A Watch Upon Words

Father, I am taken into a world of wonders just by knowing You.  Just because You are God, just because You made me, just because You are… I have some amazing thoughts and my journey with You is hardly started.  You have even said that I was ‘set apart’ because I know You.  Sometimes I feel just like any other life but sometimes I do not feel like anyone else at all.  Designed differently, finding my heart Placed in expected and unexpected Sources of Life You Connect me to.  Like a cloud that moves about as the Wind blows.  This is so fascinating! 

But if I am not Solid in Your Love, the Wind can cause me to fall hard into a pocket of time that is more like a shadow of smoke rather than the Fire of Existence that I find when I’m seeing myself in You.  Shaken by trimmers of my world Moving to the Finale of a Mighty Coming, I lose sight of Your Breath that Blows to Trim my dead works and cry over unnecessary weight falling.  I am broken for Your Cleansing and whine for its Purity is difficult to Wear.  

But with Love, You Continue to Trim and Cleanse my words by nailing them before me so that I can match them to Yours and find those to Keep and those I must allow to burn.  Words so familiar but their road leads to unmarked destinies of no worth rather than to Truth that brings Smiles to every Remembrance of Your Heart.  I am pondering my conversation by the Help of One Holy and Stand in Your Counsel for the Trimming of unwanted words.  Words that carry fear as their foundation of sand; shaking the understanding of Good and bad.  I deliver the surrender of my words to the Tender and Precision of Truth, as Your Love makes Moves in me that I have yet to experience.  No love can match Your’s whose is Everlasting; so the process and uncertainty the mind feels of this moment of Change beginning has unbelievable Mercy as the Teacher.   As I partner with this New Moving of Your Wind upon me, I open my heart to New Trust building and forming as I watch with careful eyes a world of Wonders just because I know You, just because You are God, just because You made me, just because You are..!  As the Life of Jesus, Your Son, Laid this example of Choosing His Words, I rest in His Life that Dwells in me that even my breath speaks only His Love...!

John 20:22 (The Message Bible)
Then he took a deep breath and breathed into them. "Receive the Holy Spirit," he said.    

I'm Ready to Shut Up and Listen

Job 40:3-5 Job answered:

   "I'm speechless, in awe—words fail me.
   I should never have opened my mouth!
I've talked too much, way too much.
   I'm ready to shut up and listen."

(The Message)

God, I am failing and I repent.  I am wondering around in the Charlotte knowledge of who You are and I have not even came close.  For I have never hung a star.  I have never created even a tiny seed that begins a field of trees.  I speak with a crippled heart.  I fall all the way to the bottom with pride and determination that I have answers.  Living before Your Eyes is so hard to understand.  You have Placed the Beginning and I have zero understanding of where I am in that Timing.  I do not even get myself up in the mornings.  I speak of One I read about and think I am an expert; reading from the mind that travels many directions during a setting.  I can hardly get through a sentence without feeling the pride of my own words.  Where can I go with such silliness.  How can I escape a place that makes me feel worth and tells me if I move I will die?   I say I want to sit before Your Eyes and yet when You Call I crumble.  How is it possible?  I really do not have a clue.  Jesus is the Shield that Protects me from death and yet I cannot fathom how this applies to my day as moment by moment can seem eternal.  I am so lost in my own way.  I know only to lay my crocked heart before you. 

Those Who Love His Name Will Dwell There

Psalm 69:5 (The Message)

 5 God, you know every sin I've committed;
   My life's a wide-open book before you.

Psalm 69:34-36 (NIV)

³⁴ Let heaven and earth praise him,
   the seas and all that move in them,
³⁵ for God will save Zion
   and rebuild the cities of Judah.
Then people will settle there and possess it;
 ³⁶ the children of his servants will inherit it,
   and those who love his name will dwell there.

Father, with GREAT SATIFACTION AND DELIGHT I praise You; for I am rejoicing with a heart of passionant thoughts and pouring of the Mighty Act of Mercy that Wrote my name upon Your Heart, even as I am.  Written upon a Place neither man nor can enemy touch or remove, upon Your Heart Hidden in the Secret Place. Lightness is my path as this Jewel of Great Price is Presented as my reward. I stand in such need; waiting, with happy feet that Dance in Your Arms daily, for each Face to face Embrace.  How Miraculous, for You Truly KNOW me; I am completely exposed beyond the words or countenance of my soul’s painful search for justice or equality of my own judgments, yet finding You are Bigger than my difficulties or my shameful ways.  I can only bring You my broken heart and without failure You Sincerely are Open and Call me on in. Each time taking me to be Your Own.  Adopting me into Love’s Flow for my life to Dwell in Your Name as I wearily continue my search for all Your Ways to be mine.  For I fall but Your Hand is there to help me try again.  I faint and Your Energy is there to Revive my breathing.  I show You my crippled past and You Cover it with Grace to overcome and Kiss away the pain.  OHhhhhh, How I LOVE Your Name and what Amazements it brings to my days.  Your Name has such Volume in its Truth and always outweighs my weakness and stumbling.  What is greater than Your Name; oh none, my Lord!  What exceeds Your Name’s Blessings; oh none, my Lord!  What can I seek of more value than Your Name; oh none, my Lord!  My Inheritance is Your Name and I Dwell there in Peace. My Inheritance is Your Name and my heart praises with all of creation in both land and sea.  I love Your Name and wear it with much gratitude, for You have chosen me out of darkness and Placed me in Your Light that Warms inside out.  I am Love Sick for I Love the Place of Provision in Your Name..!  Softly Your Name is spoken within a deep thought …. ‘Jesus’… and the Atmosphere changes as it Declares Loudly a Miracle of Grace upon my life.  Again spoken ‘Jesus’ and the Beauty of a Mystery of Love Swells within.  I am so lost to its Pampering and Delight.  As I accept Your Name as truly my own, I secretly with great hopes, pray I can be Made just like this Miracle of Grace and reflect Its Worth and change the atmosphere all about me so all wrong is Pushed away.  There is no One or no Thing Like You.  I yearn after Your Name always with passion that was Given…!  I Love Your Name, Jesus…! Thank You for Your Name that was Born for the Eternal Life I Receive through It…!   I Love Your Name and desire to always Dwell Here.

Waiting For the Next Glance, Sound, Movement

God, I am so messed up.  I am so, so messed up.  I have been smitten by a Love that Speaks to me night and day. Oh, with a whisper it keeps my soul in constant awareness of its Sweetness and how delicately it Gives me a tingle all over.  I know I am walking about on ground but inwardly I am sure I have risen above the ground ,into the air, as I cannot feel my steps, they just happen.  I stop and curl up in a comfortable position with the Pillow about my head and I Wait for a New Slumber.  A Slumber that eases everything about me and assures me of a Safe Place where the heart goes into thoughts of the Love I want to tell and the Love that I receive.  Slowly it Falls, the Perfect Slumber, as it begins with the Passion of Realness; without pretense and no shame.  My mouth begins to form a light smile before I realize I have even made an expression.  I reposition my head in my Pillow as I listen to the Sound of Love over me.  I take a deep breath, for it is a moment that seems too good to be true.  Your Voice holds so much more than sound, so much more than words that tumble from a mouth.  Your Voice has few Words yet what comes from Them Creates in my mind  more than I can write of or gather.  It’s like Your Glance even has Words that I cannot catch for they are too numerous.  I wait with the arms of my heart open to hear them, yet it is too much.  I wait for the Next Glance, Sound, Movement; anything for I lay down to sSumber in the Rest that takes me away to a Place that fascinates me. 

What do You see in me?  I know that who You are is Love Unending, Unselfish with Abandonment of all that is Yours towards me.  Willing to allow me to take on Your Name and Sing with its Joy.  But why Chase me?  Why, my thoughts question.   Why Chase after me with such Wonders of Gifts and Love so Pure.  I am of such want and my needs are from such brokenness and yet You see something that delights Your Hearing.  You Hear me coming to our Place of Captured Thoughts and I see You afar Running to Open the Door for me.  Heavens make Note of the Time, makes Note of our exchanged words.  The Stir is all about as I watch Creation Forming for a Moment with You is never the same. It is always New. 

Who is that Singing?  Tones of such as a City.  Many, so many Bells that Ring New Taps of Tunes, so many unspoken Love Sounds coming from an awaken gathering.  I wait, as I slumber in such Softness for I have found Safety in Your Arms, the Softness of This Pillow.  I am falling in Love over and over as I wait.  Waiting for the Next Glance, Sound, Movement; anything for I lay down to slumber in the Rest that takes me away to a Place that fascinates me…! 

Are You Still There?

Father, as I have remembered Your Love throughout my life, too numerous to count or write of, I realize today is what my heart has longed and waited for.  Today is the time that I can bring to the open my appreciation of Your Plans for me and marvel at how You Work.  Always Looking to Stretch Your Hand to my aid.  I don’t understand Your Consistency.  I don’t get it, Your Gladness over me.  I keep coming back with eyes of curiosity, ‘Are You still there?’  I make another move with one eye on You and one eye afar.  I wonder…? ‘Are You still there?’  I giggle as I see You Watching, finding such Pleasure that You don’t want to miss a thing I do.  Etching my words in the Stones for eternity to hear; how is it that You are Fascinated over me?  How does this make Your day more exciting?   What is it exactly that You are Looking for in me?   Oh how I wonder, how I find it beyond comprehension that I am Your Tabernacle and Your Dwelling lies within my movement on earth.  That the walk and work of my days carry such as the Glory of such Brightness I cannot look on with natural eyes.  How is it that such Sounds line them self up to make such Sweet Melody’s for my ears to hear and my voice to utter?  Do You Form them at night while I sleep?  Do You scatter them all around the earth so that as I come to it’s destiny, I find them?  Are they hanging in the particles of the air so when my body touches into its substance, I am Taken into Your Song.  For with amusement and curiosity I am Brought into Your Place moment by moment as if I were dancing in a soft rain as the Sun shines to show safety.  New Comes to my heart and I am Freshly Dressed in Your Sound as each day gives it’s all to me.   My outer garment is so warn and oldness is more and more visible.  How is it that I feel more Life instead of less as this process is happening?   Is it because of age which brings me closer to the Day I meet You Face to face?  I am so caught up in the High Notes of Your Soft Voice and Your Walk that puzzles my mind.  How did I get here?  How did You do this?  I look with curious eyes this morning as I deeply enjoy Your Consistent Love over me and scramble around with giggles of Joy when I continue to find You, when I stop and ask,  'Are You still there?'

He Wanted Me

Can it really be another day?  Yesterday was so full of Love Expression upon my heart that I found my yearning satisfied so many times with unending Visuals of such Beauty as a lot of Hand Holding was done.  This morning as I gave time to worship before going to work, I was again Taken to the Arms of His Kindness as God’s Rain Filled the room. 

Father, inside my whole being melts as we Walk and Talk together.  Sometimes I get so tickled at myself after being with You in an Open Heart Session for some of the ways I thought.  It Amazes me how You so Gently Share Your Kind Love and my own thought process slowly shifts and changes.  Sometimes a change of understanding is a great degree of Change, so much that it seems to completely turn me around; and other times I can only handle an Adjustment.  I love the Adjustment I received this morning of what even a Gift from You is all about.  Tell me more Father, oh please tell me more!  Give New Understandings to Build upon what was Shared this morning.  Your Gifts, and I have so many, are always made to bring me closer to You, to better understand so that I grow in the Knowledge of who You are.  You Gave Your Son… WHY? Because You wanted me to be closer to You and to better understand, grow in the Knowledge of who You are.  You Gave me children,,, WHY? You wanted me to be closer to You and to better understand, grow in the Knowledge of who You are.  Your Gifts are Poured upon us for Your Work to be accomplished in us.  A child, oh Father, thank You with my whole heart for giving me children; but so often the challenges of these Gifts made me fear, made me cry, made me hurt to the inner most core of my existence.  So I sought You, I ran to You, I come to bring You my heart of concerns for them.  How Amazing that these Gifts from You turn such difficult times to Beautiful Places in You, bringing me to You because You wanted me.  A Gift of a job, a Gift of a soul mate, a Gift of friends and family… all from You because You wanted me.  Forgive me Father for ugliness that comes from my heart when dealing with a Gift of Love You Brought to me because You wanted me.  I accept the Gifts that are Given to sharpen my awareness that You want me.  For EVERY Good Gift comes from the You, Father.  And ALL things work to the Good of those who love You.  Because You wanted me I may meet a difficult situation today and the tuning of my heart needs adjustment.   I find frustrations so easily but I will look to You who Orders my footsteps because You wanted me.  

I am grateful for Your Gifts and thank You for wanting me…!

Love Floats Lightly About the Air I Breathe

I sit here and have just been caught up in such Love.  I am of need to spill out again from its unmatched Musical Sounds within, so deep, as my own love escapes with unheard Songs with the Countenance of His Face.  Like a String of Vapor Forming to take Shape with Streaks of Colors as this Love Floats Lightly about in the air I breathe.  Each Sound Stays to Linger and Give Richness as it waits for the next breath to join and consume the room with its Greatness.  You, oh my God, You are my God that I lean into for Life as my thoughts seek to praise You.  Thoughts seeking to reach the Courts of Your House; thoughts from my soul that will cover you as I wade in the Waters of Fresh Springs unlike any known on earth, while it bathes the heart with Clarity.  My words hold my heart and passion of appreciation and I want to pour my love back to the Ears that taught me such Passion.  You are Good and I am of aw of the Safety that Your Name and Walk Provides me during the night when I cannot see, and so Abundant during the day while I am being tossed and tried of its darkness.  You are the Stillness I hold to in each shaking. You are the Total Wisdom in each storm that rises to prove where You Live.  You Listen before I speak.  You Find me before I am lost.  You Cover me before it rains.  Your Warnings are like the Safety of unfound tunnels as I am Hidden in the Walls of Jesus Messiah, Your Beloved Son.  My voice is heard without an utterance.  Your Trust is Building its Foundation in me with Your Love that Delivers me from evil.  I just want to give You this moment, this time in this way, as I make an effort to return to You my inner thoughts that are the real rule of who I am.  Seated with You through Christ Jesus, the Perfect Sacrifice for my existence in You.  I want my whole being sing Holy, Holy, Holy, Most High God.  Holy as Perfection has Complete Fulfillment and Honor finds me on my knees.  The earth is Yours as we Echo the angels that Declare You are Holy.  We find You Holy in the Total of who You are.  Holy with Pureness and faultless from the beginning to the end.  All Your Steps to Show Your Greatness has been seen as Love and by accepting this Love I am Climbing into the Way of Your Kingdom.   You have Started a Love Exchange in my heart and I am Singing of its Goodness.  For today and forever, I want to be established in the Kingdom as Your Owned.