In and by the Name of Jesus who is Hosanah the Highest and my Conquering King.

Women of Bitterness

I must cry with passion this morning for I have just implanted within my heart a beautiful story.  A story His Spirit quickened me to open, to rehearse and ponder as the morning sun rises to say hello.  Oh with Joy I see His Salvation.  With Comfort I see His Hand so large it Holds all.  I am centered in His Hand with room to roam as It Covers my heart and path to explore.  I see birds playing in the trees as the morning give it’s offering to their needs.  From tree to tree they scatter to glean from what their Creator has provided so that today a song escapes to cause the music of Praise echo their flight.  So effortless they soar and mindless to play as earth has abundance to wonder.  And so I sing.  And so I soar.  For I am more Worth, says He who constantly Proves He Loves me.  In my busyness I fly from place to place scattering to find the provision of my needs, for my Creator has Laid out the Harvest for me to Glean His Love, and my Baskets become abundantly full in so much I cannot consume it all.  How sweet to watch as many Drop their best for me to gather, this Love Brought to me, so I too may lay it at the feet of my circle.  For I have daughters of blessings.  Those of Great Price such as the story unfolds in the Book of Ruth, oh how sweet that my Beloved Took my heart to, this dawn of His Day.  This women was given the name of Naomi, but from her loss Naomi changes her name to Bitter for she had tasted the riches to plant and grow life among her loves and yet fallen to lose it all.  Her heart was of great love for her family and this new place of loss made her grow bitter.  But God was placing the Fruit of His Provision around her so her Path would be made clear and she dared to let go of her old god and follow back to the Home, the God of her heart.  Then His Miraculous again gave way to her eyes as she found favor among her circle.  One was devoted to her, one was sincere, one was hungry for what she saw and heard from within the heart of a beginning.  So she remained attached and God gave Favor as birthed within the one so devoted came the son of, the son of, the son of David the King, the man after her God’s heart.  To Glean the Fields of His Kingdom brings the Harvest of Riches unknown, tomorrows of Joy, dances of the Flight of Lightness.  Good morning Son of the Most High to whom was born through the linage of one so broken and bitter.  Bright is the Light that You are Wrapped in and Powerful to Remove bitter from the soul as Son shines to chase away unwanted deeds of darkness and gloom.  For on goes the Life of the inheritance of faithfulness to generation to generation.  On goes the Praises of my heart for I am Blessed with Your Favor.  My children are Carried to hear the Heart Beat of Your Love and Stolen to its Warmth will be their Heart as well. 

Screams of Repentance

Oh God, take it, take it all. Take what I sell out that keeps me from Your Presence and Your Countenance upon me.  Uncover those traits that I hide in secret that will destroy me if continued.  I will only be satisfied with Your Work and yet I plan, hope for, and devise my own work.  Father of my heart, Father of my soul, Father of my flesh, show Your Power in the earth to Cleanse my impurities I so gladly accept.  Teach me how not to sin in the Name of Your Precious Son, Jesus.  Teach me to die to the god I serve and show me the Path that takes me to You, the only One True God.!  Help me NEVER judge my own place with You by Your Love for the people You Love and minister to through me.  You are my Judge and only You!  I find Your Judgment and I cannot stand. I find my judgment and I stand tall.  Oh my Savior who continues to Save me from my lies as I cover my own sin with why's and how's and what for's.  God Come to me, come to the place I am for I am weary and need Your Great and Mighty Gentle Corrections to find Peace that will Build Your Kingdom.  How beautiful is the repentive heart I see in others but how soiled and difficult it is for me to find the same place.  Oh God, Save me from the vision I have of myself.  Save me with Your Kindness as Your Love Falls Down upon me and causes me to only weep with sorrow of my sins.   Taking in Your Precious Fear to see the 'snake' that is hiding in my heart of tunnels so that I will run swiftly to kill and conquer by the Word of Your Great Power.  Your Affection amazes me.  It is horrid to the flesh but the Winning Boundary of Deliverance to my heart.  I know You are not out to bruise me but to Take me to Fresh Waters that Cleanse me into Your Kingdom of Wonders.  I am seeking, oh my God of All Creation, Continue to Search me and Rip Open the Gates of Your Banner Over me with the Love of Correction and Purity.  I hate the sins of my flesh.  I hate the love of this world I hold onto.  I am the Mighty Warrior only under this Banner.  I serve myself well and fall in serving You.  You are gracious, I am self centered.  Steady my heart in the Lap of Your Balances.  You are the Lord God of all, I am Your Workmanship.  I was born in sin and will die in sin unless Your Eyes become mine so that I will change not as I hold to the Only One God of all.  All the enemy’s accusations are built to kill me but Your Corrections are made to Save me into eternity.  Oh Father that I love, thank You for Your Love I am growing in.  Thank You for such a Plan that takes me to see Your Face with the Beauty of Riches unheard of and Sights unknown but Correct me of ever using this to hide my sins. I am grateful for the Spirit within that has my heart held to Yours. I listen to Your Heart Beat with a dance that Lifts me off of this ground and into a Realm beyond my imaginations.  You are Gracious and I respond back with wrong attitudes as the impurities of my flesh are revealed.  Oh how I hate with passion the lies and sins of my flesh.  I lay at Your Feet Waiting. Oh God, WAITING, WAITING, WAITING!  Oh GOD, I WAIT upon You.!!!

A Bride in Waiting

Today, my day in Him, I continue to wait with much excitement as I flutter in passion.  For my wait is of depth that comes from a place within, like a light in darkness… it controls the atmosphere for darkness cannot stay.   What a tremendous smile of hope for tomorrow as well as a perfect place to dance today.  For I am a bride in waiting!  A bride pampered for the feast of all celebrations.  A bride with whom the Holy Spirit is Walking through the Grace of Beauty for the union of my eternity with my Groom.  I giggle as I speak of my love so enormous.  I pull back into the memories of so many wonderful times I have had in the Courtship of my Beloved.  The first time I met Him as a child so young I still see vividly in position as He Tenderly Comes into my Life with His Arms so Wide.  His Touch Melted all resistance of a strong will and I have never been the same.  For even as a child I needed the Completeness He would make in my little world.  As our life continued together, I found it of such interest, all the places and things my Beloved was.  He traveled like no other.  He saw and loved like no other.  He came with a Heart so Extravagant that it changes every soul that dares to Touch Him.  His Feet Walked the very ground of the earth and yet He was of the Kingship not of this earth.  He was of such Royalty that all creation was at His Call yet He wanted me and came to Choose me with His Gift of Life.  His Feet took Him place after place to Give Truth and Prepare my ears to hear so I could accept His Love.  He Knew I would need His Continence Leading to Waters of His Compassion so He Traveled, His Feet so tired and weary, in Obedience to His Heart.  No territory was too mighty or small for His Feet to Trod, for I was Posted by my Father on His Heart as a Reward, a bride that would ache, covet, dream of His Return and wait.  So I do so with yearning of heart so full and ever growing of the knowledge of His Name as I Kiss His Feet with my love’s passion.  For the Steps He made for me to the final Walk that Sealed our engagement with eternal Life took Him up that hill of surrender.  Oh yes, a thousand times yes, I kiss the Feet of One I love, for His Love has embraced me with Love in Extreme to overwhelm me.  I wait with joy…!

Take Me To Your House, Oh God

Take me to Your House, my LORD,

Take me to Your Heart,

The Sound of a New Song. 

Melody of each Word,

Harmony of my heart. 

Take me to Your House, my God. 

Let me step into the heavens

On each Word of Light

Sprang upon the darkness of my soul. 

Give the Lift of Weightlessness

To the stony heart so heavy. 

Show me thousands of Carriers

Who Stand before my fight. 

As the crumble of my thoughts fall,

Reach for each thought

As if they were tears

And gather them to Hold me Near

As I watch Your Love Appear. 

Let me hear the Voice

That Lullaby’s my anxiety

To smiles and dreams of Love exchanged. 

Where Cherry Trees are in Blossom

My choice to pick which one.

For the Fruit of Your Beauty

Has Deep Root within my heart,

Reviving the weariest of troubled times

Causing me to be Lost in Your Love. 

Come now and Cover me

In Music that Eases the spirit

Listen to my passion

See the signs of my heart. 

For I wait now,

I wait in my garment of praise. 

I wait

For Your Voice of Comfort. 

I wait

For the Melody of each Word

I give harmony of my heart.

The Garment of His Love

In a mountain of uneven steps to climb, my God of all height and depth, I find Your Sure Footing as You Direct my course, my vision, upward and Give Strong Courage to keep climbing.  Pouring Hope into thoughts that are Alive because Your Love has been Placed around me to gird with Safety Equipment that Assures me against failure in my falls.  I have every Promise of Safety about me starting from the very shoes you Place on my feet.  Causing me to continue the climb as I chip into the mountain and make my next step upward that does not disappointment me, oh no, but increases my Joy as the Step gives amazing sight to the Equipment Created for Your Face to Shine.  I love the Garments of Your Love.  Designed for the task before us to extreme Detail to Reflect who You are.  We are loaded with Your Beauty because Your Desire is to bring us Closer to the Knowledge of Something so Outrageous; a top the Mountain, Your Outrageous Love.  Your Glance I see and I have over and over Love at First Sight, stricken now with an inability to conceal my own helpless heart to do anything but smile back.  Powerless to resist as the Climb reaches success, Your Love Carry’s me to the Chambers of Your Embrace.  I am a slave to Your Passion.  The mountain that was so steep and unlevel becomes solid flat ground as Love now Carries.  Your Love has taken its Place in the center of my heart and I am dancing.  For I now dance with Your Son, Jesus, whom You Gave to be the Friend, the Groom of those who love Him.  As my eyes sought You out, my Father, I behold the Gift that Outrageous Love Sent and I am engulfed in His Way that keeps calling my name.  Bringing me the Roses of Sweet Romance that catches every emotion in my being.  My own love swells as I stare at its Beauty.  Caught by the Banner of this Love over me just as I am, I marvel.  Where and why is fear holding its place like it was invited?  I am my Beloved’s and He is mine.  I ignore fear as Love’s Light allows no room for its existence.  A thousand angels come to watch the Union of Total Surrender.  The Songs of the Wedding Rise as the Banquet Table is set and the Wine of Intoxicating Love fills the heavens.  The bride is made spotless by the Way of the Father’s Outrageous Love.  Expand our hearts to receive as we, the bride, surrender to the Gift of Jesus Christ. 

Revelation 22:17 (Message Bible)
The [Holy] Spirit and the bride (the church, the true Christians) say, Come! And let him who is listening say, Come! And let everyone come who is thirsty [who is painfully conscious of his need of those things by which the soul is refreshed, supported, and strengthened]; and whoever [earnestly] desires to do it, let him come, take, appropriate, and drink the water of Life without cost.

Come Take Your Place in the Center of My Heart

Good morning my God and all of Your Creation so Beautiful.  Thank You Most Precious God for awakening me this morning.  Please come and take Your Place in the center of my heart today as I ponder Your Love all around me.  

I read this morning a blog that has enriched my thoughts with such Joy. 

She wrote: I get busy here in this world and all of a sudden my soul aches. I feel like I need to reconnect with You. Only you will do Lord. I feel like I'm away from home and I start to feel homesick.

I am a stranger in the earth; ~ Psalm 119:19. Of course I miss You.

Written at http://encourageandedify.blogspot.com/2010/12/i-miss-you-today.html

My heart encountered a beautiful song this a.m., Savior, Please; by Josh Wilson. The words are such a deep prayer asking the Savior to please, keep saving me. His need for God to hold on to him as he is just not strong enough.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=002Q4gBUsy8

Last night my mother told me so kindly, ‘Got to just keep trusting God’.  I hold even today to the passion of her heart so full.

Your Love, my Savior, is my fortress and my shield.  I am safe…!

Psalms 48:3 (NIV Bible)

God is in her citadels; he has shown himself to be her fortress.