He Wanted Me

Can it really be another day?  Yesterday was so full of Love Expression upon my heart that I found my yearning satisfied so many times with unending Visuals of such Beauty as a lot of Hand Holding was done.  This morning as I gave time to worship before going to work, I was again Taken to the Arms of His Kindness as God’s Rain Filled the room. 

Father, inside my whole being melts as we Walk and Talk together.  Sometimes I get so tickled at myself after being with You in an Open Heart Session for some of the ways I thought.  It Amazes me how You so Gently Share Your Kind Love and my own thought process slowly shifts and changes.  Sometimes a change of understanding is a great degree of Change, so much that it seems to completely turn me around; and other times I can only handle an Adjustment.  I love the Adjustment I received this morning of what even a Gift from You is all about.  Tell me more Father, oh please tell me more!  Give New Understandings to Build upon what was Shared this morning.  Your Gifts, and I have so many, are always made to bring me closer to You, to better understand so that I grow in the Knowledge of who You are.  You Gave Your Son… WHY? Because You wanted me to be closer to You and to better understand, grow in the Knowledge of who You are.  You Gave me children,,, WHY? You wanted me to be closer to You and to better understand, grow in the Knowledge of who You are.  Your Gifts are Poured upon us for Your Work to be accomplished in us.  A child, oh Father, thank You with my whole heart for giving me children; but so often the challenges of these Gifts made me fear, made me cry, made me hurt to the inner most core of my existence.  So I sought You, I ran to You, I come to bring You my heart of concerns for them.  How Amazing that these Gifts from You turn such difficult times to Beautiful Places in You, bringing me to You because You wanted me.  A Gift of a job, a Gift of a soul mate, a Gift of friends and family… all from You because You wanted me.  Forgive me Father for ugliness that comes from my heart when dealing with a Gift of Love You Brought to me because You wanted me.  I accept the Gifts that are Given to sharpen my awareness that You want me.  For EVERY Good Gift comes from the You, Father.  And ALL things work to the Good of those who love You.  Because You wanted me I may meet a difficult situation today and the tuning of my heart needs adjustment.   I find frustrations so easily but I will look to You who Orders my footsteps because You wanted me.  

I am grateful for Your Gifts and thank You for wanting me…!

Love Floats Lightly About the Air I Breathe

I sit here and have just been caught up in such Love.  I am of need to spill out again from its unmatched Musical Sounds within, so deep, as my own love escapes with unheard Songs with the Countenance of His Face.  Like a String of Vapor Forming to take Shape with Streaks of Colors as this Love Floats Lightly about in the air I breathe.  Each Sound Stays to Linger and Give Richness as it waits for the next breath to join and consume the room with its Greatness.  You, oh my God, You are my God that I lean into for Life as my thoughts seek to praise You.  Thoughts seeking to reach the Courts of Your House; thoughts from my soul that will cover you as I wade in the Waters of Fresh Springs unlike any known on earth, while it bathes the heart with Clarity.  My words hold my heart and passion of appreciation and I want to pour my love back to the Ears that taught me such Passion.  You are Good and I am of aw of the Safety that Your Name and Walk Provides me during the night when I cannot see, and so Abundant during the day while I am being tossed and tried of its darkness.  You are the Stillness I hold to in each shaking. You are the Total Wisdom in each storm that rises to prove where You Live.  You Listen before I speak.  You Find me before I am lost.  You Cover me before it rains.  Your Warnings are like the Safety of unfound tunnels as I am Hidden in the Walls of Jesus Messiah, Your Beloved Son.  My voice is heard without an utterance.  Your Trust is Building its Foundation in me with Your Love that Delivers me from evil.  I just want to give You this moment, this time in this way, as I make an effort to return to You my inner thoughts that are the real rule of who I am.  Seated with You through Christ Jesus, the Perfect Sacrifice for my existence in You.  I want my whole being sing Holy, Holy, Holy, Most High God.  Holy as Perfection has Complete Fulfillment and Honor finds me on my knees.  The earth is Yours as we Echo the angels that Declare You are Holy.  We find You Holy in the Total of who You are.  Holy with Pureness and faultless from the beginning to the end.  All Your Steps to Show Your Greatness has been seen as Love and by accepting this Love I am Climbing into the Way of Your Kingdom.   You have Started a Love Exchange in my heart and I am Singing of its Goodness.  For today and forever, I want to be established in the Kingdom as Your Owned. 

The Road Called Worry

Oh Mighty God of my Inheritance, Salvation of my soul.  The God, only God, who has Sought me with Amazing Lengths to Open my heart to Your Own for Your Pleasure and mine.  The eyes of my heart searches, takes time this morning to find Your Astounding Place my Father, to be Stayed upon You.  For You Sit upon the Throne of Greatness and all Wisdom which has been Poured Out for the walk we were designed to travel.  I search for the Key that unlocks the Secrets to This Place for I am human and find distractions the path often taken.  You have Placed Road Signs in all of my days but I often find a side-road of curiosity.  This morning I found a side-road for I awoke with worry scratching at freshly healed wounds; and with reluctance but curiosity, I took a slower look at it to find the coldness of its apparel left me in want and concern.  I saw pain and sorrow and knew it was a place I could ponder but I became confused to whether it was for me to travel.  As I lift up my thoughts to Your Greatness and all Wisdom I seek with a pause in my travels for I find desire for a clearer map that is written in my language, considering my age, written for my day and in my aria of time.  The turmoil of my understandings are so mixed with the roads traveled in the past that took me off course, this time I want to avoid.  The Voice within is such a special Knowledge that keeps Knocking for my attention but with it is outside stumbling rocks and weeds grown up in my path.  Lost in this crossroad I just stop and look Up, for again Your Love reminds me of Your Constant Care and that the Results of Your Wisdom Take my feet and Direct their course.  Today is not yesterday, today is a completely different day and holds a multitude of New Light for my pathway.  Your Kindness brings back the smile that left when I got distracted and curious on a road called worry.  The Pure Reach of Your Hand to Guide with Love is what Restores Life Abundant.  Staying on the Road Built with a Foundation of Love will Keep my feet from slipping.  Your Love never fails and the Beauty of such a Word Sings its Song both in the heavens and the earth with Power I have yet to tap into.  The Power of Pure Love can take on a maze of distractions for its Source Comes from the Beginning and has more than efficient Supply to the end.  It caused the army of religious men to crumble, yet caused the Wake of millions and millions of souls to walk His Path, His Way.  Pure Love Gives in Constance.  It sees past the initial sight of a different road to travel and sees the end to its destruction so it Turns away.  Knowing the small comfort to the flesh is quickly smothered with the pains of wondering in darkness.  Love has Massive, Mammoth, Astronomical, Revelations to Strip Blindness and Feed the soul with Health for Life and Life more Abundantly.  I see Your Love, Father and Your Kindness that Sent Your Only Son for me.  As I accept This Love for myself, I purpose to give it also with the Strength of what it does for me and to me.  I am one Loved and Cherished, and in Your Love I am becoming Your Image as I fight the fight to the end.

Ephesians 6:  ….12 - 18 (The Message)

This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels. Be prepared. You're up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet. Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You'll need them throughout your life. God's Word is an indispensable weapon. In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.

Father, I pray, I pray hard and long for Your Love to Develop Strong in me and my children, family and friends; so that we will know how to APPLY Truth, Righteousness, Peace, Faith, and Salvation to make them more than words.  By applying Love as the Foundation for every move we make as You have done in Sending Your Son for our salvation because You Loved while we were yet sinners.  Amazing...! As You have said, Love the Lord God with all your heart, mind and soul and Your neighbor as yourself.  The Foundation for all Your Work and Direction for ours is Love.  My prayer is completely based upon the Son You Sent, Jesus Christ, who has Showed us this Mighty Love You have and Work from. 

Love That Takes Away My Previous Understanding

Yearning inside swells

as Whispers Fall like soft rain

and begin to Soak my thoughts. 

Come, says the Rain.  Come, Says Love, as the Pitter-Pat of Warm Sounds make Their way to my heart’s hearing.  

So I run to the Mountain of Your Shadow where the Train of Your Glory Fills the Sphere of my existence.  Where Intimacy is so Extreme no other can gather there with me.  Just You and I caught together as a New Song escapes my heart to lift the weight of Love that You have Ravished over me. 

My heart searched and without disappointment, I arrive to find such a Special Intimacy.  An Intimate Place that has Sweetness even at its Door.  I can hardly catch my breath in anxiousness, full with anticipation of what is to come.  I stop at the Door with my eyes wide open to consume and gather all that I can visualize.  

I am overwhelmed with

Love’s First Words,

“ooooOOOoo, Thank you For Coming, My Love for you Is Extraordinary Today!” 

Its Sound hits every weakness I have and suddenly, Strength of Your Song Gives my weariness Fresh Food I find only at Your Banquets.  Tears escape my eyes, for even though my heart knew of Love’s Extreme, the Moment carry’s such Fragrance to all my senses, I allow His Words Surround me in His Captivation of my visit. 

I am so full of need and painful failures and yet His First Words are Fashioned from Pure Love and Acceptance.  The Solid of this Emotion and the Piercing of its Direction towards me is something New Created each time, again and again, forming Higher and Higher in me to be a vessel to carry such a Portion of Wonder.  I wait and I empty myself of thoughts of self worth or words that want to come to qualify such Tender Love Over me and for me!  I find no score in my findings. I accept the Generous Gift in which I have nothing in return to pay, accept who I am, surrendering to His Love.  I step forward Drenched in the Substance of such Great Love. 

I again fall but His Eyes Catch me; His Voice Beckons me to Rise and Live.  I speak, How can I stand? How can I move? For I am trembling as I see with Newness, Your Love so Pure!

Your Love moves me to humility that

takes away my previous understanding. 

Your Arms are Outstretched and without a distraction or waver You Show me that You have been Waiting, and all Your Thoughts are to Bring me Closer to even this Moment.  Even this Day You have Made for me and Your Pleasure over me.  This Moment is of Grandeur Purposes as the Saturating Gift of Your Love Never Lets Up.  You Never Take Your Eyes off of me.  Every word I utter, every step I take, every sound of my heart is Filtered to my Father by Love’s Pure Eyes upon me as He Continues to Make Everything Beautiful for me. 

I give in…everything within me weeps. 

I am His; and by His Love in Constant Motion towards me, and with Love Holding me, I accept such a Gift.  Totally in the Intimacy of Divine, I give my self to play in His Courtyard of my heart.  Reaching to give room for His Jealous Love for me, I surrender to the Call that Whispers its Soft Rain to come. 

I run. 

I run to the Love that Carry’s my world.   

Fragrance Of A Field I Came Upon

Papa Father, what are You Thinking today?  It is so early in the morning and I am so curious.  I see a complete day ahead… many, many minutes to be shared with others and so I am searching this morning.  Your Son came and He made a Connection to those You Sent His Way.  Words He Spoke were of Ultimate Importance and His Footsteps were Designed to Follow Your Heart to Gather the Multitude towards You.  Finding Love as the Foundation for every Word Spoken.  This caused my own Explosion within my heart as I too was Placed in His Purpose from the Work of Your Soft Wind.  He Poured out Mercy to Reveal Your Heart and I have fallen slave to This Love.  I breathe to know it deeper.  I seek to find its Covering.  I praise so that my eyes make contact with its Beauty.  I hear even the Mention of His Name so Pure and it lingers on my heart as I repeat it over and over, Jesus, my Jesus, oh Jesus, sweet Jesus….. JESUS…..!  It is like the Name Covers me with a Blanket that Consumes all my thoughts and gives them a New Attitude.  They had one meaning prior to the Entrance of His Name and a much different Meaning after the Sound of His Satisfying Name makes Union with my distant heart.  It is like the fragrance of a field I come upon slowly to find first the aroma of such delight and want to stop to breath it in and then share, ‘do you smell what is entering the room.’  As I enjoy the Air that is Penetrating my lungs, my pores and surroundings I am Stricken with Stillness for Moments Recorded in eternity. I Wait with Its Amazements Saturating my thoughts.  And then with as deep of breathes I can take, I freeze for this one purpose; to slowly inhale so that I can savor this time of Awakening.  I hold it for as long as I can.  I am now so full of its Aroma I cannot continue.  I exhale and open my eyes to find the Field I am in is of Brilliant Colors that have no Flaws.  Each Color Pierces with Exactness, much like a Perfect Picture of a Moment.  For Control of its Revelation is for those only who Know His Name; those who have risen to the Power of His Name and Look in on the Marvels of Its Movements.  A Perfect Picture but yet it does not remain still.  Its Picture Moves as it Wills and I am Encouraged to Follow.  ‘Fix Your Eyes Upon Me’ it Pleas.  The Sounds of the Words are like Drums that are beating in sync with my own heart beats.  The Colors are Sharp and within each Color comes its Sound as my ears open to hear.  I am Caught by the Sights and Sounds of such Purity.  Where has He Taken me?  What have I done to be Allow such an Exploration of Unknown?  A Voice Comes back to my Awakened heart.  It Reveals the Sounds of its Presence.  “I AM” I hear as I stare at this New Song.  A Sound Comes again….“Be Still and Know I AM God.”  I melt as I behold all around me is the Creation of His Hand.  Nothing is without His Knowledge, His Making, His Love Poured upon.  The Existence of my day, the Existence of my breath, the Existence of my next step…. His Love Out Stretched for me and the Final Day.  I am Still, He is God…!

Sleepy Eyed

My eyes are open this morning as the sun (Son) has risen to show off its Abundance; Proud to be of Service to my troubled heart.  I stumble out of bed and His Love Directs me to the Fountain.  I slept prior to this awakening with pleas of His Warmth to Come.  With a frown upon my heart I whine of my weakness.  Oh come, I cry, to put a Whistle in the Tune in my voice.   For winter wears down my countenance but the sun (Son) Gives Light and Open Space to Run and Play in the Fields of Gladness.  I tried to build a light but it failed me.  I tried to build a room but it smashed me in its walls.  I tried to carry the load upon my back but it broke me.  Winter set in like a north wind with no where else to go.  And so I slept.  But as I slept the Dreamer Came to my heart.  Softly He Shares the Day ahead.  Softly He Bids me to once again dare to get up another time.  I resisted and awakened lightly to say ‘it’s only a dream’.  But again the Passion Comes to my Inner Room where I left the Door Slightly Open.  Softly again He Whispers His Dream upon my mind and with a Brighter Vision He Bids my whole heart to reach once again.  I struggle, ‘What do I hear?’  ‘What is happening?’  ‘Why is This Troubling me?’  I shut the eyes of my Seeing and sleep. 

Oh but Love is so Sleepless.  Love is Enduring.  Love is Stretched Beyond limits of closed eyes.  Love Walks through boundaries.  Love Shakes with Long Suffering and Determination to Save.  Love never fails.  So I am stirred to Take His Hand and Open an eye.  I am shot with holes of despair but I cannot deny this Light that continues to Wake me.  I lost hope but Hope Keeps Peering into my soul.  The sun (Son) has Shined into my partially open curtains and my sleep is Disturbed.  I roll over and say, ‘not now, let me sleep.’  But the sun (Son) Kisses me Good morning.  Why? I ask.  The sun (Son) says ‘because our Father has Called us.’  Called us to what? I say.  ‘Oh, He has Called us to His Kingdom where all sorrow and pain will be Wiped Away.  Rise and Run with Me, Rise and Work Along My Side for our Father’s Love will Multiply in us.  The Father’s Love will Flood the earth with Its Sweetness and all His sleepers will Awaken.  He is Calling by His Love Abundance.  Awake and See…!’

So sleepy eyed I have dared to think changes.  Sleepy eyed I am peeking into New Hope.  This Brightness is Brighter than my eyes seem to adjust to but I am working slowly to open as Water Falls of Love are Insisting I am its Destiny.  I have agreed to contain its Pool but I know I will soon be Over Flowed with Its Water. 

Maybe I can find another sleepy head and share this Abundance.

Love That Stops the World I Was In

Oh how heavy the heart is when injustice to my Lord comes from my own lips.  Impossible is the pain heard from others.  For doesn’t one cry of despair in the darkness.  Doesn’t a heart find a rock to hide under when the difficulties of exposure becomes the obvious.  Don’t you close the door before you weep with repentance?  The voice comes to you from every corner… arise and do not allow depression to be the covering of your head.  Don’t you Know the God of all, pardons your sin with giggles and songs.  Oh how I have used this garment too long to find my escape from changing my heart.  I am weak with knowledge of my rebellion.  I am crushed of my own sad song.  The city cries, why so glum, know not we are in the midst of a party.  Come celebrate for all the guests have arrived and trimmings have been placed to give us joyful faces.   But my heart returns to its ashes.  Oh how I have failed.  I have failed for I have seen God and not changed.  How broken my heart appears as it bleeds heaviness from the deepness of my insistence.  For His Love Constantly Pours upon my heart!  His Love Scooted me to Safety and I ran back out into the street.  Again, over and over His Love Comes my way and Sings to me Its Purity and Woes me to His Embrace.  I am Saturated with Your Goodness and Mercy and yet I fall into the darkness of my own wants.  I am overcome with sadness and knowledge of my sins.  You Walk in with Full Glory and my heart cried “WHAT? WHAT GOD?”  “Why are You here?”  I look around as I sit in Songs of You.  My eyes begin to search for a visual of this Glory Light that Came in.  WHAT IS HAPPENING?  It Consumes all my walls and extends to overflowing boundaries.  Oh God, I am so weak..!  Oh my Lord, I lie in confusion for I swallow Your Goodness with such gratitude and hunger multiplies.  I walk in the Footsteps of angelic leading from Your Grace but yet I find my own seeking.  I rejoice and play daily as Your Voice Thunders with Beauty I had yet heard.  I give my all to surrender to this Amazing Place.  But with Something New, Your Extreme Outrageous Love comes to my heart for Deeper Understanding.  I am Taken to a New Realm of Love that Builds again with Your Source of Knowledge.  OH GOD I CRY…!  I lower my head as I Soak in the Love that Stops the world I was in.  You Speak!  “I Love…I Love with Passion… I Love with Abundance…. I Love… Oh how I Love with Strength and Beauty…. I Love in Absolute…. I Love with Piercing Eyes Fixed upon each breath I Treasure Given… …. … … those I Discipline.”  Oh Father that Loves me, I am wicked.  I am of constant striving to do right and do wrong.  I am confused in the holiness of rights and wrongs.  Find me seeking, my God.  Find me hoping, my Lord.  But most of all, find me changing.  Oh how I want to change.  Awaken my sleepy eyes and heart and give me Strength to change.  I am waltzing in Your Abundance and I have taken advantage of Your Love.  I repent and find myself leaning in Your Everlasting Arms Knowing even now that I have no fears for Your Love will Prevail.   I am victorious because You Paved my existence to You.  All Your Ways Take me to Joy Overflowing.  I lament as I accept Your Love so Abundant for Discipline which I had yet to experience in this Magnitude.  Love that stirs the heavens to move about. Such unspeakable Love to have within me.  Thank You for Showing me Deeper Love… Love that is so Deep it Stays in a Position until I learn.  Oh God of Righteousness and Purity, Stay in my heart, Work in my heart, as I continue to fall on my face for the escape from my own desires so that the Total Work is Accomplished in me.  Help my unbelief.  Take this and Change me to not just hear Your Love but to be a doer and Follow with Change.