Never Hide Your Feelings

Father, I am here so heavy this morning and can’t wait to talk to You about it for I never want to hide my feelings from You.  Tears seem to be my countenance and discouragement my garment. I have lots of wants and I really don’t like this feeling.  It isn’t really even how I perceive the Word encourages me to be.  I hate it when I know within how satisfying Your Walk is and yet I am so distracted by what has stumbled my thinking.  So my Answer, my Faith Builder… I just want to know You’re near.  I just ask this morning that my heart be held up a little higher as I set my eyes upon You instead of my circumstances.  For in all this mess, my heart continues to burn for what has started between us.  You have Full understanding, I only have partial.  I find it thrilling to find a Treasure You have Sent and so I can not help but seek to find much on this Trail of Joys.  The more I find these Places, the more all the difficulties seem to be just common and not so enormous that they scream for full attention.  I marvel at how a Picture of Beauty Develops into a Masterpiece from the days journey with You.  So gladly and excitedly, I give this day to You and will keep my heart open to hear Your Love as I wonder about in all that is ahead.  You have Sent the Best Friend to be at my side Constantly and I truly know no better gift of friendship.  Your Sweet Holy Spirit has all the Right Answers so I will stop and rest in this Smile upon my life as I Wait in Your Waiting Room that keeps my life encouraged.  For the Music Playing has such angelic mystic about it.  The Magazines spread around to capture my thoughts Lead me to Your Love.   Often I find an Article that is so Rich I must share it with another friend.  You make Waiting such a part of the Journey to all the Pearls of Great Price You have for me.  So I will not leave and seek another way nor ever hide my feelings from You.  I will wait with my heart open wide for the Showing of Your Power because I have watched This so Attached to my life that it is the Strength of my eternity.  I truly love Your Name, Jesus, that is Written upon my heart.  It is the Solid Corner Stone that I build all my hopes and dreams upon.

Psalm 34: 1-8 (The Message Bible)

I bless God every chance I get; my lungs expand with his praise. I live and breathe God; if things aren't going well, hear this and be happy: Join me in spreading the news; together let's get the word out. God met me more than halfway, he freed me from my anxious fears. Look at him; give him your warmest smile. Never hide your feelings from him. When I was desperate, I called out, and God got me out of a tight spot. God’s angel sets up a circle of protection around us while we pray. Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see how good God is. Blessed are you who run to him. Worship God if you want the best; worship opens doors to all his goodness. Young lions on the prowl get hungry, but God-seekers are full of God.

You Record My Love

Good morning my Sweet Lover of my soul.  I am so anxious this morning. I couldn’t wait to come Here.  Here where it is just You and I and our hearts speaking.  I find this time always goes too swiftly, like a long awaited get away runs its clock with extra speed.  I swallow hard and take a deep breath, close my eyes and go to our Secret Place where You Speak Your Love with such Penetration I hear with the Vibration of Warmth throughout my heart.  I lay my words of love in return before the Messenger’s Basket so all my heart can be taken to the Ears of the Only One to which they belong, the Lover of my soul.  Proven over and over as the Intimacy Grows between hearts so Captured by one another. So much to talk about and so much to learn as I lean hard into Your Voice and You Listen so intently to my words.  I ponder and ask myself, ‘why write’ and so Tenderly You Speak to Say You do the same.  You Save my love?  My heart melts as I ponder this.  For as I start each stroke to write I find myself searching inward… what do I long for You to know?  What is it that I hope You hear me say today?  So I begin and my heart speaks my love I have been saving up for such a time as this.  And to my surprise, oh my, You have been doing exactly the same thing I have; You Record my love and Place it in Your Favorite Collections.  You set it to Music that Sounds in heaven’s Hallways.  Our Love Feast has Flavors of the Day and You Delight in my selection for each setting.  Oh how blushingly I listen to my words and yet how boastful I am of Your Love for me.  You have even Recorded my thoughts and they are the Wallpaper in Your House of Prayers that Reveal Your Magnificent Glory.  Beautifully Displayed for angels and all creation to hear and find the Wonders of Your Amazements.  I am overwhelmed with this Knowledge and return to excitement that carries a bride into her wedding day.  For I am Engaged to Love’s Perfect.  I am Engaged to Love’s Ultimate Romancing.  I am floating in the Extreme of its Sight over me.  Our eyes have met and I can see nothing else.  I can only hope to stare into this Love forever as it Lifts me into its Embrace as one You have Longed to have for so long.  I write, oh I write my heart upon this tablet for I want every sound of my life to sing Your Love.  I write my love for I too want its Embracing Fragrance to Decorate the soul of my being.  I write for I am in love with You and I want to record Your Love and place it in my favorite collections.

Love Waiting For Me

Holy God, oh Most Holy God, Great and Mighty One that is forever.  How I hear in my heart so given to You, the angels singing Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God Almighty.  With them I want to join in and contribute my own praise with their voices so purposed to You.  I want to make a sound of praise that lifts high to form the Hugs of what makes up the Rainbow around Your Loving Kindness. Surround You with my kisses that speak with action and praise.  I set my affections toward learning from Your Responses to my hunger towards the Knowledge of such Holiness.  For I lean not to my own understanding but just acknowledge that You have the steps of my life.  I have fallen so deep in love with You.  I have choked so often on my own cares and yet found Your Love Waiting for me.  Your Love is like a flame that burns and takes over all the territory until it owns it all.  I can feel Your Love Consuming my life.  I await my next moment by moment time with You, always finding Your Love Waiting for me.  Oh Most Holy God, I am Rich in Love’s Safety.  Standing on a cliff with my toes hanging over; and yet Your Wind Pushes me to remain in the Safe Realm of Your Arms of Power.  I am so grateful and can only wish for those You have Given me to know this same Freedom.  May I see Your Love Abound in them and may they see Your Love Abound in me so that each Glimpse we see can give us a Clearer Picture of Your Glorious Way.  May we find Your Love Waiting for us as each day brings us Closer to that fulfillment that yearns within us.  Thank You for giving us a Desire to eat and sleep. Thank You for Giving us a Desire to have Knowledge.. .and Thank You above all for Giving us a Desire to Know You more as it takes us into Joy Unspeakable and so Full of the Wonders of Your Glory.  Finding Love unlike we had ever comprehended.  Thank You for Your Love Waiting for me.  Show me Deeper so that my children will also find my life revealing Your Love Waiting on them.

I Look Back at You Looking at Me

Father, we are such individuals… created so differently.  Not one strand of hair falls that you are not aware of.  Not one!  Amazing to think about as I would have absolutely no idea of such a number at any moment in time.  Not only that one piece of information about me but even all my thoughts are running through Your Amazing Span of Gathered Knowledge. Knowing me far into eternity and I do not know myself even today.  Oh God, You are so enormous that I can’t get this.  You are a lover that is the Ultimate Teacher of its Correct Acts. Your Love Touches the magnitude of a complicated pattern to bring the sun rise each day and yet works the tiny grain of sand into a clam to form a beautiful pearl.   How You have won my heart.  I want to Play where You Play.  I want You as my Best Friend.  I stand as a child so embarrassed of how You Keep Looking at me but so intriged it stops my world.  The Visual of my grandchild in this photograph is the perfect picture of my worship this morning for it reveals my own thoughts so well of a difficulty but wonderful feeling as I look back at You Looking at me.  I see Your Eyes Fixed on me but find myself reserved in knowing what to do.  It seems easy to live to myself, for myself, and have my own pleasures of my utmost focus, but when I see You there…I am stopped in my walk to wonder.  I wonder what You are going to do next; wonder what You are going to say; wonder how long You are going to stay here.  Sometimes I want to run and hide as my ways seem so ridculous for another to be a part of.  But You Remain, with Your Smile upon my life and I can’t find a place to hide.  For this sort of Love shatters the moment into unknowns.  I see with Emotions and Pleasure I was made to love You as Your Eyes Watch to Embrace my love with such Earnest Enjoyment.  Oh my, so mystifying and at times so terrifying of how this can be.  As a child with short attention spans with too often a ‘give me’ attitude to Your Kindness, I only know to say my deepest desire has become so ready to give You my heart for I look back at You Looking at me with such Pleasure.  How can I but want to turn around all my own self worship to honor You with my attention as I become more and more conscience of Your All Seeing Eyes of such Love.  Love that never stops and mine own so speratic that I wonder why You Choose me for Your Adornment of Sounds upon the earth.  It slows me down each time and I can’t help but stop and sheepishly enjoy its Warm Hug feel.  Please know that I love it.  I love so much how You Keep me close to the Safety of Your Power.  I know Your Presence Lives in me but how Amazing when I feel that Power causing my mind and soul to be aware of such Movement in this world.  Thank You for Watching me; even though it is very uncomfortable so often I love to look back at You Looking at me. 

You With Me All Day And All Night

How thrilling

this morning to meet You. 

I am so excited.  I am full

of Wonders of You

as I think about the

possibilities

of today. 

You with me all day and all night…

satisfying

the rooms of all my heart

that searches in constant

for moment by moment living.  

Seeing You

in all things,

even when I am not speaking

my heart to You specific,

but allowed to

peek

in and out of our conversation

just like I do with my

husband

as life has so many directions

for a day.  

I want to tell You

it is wonderful

knowing You

and serving You. 

Please take me Closer,

Nearer to Your Ways

so that I can give more of myself

to the Walk You are Leading me to. 

When You Lead

through the valleys,

it becomes much harder

as I give the Spirit of Kindness

a Place to Work,

but surrendering to obedience

I find such Riches all along the Journey. 

Sound Clear

Your Life Suggestions for me

as a Floatation

to Save me

from deep waters over my head. 

Sometimes

it feels like

I’m holding my breath

in an ocean

and I’m sure that Your Timing

is past my limit,

any minute I will have to let go

and in will come

rushing the water

to fill my lungs and I will die.  

Appointed heir

of Your Abilities in me,

my flesh might become very uncomfortable

with this sort of Trust;

but

always Amazed

at the Outcome

of such Beautiful Silver Lining,

Brightly Outlining

its Massive breakthrough. 

Gazing and gazing upon it,

I call friends and family

to tell

of the Moment

Your Glory was Manifested

to my heart. 

Knowing You are there

at each step

but my focus took side views

and crowded my faith

to Hear Your Love

Abundance even in the deep

for Your Faithfulness

did not fail. 

You Always Know just what to do. 

Your Soft Walls

Bump my insistence back

under the Circle of the Rainbow Promises;

like a storm

just over and the Rainbow

showing its ending. 

High over my head is the

Colors

left to Reveal a

Chemistry of Work

that Marks Your Eyes

have ever been Watching. 

Safety has Wrapped itself

around my drowning fear

and

Calmed the anxiety

of being alone. 

Your there! 

In the valley,

in the storm,

in the sinking of my heart so in despair. 

Strong enough

to carry my pain,

my anger,

my troubled emotions;

Strong enough

to Hold me Tight. 

Watching all my days,

I am particularly excited about today…!

You with me all day and all night…

Service of Love

Weeping this morning I ponder how many tears will I shed in the knowledge of His Love.  In my world of so many distractions and self gratifications I am so caught up in a Love Connection that lays my own self findings as such minuet, puny pleasures. 

How Precious the Thoughts His Love Keep Giving to catch my attention; Delivering me from all hindrances that keep me from Him.  Watching me, I can’t seem to turn my eyes from His for they Reveal so much I want.  They Gather all my pain and accept them with such a Service of Love I can’t believe my heart.  Inside my soul is tearful knowledge causing my breathing to show deep sobs as I hear His Voice Hug me in so many Movements of Caring.  Arms so Wide, able to Handle all my cries and pains; Sifting through my confusions to find Him.

And then His Hug of Love slowly Pulling me so Close I can hear His Heart Beat for me.  Rocking me in Rhythm of His Song of Love He Sings over me; Rocking me as a Dance of Love between lovers.  I can only follow for all He wants is for me to stretch my arms and return Love Given back to Him. 

So I enclose my arms around His Love and we Dance.  Looking up I see He has Locked me into His Steps for Love has conquered the distraction of other idols.  Mercy is Extended as His Word allows me space to follow His Sweet Holy Spirit’s Gentle Wind through all my steps.  Guiding me with Eyes so Beautiful, where all the Emotions of His Love Pierce the insides of my being, to Talk me through our Dance, with Silent Sounds Love Reveals from such Loving Eyes. 

Kindness has Smiling Giggles as mistakenly I step on His Toes.  Kindness continues to Sweep me across the Floor of His Glory.  He knew I was coming so He Prepared the Dance Floor with plenty of room to learn His Dance.  Gazing into the Love Eyes of Passion I find a Way of Ever Lasting Waltzing with Gentleness.  

Whispering while we Dance, Trusting His Kindness I Open all the secrets of pains and confusions. He begins to cry as His Service of Love Shows me Much in Store for those He Loves.  A Place in eternity as Love Plays out its need to be. 

I begin to whither in Knowledge of Love so unworthy of; discerning my crippled ability to make a life crimeless, I watch as His Hands begin to bleed.  I can hardly allow my heart to look upon this Service of Love while Kindness Bleeds for my inabilities.  He Pleads for me to remain Dancing with Him.  Oh no, oh no… why?  Why, How can One do such?  I argue for I am crippled and need the stoning of one guilty. 

I fall for I cannot watch and I cannot dance!  I am unable to even watch my stumbling feet continue in what only moments away were the giggles of a laughing heart. 

But Arms are Open Wide as He Catches the fall of my heart’s eyes.  Closer now than ever, He Takes me into His Place where I find the Father and His Holiness Surrounding the entirety of my existence and the Dance now takes New Form.  I am United in the Renewed Place where sins fall away as the Spirit of this Ancient One Awakens Oneness of Capacity and I am Returned to Glory’s Floor. 

I try to look up as I share again my inability to do good but He who Held my hand, The Son of Man, Assures me I Belong; for His Service of Love was all that was required.  I cry with tears He Collects as I look again at His Eyes of Love over me. 

I find I am Standing and I know not how it happened.  My gown has changed colors to match the Glow of He who Holds me.  I bow with honor to He, my Strength. 

I Dance again...

 as I am Carried by His Service of Love with Eyes of Passion.

Silence Even Has Sound

God I’ve wondered into something today.  Oh I’ve wondered into Your Song and it is Speaking with Love’s Silence.  I hear it Rising over my life and it takes Melody into the Ahh’s of unheard Words, Unknown but beckoning me to Listen with the whole of my heart’s ability to Know, dare to listen.  The Yea’s of Your Promises keep Taking Hold of my way and I am Awaken into Beautiful.  How fast can I run?  How fast can I consume these Tendencies of Mercy’s Song is all I can think.  Your Silence even has Sound as it Rides the Air of Your Breath over me.  Waving in and out as a heart beat of Life in a dead stone.  Ohhhh’s, ahhhhhhh’s Sings the Melody that Forms Pictures of Excellence from a Throne that Drips its Glory upon my world.  Laaa laaaa laaaaaaaaa Comes another Wave that Lifts and Rises to Your Heights among the angels as it Washes me with Blood Shed for the dominion of my entire life.  Ohhhhh, ahhhhhh goes the Melody that Forms Pictures of Excellence to Proclaim Wonders as Silence even has Sound.  Oh Morning Star, I am Here to shut the Door and allow the Intimacy of Secrets to Sing to me as You Find me wanting; Wisdom that Speaks His Name, Cloth me in Righteousness!  Honor be the Quality He finds as Alone I run to His Love.  There, with You, I will whisper my search of want.  Oh of much want.  Here, ready, finding Your Shadow I have only eyes to see His Love.  Finding a possible Sound of Your Voice, I run to see, I find Silence!  Finding a Movement about the corners of my heart, I run to see, I find Silence.  I look under every thought to find You and there again Unknown Silence!  Desperately I run for I know within, You are Here as Silence now Screams.  With all strength I hold, I seek to see You as I surrender to the Silence that makes all noise go away.  Oh I am Taken Away with its Glory.  I am Ravished by its Calmness of all anxiety.  Oh it is Lovely and I am overcome by its Width and Length and Depth as it is as far as I can see.  Kisses of Your Love are its Passion as it keeps me singing.  A Glimpse; a Treasured Moment that Holds my hand to this New Day.  I am Lifted up for I faint to all other loves.  Clinging to This Song is now my Purpose after Tasteing Love’s Name.  For I can trust as I hear His Love's Powerful Silence upon my soul; my Jesus, my Ruler, I am committed to Your Beauty, for in You Silence even has Sound.  I have but one heart and surrendered to Love’s Name is my pleasure, to He who Gave to me first His all, His Kingdom, His Song to Carry me Safely into His Palace.  He who stopped at nothing to Win my heart to His Love; Serving me with His Life so that I walk on Gold and wear His Glory Crowned with Splendor.  I listen and hold Silence as I run to this Water that Drenches me in Freshness. 

Listen, oh listen with me, hear His Name…. He is King, this Jesus who Thunders Love upon us.  Oh listen for I hear it Singing and catch the Melody.  It begins… and it ends of no point, it just is.  Rising in the darkness of our needs...! Jesus… oh Jesus Sings His Love and we listen.  Again and again Rising in the darkness of our needs, Jesus … Silence of Peace is so loud that all else is drowning.  Jesus is Sounded and the Ripples of its Power continue through eternity.  Jesus, I am Your Garden. Plant within me Your Name as I stay in Your Love and sing Your Song that Taps into the center of my being for

Silence even has Sound

that Carries Your Name.

JESUS, Silence of Peace