Which Road Do I Travel

I wait,

I just wait,

wait, and wait! 

God,

sometimes it feels like that is my life’s mission. 

Sorry about that!  

I am so impatient, obviously. 

And I know we are not to compare ourselves

with one another

but I was looking at King David’s life

this morning to see Your Constant Rescue.

So often I can relate to David’s

outrageous love

for you, and then his

anger and frustration

of the whole ‘waiting’ upon Your Work

over his life that needs a break though

or Your Pardon for the mess he has got himself in. 

And then I see

Your Mighty Love

come Sweeping in…! 

What a Remarkable Prize of

Ultimate and Extreme Safety

You have Given in the Gift of Your Son. 

Allowing us to explore and seek

Your Kingdom

with Arms so Wide to carry all my

impatience and stumbling

to find Your Will. 

I am so strong willed and yet my cry is for

Your Will, not mine,

to be accomplished. 

Often this mix does not

make logical sense

for I get confused between

mine

and Yours,

is whose? 

Your Life within me so dominate,

so wondrously Guiding,

yet the tearing too often of two roads to travel. 

Which road do I travel? 

So like David, I too look to You,

heaven-dwelling God, look up to You for help. 

Like a servant,

alert to my Master’s Commands. 

I am watching and waiting and even

holding my breath (if I don’t hear from You, I die)

awaiting Your Word of Mercy. 

I am trusting in You like a

Zion Mountain (singing praise). 

God, You encircle Your people. 

You encircle me… always have and always will…! 

My enemy is Your enemy

and so I stand against this confusion

with my hopes stayed on Your Faithfulness

and my life Stained by the Blood of Jesus Christ,

Your Son Risen

to be King and Lord of heaven and earth. 

His Righteousness Sets up a

Banner of Love

over me and I am Saved by His Work in progress on me. 

I wait, and yet when I didn’t wait long enough,

You are my Rescuing Savior

and I cry out for Mercy. 

Mercy, God, Mercy!

Psalm 123:1-4 (The Message)

I look to you, heaven-dwelling God, look up to you for help.
   Like servants, alert to their master's commands,
      like a maiden attending her lady,
   We're watching and waiting, holding our breath,
      awaiting your word of mercy.
   Mercy, God, mercy!
      We've been kicked around long enough,

Psalm 125:1-5 (The Message)

Those who trust in God
      are like Zion Mountain:
   Nothing can move it, a rock-solid mountain
      you can always depend on.
   Mountains encircle Jerusalem,
      and God encircles his people—
      always has and always will.

Sharing the Prized View

I sing with a loud heart today,

the Name of Jesus,

such a sweet Name I so need to call...

As I reflect on days recently Established so Beautifully

by His Intent to Take me to this very moment,

today,

right now.  

While I meditate on such Truth,

made for me

so His Works are Scattered upon the earth,

I easily weigh up the Steps He Made Clear

so this exact day would be the

Specialty He Wanted;

His Story,

His Love and Life.  

How Sovereign and Independent

each of my days

were Given Enthusiastic Detail

so He Could Illustrate Things of Wonder today,

this day,

this day Created to Rejoice in. 

Oh Jesus, I love You. 

I give You all my worship. 

I feel like an exquisite flower;

breaking out of its dormant state

and unfolding upward to show Your Beauty

as I wear the

Robe of Your Glorious Love,

Your Story within. 

For like a flourishing blossom so astounding,

Your Love

has such numerous Vivid Colors;

a person walking by is

driven

to stop whatever movements in process,

and with intense study -

gaze upon

Your Beauty like a prize of their day. 

Oh my Jesus,

just a Glimpse,

just a single Glimpse of Your Love

has the Mystifying Power to Speak prolonged,

lingering, dialogue among souls. 

We carry it a far;

as expression gives way to

heart after heart

sharing the Prized View of Beauty seen. 

Oh how Your Love Blooms over Your bride,

Your dearest ones

caught in Your Passion

as each day is Formed to rejoice in. 

My yesterdays were Organized, Arranged,

and Patterned to Fashion the Designs of this moment,

Sketch before me by Love’s Deep Zeal for my heart. 

I embrace this Abundant Love

as it Inhabits my walk

with its Hug

from such a Garment of Love. 

A Spectator of Love’s Name has

Rewards Extraordinary. 

I am Softened by the Feel of Your Name,

Jesus,

because You Gave

Enthusiastic Detail

to my yesterdays so You Could

Illustrate Things of Wonder today.  

I Rejoice as I honor such unparalleled

Companionship

Fit by the Winds of Your Love

for my day,

this day…! 

Sharing the Prized View of Beauty seen...

His Love. 

Way Off...Way Far Off I'm Running Lord

Way off… way far off I’m running Lord. 

Down the road but on my way back to the Wonders of Your House. 

I can’t wait to get there. 

There where I actually get to hug Your Neck

and see You Face to face. 

I see Your Glory Shine like a Bright Beam

as it Directs me home.  Couldn’t miss it and I’m grateful. 

All kinds of thoughts and emotions are going through my head. 

How far am I actually from Home? 

What will You Say when I get there?

What will be Your Response when I am in Your Reach? 

What IS the FIRST thing You will Do or ask of me? 

I doubt

that I will be able to stand

but something within pushes me to give it a try. 

I know the story of the Prodigal son well. 

How he took his portion of his father’s wealth

and spent it on the world. 

I too have experienced how unsatisfying the world is while foolishly spending Your Love and Wealth Given just because I was Yours. 

No wonder we keep trying to get more when we seek what the world has to offer.  No wonder we can’t get our pockets full enough when it is the world we are trying to pocket. It only brings emptiness.

The world has such an abundance of emptiness to offer yet we chase it like it will bring us to some sort of heroism. 

But it never returns closure or an end to our madness. 

So I too am returning to Your House;

where I was raised as a child and handed the

Story of Salvation with each meal. 

And I’m running faster the closer I get

for I’m getting to the place where

whatever You Say

will be better than living in disobedience. 

Stumbling around, looking for a smile and finding despair as my search takes so many diversions. 

I’ve stopped, let the traffic (worries) go around, pondered the possibility of living in Total Obedience verses having my own strong opinions. 

It has my attention and it feels like an Adjustment that is more do-able if I give up eating with pigs (the world) and run with all my might back to Your House, run as if in a race to Your Provisions, Your Portion for me, as Your Time will be my time. 

Do You See me coming? 

I am coming, Lord. 

I am coming as fast as my heart will allow. 

I’ve opened all sorts of doors You Knew I would explore

and now I am racing to open

this Door

of Return to Total Obedience.

Where I’m Handed the

Story of Salvation with Each Meal. 

I’m so far from Home and so tired. 

Way off… way far off I’m running Lord.

I’m coming Home, Lord.

My Life Is His Dance

Swirling upon the earth with toes pointed and arms raised, I dance.  For

my life is His Dance,

my heart is His Reward

and my song is His Sweet Harmony.

Swirling while I rise and fall, I wonder around as the Music of my Groom Plays in my hearing and I dance with Joy. 

Each step is like the Kisses of Love's Force. 

Oh, the Romance of Love’s Dance, Guiding my play as if I were a leaf falling from a tree. 

Floating in the Space of Your Glory

as it Pushes me from side to side. 

Amusing me with Your Gifts as I explore the Air I breathe. 

Oh Beautiful Romance that Sings within my soul as I dance in Tune with my emotions so

Caught in His Arms of Passion. 

Feeling the Air Move me to Soar while I follow Something Created in me to Rejoice with Might. 

Yet, fearing as if startled,

I explode with a search that I dance alone. 

Why? 

Oh why? 

Why would I wonder such a thing of distress while Your Eyes Delight in our dance together as one. 

You Follow my falls and Catch my feet when I slip.  You have Lifted me High as

Your Love Secures my weight

with Your Strong Hands and Gives me the Jump my dance requires.  

Lifting me so that I often feel light as a soft fluffy feather,

so free to slowly descend,

only to be Caught again by the Wind that wants to Play.  

Whisking me to the Glories of Your Throne, so Magnificent with Beauty as a Garment that Surrounds Your Love Pouring as Rivers. 

I dance, never alone;

for the Groom Saw me under a tree and

Spoke His Desire that

I

be His.  

He Went to His Father and Spoke Strongly that He would Purchase any dept I owed and Free me to be His Forever.  

The heavens made ready,

the earth became our Dance Floor

and now my heart has been Buried with His. 

He showed me how to die so that I would Live to Love

like His Love Gives. 

He Showed me to Surrender to Believe in His Arms so Strong beneath each move of my dance upon the earth.  

When I doubt He is my Partner in our Amazing Swirling Dance so Delicately Decorated in Love,

I stop and Listen,

for His Heart is now in mine

and I will hear

His Love Beating

to the Sound of our Music together. 

His Strength, not mine, will Set my feet again to dance and I will bend my thoughts to rise and fall once again as I Dance with my Lover,

He who Watches over me; for

my life is His Dance,

my heart is His Reward

and my song is His Sweet Harmony.

Thought That Takes Me Into Such A Wonder Land

Oh God of Might, I heard the Voice. I heard the Thought that Takes me into such a Wonder Land.  A Place that Brings all my worries to a stop.  It is such a common word, such an overused expression of heart but when Carried to my heart by Your Spirit, I Ascend to Abide in a New Body that puts on a Standing Position to accept what may come with its Shield about me.  For LOVE has the Power to cause me to See things I could not see, or Stand where I could not go.  All things become possible as the Energy of LOVE has Convinced me of its Dominance for me, where its Influence Shakes all fear, and my mind wonders if I could walk on water if told to.  I yield to such Pure Love.  It hardly makes sense that it would be difficult to relinquish pains and fears, and say ‘Yes’ to this Place in Your Wonder Land.   A Garden where destruction of mind is repaired and pains of worries are Safely put to Rest.   In this Garden of Intimacy, I am Strengthened and I consent to all Your Pleasures.  Where my thoughts lift slowly to find Your Eyes have Uncontrollably been Gazing at my every move.  I have been under Your Observation and You Found me searching for You, cautiously considering how to enter the Sacred Unity I found.  For I spy intently into Your Love as I listen and yearn for those Moments Proven to be everywhere.  I interrogate, probe, examine my every thought, for the Whispers of Your Love Inhabit and Breath in returned love, and Settle in vessels Purchased by Your Son’s Death.  One Touch and I go away with Knowledge of Sweet Love, as each Occurrence of our Encounters Convince me that now I have everything.   Nothing more is needed for Love is eternal and has Wrapped itself around me.    Now my walk has Purpose and my yearnings have Goals.  Now my children have Substance when called upon.  Now my soul mate has Quietness of Love to Secure his heart of the depth of my love for him.  One Touch and I am Transformed inside out, dark to Light, dreary to Dazzling, as Your Countenance Shines.  It is where I want to live forever.  It is Pure Love that is an Extravagant Source of Wealth and its Abundance has me seeking often.  Unlimited, unrestricted Love that is Endless and has been Designated Specifically for me and those who are in my life that You have Given.  The Content of such Pure Love is Boundless.  I heard the Thought that Takes me into such a Wonder Land.  Your Pure Love Unending..!

Acquaint Me With Power From On High

Fairest of All, Glorious God Above all, the One that Proves Him Self as each day brings a beginning and end.  You ARE my Daily Bread to Live from and You are not challenged by those who speak against You as I am.  You do not wonder how You can answer such questions.  You are the Portion of Grace that I lay against as I take my hurts, fears, unknowns to Your Heart. Friends and acquaintances who declare there is no God, those who cannot find Jesus as anything other than a ‘good person’ - I am troubled; but You are Secure and I am in the Boundaries of Your Love and Passion so I wait upon You as I come today for the Wake of my own understanding in You and sit at the Table of Your Wisdom.  As I am met  with those who shirk a laugh that You are not real, I beg Your Pardon for them, that they may be faced with Your Gracious Love and find no way around Your Heart that Woes them to Dare step into the Flow of Your Work.  For You are not mocked, oh Lord, but You sent a Redeemer that died for the broken and crushed, those wounded of heart too weak to stand.  How often I have prayed for the souls of those in darkness, but in their aim so fierce I find such sadness.  Build my thoughts to know the arrows shooting are but false and have no sting so that I can return the Life so Abundant of Your Ultimate Sacrifice before their hearing.  Release Your Passion through me so I see them as You see them. 

May I become acquainted

with the Power of such Love that was Sent, to give them Hope once again.  I tear down the lies that feed on their soul, as I Listen in Obedience to Your Word within me and release it to our conversations.  Teach me Your Ways as I continue to be a voice and an instrument of Your Wonders.  I am Born Again and Living in the Kingdom of God with the Thunder of Your Power Working in this world.  None is like You, oh God.  None is or has ever been like You.  All things created tell the story of You.  As this Story Lives out its Glory for eternity, I will join its Song and be its vessel as I seek and ask for answers for Daily Bread from You.  Acquaint me with Power from on High.  Every excuse against Your Story is shut down as I declare the Name Jesus Above All to be my Source, You are the Word that has Rule and I trust in You…!

John 3:16-18 (The Message)

"This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him.

Administration Of Love's Manipulation

Daddy God,

Hold me, oh Lord Hold me today. 

You have my heart, You have my thoughts,

You have my life. 

As this life gives me such trials to show I am so far from the Perfect You are; I need You Arms around me with a Grip that lets me know

that every day I live

I will not slip or fall. 

I continue to walk toward You

and know I will be

Shaken

as the rusty grim must be Sanded

so that Your Face Shines in my life. 

Cornered by Your Love

I know my desires Change as I am Met with Your Beauty which cause me to so easily leave behind the sins of my flesh. 

Oh the Glory when I enter the

Edge of Your House;

my soul begins to Sing as Love escapes the Central depth of my own heart.  Rising Comes the Composition in a Profound, Hidden, and Bottomless Inner Secret Place by the Works of Your Dwelling.  

The Splendid Song of the Fairest that is Dazzling makes Sound.  

Therefore, I search and I listen for each Note. 

I give attention

to what my surroundings are

that You Placed this day Created for me;

Created to Give Delightful Satisfactions for my longing

to Rest and Dwell with You.   

My eyes begin to ponder

what the heart sees

and finds of interest; for

Your Love

 is Sifting within and Separating flesh and spirit.   

I am distracted but Your Love Bids me to Come Back as

You Fight for my heart.

The Awareness of Life around me again

begins to absorb

Your Knock at my heart. 

Rapping at my thoughts like a

Gentle Delicate Chime

that gets every third beat in an Excellent Incomparable Song Capturing my soul to give Expression of Extreme Beauty. 

Beautiful

is the Administration of Love’s Manipulation

to Enclose me in the Stereo of the Trinity. 

To Encircle me with my Father’s Love

Poured upon me by His Spirit,

with Hopes for Eternity with my Groom, His Son. 

I stretch to widen my heart’s capacity,

for Love Expands to Burst the walls of my flesh

for the Rivers to Roll in, and have Command and Restrain the old me from dominating.   

Oh God, This is what I want;

This,

the Administration of Love’s Manipulation

to Direct and Hold me in Check so that my foot does not slip.   

The Unsearchable Love that Exceeds any understanding.   

Thank You for Fighting for my heart.  Thank You for Marching around my boarder and Securing my Safety.  Thank You for Watching my steps so that they are Ordered and Your Love has a Place to Work. 

I am

Held by Your Love

as Your Eyes Burn with Jealousy for me. 

I will Sing Your Song Forever…!

Proverbs 16:9

(KJV) A man's heart deviseth his way; but the Lord directeth his steps.

(NIV)  In his heart a man plans his course, but he Lord determines his steps.

(The Message ) We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it.