I Caught You Singing Over Me

Songs of Wonder, Songs of Might with Color, Songs of Clarity, oh Wondrous Father, are You. 

Songs that a voice sings, simply because they know You.

Oh what a Love Language Your Heart is upon us.  I’ve often wondered what it meant that You “Sing Over” me, and could it really be that I would ever catch You doing so?  If so, what would You Sound like?  Would I suddenly hear out of the blue Your Voice saying my name?  My name, one who feels so lost as she hides in the bushes for sin has caused the bite of an apple. I struggle to understand.

But then, I ponder a sweet picture of a mother forming words to notes dancing in her heart, to the child she delights in.  Back and forth, back and forth, time escapes into the night as she rocks him, holding him as close to her face as possible; gazing into the face she loves. Looking for ‘herself’ in every movement for the likeness he resembles in fascinating.  Her head tilts to get a better view of every corner of his beautiful face, as stunningly this creation has stolen her affection so deep, she would gladly die for him, yet all he does is cry and demand upon her for all his care.  

But her eye does not move from him,

even after he is fast asleep as she listens to the song of love

that mysteriously came one special day

when his life was handed to her for the watching.

Could this Song I hear be Your Love Gazing at me and all I’m doing is crying?  All I know to do is make a noise for I cannot seem to walk, only fall.  Yet I’m Cuddled by Your Holy Spirit that Surrounds me as Arms of Love dance around my being.  Are you Gazing at me with intense determined Eyes of Safety and Ownership; ready to Stretch to whatever length it will require to bring me to fullness, while I, can only think of the moment?  

Though the night, an ordinary night last night, I am awakened and I cry.  Beautiful songs stir my sleep as Love Swarms over me.  Out of my heart love comes that I know so little of, but it was rolling over and over.  I could not escape its voice, so I rose from my bed, while more asleep then awake, and wrote in the dark as my love Song took form on paper….

“Love Pounding, Love Sounding, Love Reoccurring upon the earth!

Love Pounding, Love Sounding, Love Reoccurring upon the earth!

Love Pounding, Love Sounding, Love Reoccurring upon the earth!”

How Soft and yet so Governing it rode my thoughts as it came in Song.

Now awake and wondering….was that me singing?

Was that my heart singing “I love You” as I slept until I became aware of its echo so loudly within.  Like a heavy heartbeat as each Love Note beat so Boisterous.  No, it was You Singing over me and to those You Purchased, as Your Eyes Watch with Fierce Jealous Ownership, this Proclamation though Song of Your Heart.  For I only know to cry, rely completely on You. Like a child in their mother's safe arms.  I heard, I felt; I was there while Your Song Over us Flowed. 

I caught You, didn’t I?  I caught You Singing over me last night while I slept. 

I caught You Singing over me.

Obedience Comes From Me When I Feel Safe

Thank You Gracious Father for sharing Your Love and Life as my Daily Bread.  I could not live without it.  I hold it dear and ponder Your Love so revealing in sisters and brothers around me. 

I face my flesh daily and want healing of heart so that I am free to Know You better and reveal Your Hopes to Your precious ones I come in contact with by Your Divine Destiny.   

Obedience comes from me when I feel safe, Father,

Teach me Real Safety and not the safe my own bumps try to scream. 

Love me with the Deepness of Pure Guidance and keep me cautioned of my own directions. 

I want to only stand upon the Solid Rock and never build upon the sand. 

Safe from the storms, Safe from the dragon that comes to devour my soul, Safe to play in Your Love as I focus on Your Life. 

Keep me and my family Wrapped in Comfort that Comes from You

as we Dance together with our words of love for what Jesus has done for us..! 

Unusual Ordinary He Operates From

Father, together with You,

together simultaneously eye to Eye,

is such an involving Place to be. 

A Place where the Mysteries of Your Soaking Personality

Releases its Thoughts

and Scatters about to all who have an ear to hear! 

Awakened, not knowing I was asleep.

Sleepy eyes Transformed to renewed Energy

to see Visions of Beauty.

I hear Songs not yet sung

as I begin to hum along

with Melodies that carry a multitude of meaning

in just a single syllable. 

In Concert

with the Host of worshippers,

the Ahhh’s

of my language dance up and down

the Scale of Your Love Messages to me. 

I catch and hold a Note

and play in its multiple Sounds

when mixed with other Rounds

of Musical Love Vibrations from Your Throne

as I jump from Glory to Glory

in Your Circle of Radiance. 

Involved in this Work of Praise upon the earth

necessitates uncontained excitement

like King David found

when bringing in Your Presence to Dwell among his people. 

Dancing is so natural to a heart so full

of Love’s Joy when Your Presence fills the heart. 

I shake off slumber

and Hope rises to overwhelm my being. 

Blessed Words of Love Notes

from He who I am involved, I sing. 

Securing my future,

Redeeming my past,

and allowing my ‘now’ to be Choreographed by Jesus,

God’s Son so Beautiful. 

Jesus, Your Love Examples

have intrigued me

to find the Peculiar of my God. 

Jesus, Your Beauty I am only beginning to see

as Your Eyes look Straight Through me

and Speak my Father’s Yearning for me. 

I ask question after question of

why,

how,

where,

when

and it always comes back

to Papa’s Love is more than enough. 

More answers than I can hear,

more reasons than I can comprehend,

more riches than I could ever spend

for the whole earth is full of His Glory

and He owns the Design and Creation of all things

above and below. 

I walk in Abundance

more than I could ever use up

as Papa Kisses me

with Hugs of Love

too deep for my comprehension. 

Love that has marked me for eternity

and I am forever seen

as His and worth His all. 

So I am nosy,

snooping into His Affairs,

probing into the unknown

for a glance of His Gifts and Pleasures. 

Interested in the

Unusual Ordinary

He Operates from! 

Gathering Moments to save

and treasure

as my eternal reason for being,

the Purpose of my existence. 

Father, together with You,

together simultaneously eye to Eye,

is such an involving Place to be.

Whispers Like A Fragrance Slowly Moving Into A Room

Father, You are my everything; my energy, my power, my heart, my friend…

All my time,

my very breath belongs to You

for I want to be so close to You that my thoughts are Yours without division.

How captivated I have grown from

each moment Your Love Touches my heart,

and how I want more.

I groan with hopes

for I have untangled my needs from wants

and found fresh Paths that carry me

like a swift running river to each Gift of Your Supply so satisfying. 

My eyes lower but my heart rises to catch a Glimpse. 

I groan with passion;

intense craze inside my heart

is a pulse that beats violently for my Place near You. 

My heart weeps as it knows little other emotions

that release the attraction it has to Your Magnetism.  

Your Tender Greatness has my interest

and I must investigate all avenues

of such Frolicsome Thoughtfulness.

There where I find Your Love

Pouring upon me Carelessly

to Nurture the awareness and curiosity of Your Knock upon my heart. 

Your Fondness for me is mesmerizing

and I want to somehow keep it

as an ornament or keepsake,

to cherish like a prize of great value. 

Importance

has me placing it in top priority

of my life, daily! 

I rest in Love’s Arms,

as the Benefit is hearing

Your Whispers

like a Fragrance slowly moving into a room

to touch the knowledge of all who populate the area. 

Not in a hurry,

oh no,

and not of demand that one catch the scent all at once;

but that it stays until it has penetrated all space

for the enjoyment of those in reach. 

One Whiff of its Beauty and comments begin to articulate as a Song develops of Your Presence so Divine. Each comment forms a Note of Praise and together this Song Rises to Heaven’s Portals for the Pleasure of Your Love seen and heard over Your Kingdom. 

I want, oh, I want to know more

of this Love

even if imperfectly

or in my deficient waywardly failures

I come,

I want to be close to You so that my thoughts are Yours. 

Disappointments do not come from You,

as You Set Your Eyes upon me,

so I can end all panic

and recklessly pioneer

my way to this Kingdom of Love’s Presence. 

You are greater than my catastrophes of collapse

and can take even the throbs of hurt

and make Recreation from it. 

For when Your Son Conquered all things

by His Perfectness,

He brought me along side Him

as He Sat beside You for eternity’s Reign. 

Now I immobilize fears of the g-o-d

I created

and become acquainted with the True God

that Considered my life of such worth that He Sent His Son

to Catch me away to His Dwelling Love. 

I groan inwardly to know more,

I will follow hard after Your Love. 

Listening for the

Whispers that move slowly into the room

and Touches my senses with its Scent of Love's Glory.

Knowledge Of Need

Today I am rejoicing in such a Mighty God that has the stability of Always..! 

He is ALWAYS.  An Absolute. 

I am unstable but have learned to be fearless in taking my brokenness to His Love to Heal.  I found this broken prayer that I wrote March 3 of this year.  What a hand full I must surely be.  Many times, the most needed times to call out to God is the hardest. 

Father, I just want to say thank You for pulling me out of my despair time and time again. 

 Knowledge of Need...

What happens when the sun sets on your heart? 

The darkness of your soul comes out as you walk the road that sees no end. 

You run awhile,

you make noises,

in hope someone might surely hear. 

God has brought you to meet yourself and the image reflects your fears. 

I am at this place, knowing I am walking,

walking with His Love takes me to His Face so Powerful

but oh how difficult when flesh gets smashed and crushed by the Knowledge of His Word. 

Today I lift my voice in praise after His Precious Spirit

makes Repair and Builds back the Work of God’s Faithfulness. 

I found a hole in my heart

and out came pouring the tumbling of brokenness and despair. 

Knowledge of Who God is takes me to

visualize a Place I am not

and sets my heart aflame. 

His Word made flesh so long ago still Walks with me through the day’s journey while I wonder in His Love Portals as Truth Knocks at my heart for the changes that will take me to the side of

Joy Unspeakable. 

 I find a Strength that I knew not was there until I knew my weakness. 

Spilling out the pain of what crushes around me,

I found the Gathering of heavens looking on to see the outcome of one so drawn into the burden of sin and instability. 

For I was taken to the Cross and found guilty

by the Word of Weight so Pure;

I was drawn to the Hill where Footprints had been left. 

 I was Judged and found in want. 

I am that one, the one who hammered the nail. 

I am the one who tricked Him and demanded He give me answers. 

I stoned His Word in my heart for the pain it brought. 

I am the one, one who hammered the nail of death. 

I was Ordered before His Word and saw His Spirit Alive and I trembled as I cried. 

I wept with a tortured heart as I sent out begs of Mercy. 

My song was of stain from sin’s cloak. 

Oh, what shame, with the world at my fingertips and the pleasures of taste at my call, I satisfied my flesh. 

I am the one, the one who hammered the nail.

In much sorrow I lament.  In hindsight I see His Righteousness. 

I am Wooed into His Arms as Wisdom encircles the Skills of His Life for me.

An Invitation is Written as I watch. 

A Party is in the Making. 

A Spread of Glorious Clothing is Laid Out for me and its fit has been Ordered in my size. 

A Curtain is Opened and I am Directed to Wash in His Blood. 

He forgives me and opens my eyes to see that though I am fallen,

He has Risen and He bids me to Come Join His Celebration;

be His spotless bride

as I surrender to His Change. 

 I am lost but He has the Way and repentance of sin is the Doorway to His Heart.

The Word of Salvation came to Open its Light. 

I am Found by the Spirit of Faithful Watching. 

His Watching…!

Kissing My Thoughts To Stay Near

Here I am,

anxious with excitement for how I have missed You Father.  

A day can seem so long to wait for our time like this, You and I, to run away in Your Love.  Run and not stop for as long as time allows me to run.  You, with me, by my side, to all the Places that are like steps to a Kingdom so built out of my realm of finding!  Hidden in Love’s Embrace and only touched by abandonment of heart. 

 I’ve wondered, someday will I be Caught in such a Love as this and be transformed to Life in such?  Will heaven be this magnified?  How will Life in the beyond be more? 

 Just wondering (?) 

I am finding such an adventure and yet

Mercy is Wrapped so tight about me

that I can wonder about in Love that Pardons before I fall. 

You, Father, so Strong and Complete;

and I, so frail with much to learn and experience. 

You with all Knowledge; and I so limited. 

Tears escape my heart as I can’t understand but know only to let go and dare my attempt to fly, knowing Your Wings will catch me. 

You, who hear the sounds of my secret prayers, take all of them- to the memory of forever - with the Pouring of Goodness upon each one.  Faithfully my cry reveals Your Work when I stop to seek and the song my life utters lifts its Music when dancing Your Expressions found. 

Love, Your Love slowly Touches my hand and the Warmth begins its Astonishing Power.

From the Touch of Your Hand I feel the Eyes of Your Heart so Gentle. 

Suddenly,

aware Love is Reaching deep with Passion

as You Understand every good and bad thought I have;

and yet,

Your Arms Come Tightly around me to Bring me Close for a Hug so needed. 

Kissing my thoughts with Promise to stay near. 

 I wait in silence as I soak in such an Oath. 

My thoughts go beyond myself and my heart breaks for those I love. I raise my hurt for a grandson, a granddaughter, a child; and You Give me Remembrance of Your Faithfulness to me. 

You Flash through the memories of my life to Show Reasons to Trust them in Your Hands. 

My heart cries once again.   I know I struggle to be yielding myself but You still call me Your own.  Lost in Your Love as You Continue with Limitlessness.  

 I hear You, oh Papa, I hear You and I rejoice, for You have not just Carried me to this Place but also Gone to the Same Length for my children and their children. 

If I know Your Love for me, I will Know Your Love for them. 

Tonight they are Carried and Hugged as You Kiss their hearts with Your Love. 

I love walking with You, my God, for it is an adventure that is endless.

Not Knowing All The Why's Of Your Love

Papa God,

One that Gives me the Safety to all my days. 

Knowing You have Placed me a top all tensions that knock for my attention,

and Kiss my heart

with Promise to always Live there,

always be inside, right in the middle with Your Affections. 

I often wonder what it would really be like

if

I had no reservations to that Truth. 

 If

I actually walked according to the Knowledge

of what You are Spending all of my days

helping me understand such Amazing Love. 

The Delight

is that I can expect each day,

each moment will Carry me closer

to that very Knowledge of Love so Outrageous. 

So today,

I am going to especially look forward to this Deeper Place,

as I want all Your Ways to be mine. 

 I’ve never known a Love like this

so I want to thank You

that Your Love is Persistent to Draw me close

and is the very Air that

my children

also wake to this morning. 

I love Your Love. 

Not knowing all the ‘why’s’ of Your Love

does not stop You

from the Wondrous Grace and Mercy of Love’s Work

in my heart and my children’s …

Not knowing ‘why’ You are in Constant Thought

over us

does not block the Reality of our days

are Blessed with this Protection. 

Kindness without failure

is very complicated to discern

but what we are becoming acquainted with

by existing as Your children. 

For I look at a situation

of rights or wrongs

according to a broken knowledge of compassion;

but You See

 the Total Work You are Doing

to Pave a Way for eternal Love from Pure Passion. 

I love Your Love in me…!

Thank You Papa, for Dwelling in me and my children...!