Takes My Focus Into His Stare

Father, I am taken

by the Safety of Your Arms

as I Run to Your Presence

like my life is ending. 

I want to stay Here, Here in Your Arms where I can scream against that which is so wrong.  I Hear Your Voice as You Gather me Close, against the Passion of Your Understanding while my thoughts scurry to sit upon Your Lap. 

 I know You are bigger than my pains,

my anger,

my troubles,

so I can’t leave, and there is no other place to go. 

I hide in Your Eyes of Fire for even if my big toe gets outside Your Circle, I know I have gone into a land that bites with fierce. This Place of Satisfaction keeps me coming back as I experience each Instant where Your Ear Bends my way to Hear everything I have to say. 

Steady my heart beat,

steady my hearts pain,

steady the hurt done against me

so I can be strong and stand against the evil one. 

The lies and deceit swallowed to give rights to wrongs, playing games in the dark against my unsuspicious mind.  You, my God, are the Eyes that Search and Fight weak ones as we lean upon Your Power that Divides Water for the Crossing of Your children to Safe Ground. 

I am weak in flesh

but I am without doubt

that You Conquer

and I pity the evil one

that tries to cross Your Name. 

For how could a creation say he was mightier than the Creator?  How could a blade of grass say it will knock over a mountain?  How could one that sings a song say he is more Powerful than the One who Created Song? 

Oh God, the Heavens Declare Your Glory as it Fills the temples of our hearts. 

I scream

against the giant

that thinks it can divide and blow smoke

in the Eyes of God. 

How ridiculously foolish as I watch Your Wind Puff its Thunder to Deafen the foolish.  Arise oh army of the Most High.  Arise and do battle against the principalities that tries to throw sand in the eyes You Love. 

For wicked is shut-up by the mere Finger of God’s Command. 

The Voice of my Beloved Comes. 

Takes my focus into His Stare

and Gives me His Assurance

that He Sits with Smiles as He Enjoys my run to Him. 

Bidding me to Come Away with Him, Sing, oh Sing as if the more I Release Love's Song, the more expansion I will have.  Dare to Dance with HIm in my storm.  Dare the Song be Raised as my storm clouds fade and move away.

I Escape, I heed to the Call

of His Might

and all pain is dissolved. 

 I am Tuned in to a New Melody coming from brokenness. 

 Time has stopped and of no importance. 

What is going on outside looses my grip.  My body has a weightlessness now that previously was so heavy I could hardly lift one small finger. 

I have Gone!  I am Gone as His Presence Lifts my own voice as He Encourages me to speak. 

He Paints with my voice. 

He Decorates with my voice. 

He puts Beautiful Jewels

on the voice I give Him

as I Trust only in His Way. 

I felt so abandoned and yet now I am Assured I was the Center of His Attention. 

God, You have no stress or worry of my advisory.  You are not hoping to hit the right timing with Your Strike.  You have been Leaning to Hear me, Hear my heart abandon a single note song to the creation of multitude notes to create Heaven’s Melodies. 

I go…

I push my thoughts

to the Highest Mountain

where Praise Raises the atmosphere

and accusations have no voice. 

I go away, I go and find nothing is too mighty against You. You Restore my soul as I take on Your Yoke. 

 I find Rest

to sleep

in the midst of storms.   

I Rest and Wait.  Your Victory is an Absolute.  I Rest and Wait as Softness Pillows my head. 

Beautiful is Jesus

who Rescues me

as I sing my New Song

to Him who Sits upon the Throne.

I See A Glass Reflecting Light

Father, I am so moved today.  I live for the moments I can be with You.  I seek out where, how, when, please now…!  Sometimes I wonder, how did I get to such a place?  I mean, I’ve always known Your Love but not to this degree, not with the obsession that has taken over my senses, not to this ‘begging’ state to see Your Glory, Your Beauty. 

Even now I am going deep with thoughts.  Oh God, may I go deep.  It is my choice to take this step but it is Your Choice to What I Find.  If I go deep, what will You Say …. What are the Songs that You are Singing today?  

I have no expectations except to Find Your Life to make Changes to the very existence of my eternity.   Building upon Your Knowledge is Rewards of Faith that Creates a Higher Secret Place of Wonders. 

Oh to see, oh to have vision of the Sounds of Your Love.  The Whispers of the Wind Circling in my soul to Reveal Your Eyes of Passion and Devotion as it Gives and Gives and Gives and Gives.  I may find my heart leaping with untold energy or my find my knees in a complete buckled fall as I take in Your Life with Knowledge for my day. 

But whatever the outcome, what ever the Beat of Your Heart has Going, I want to Hear, I want to Feel it.  Surrounded by the pain of what the world has to offer, I reach and stretch as far as I dare to fall, fall quickly, fall with swift want as I cry for deep.  I feel my grip as if it was my last chance to make it.  I cannot let loose.  I can only assume, as seen from the past, that You are Far Ahead of my yearning and have Ordered Heavens Best for my Craving heart. 

 I know that is why I keep coming back.  I cannot find disappointment in my return to You.  I cannot find rejection when I ask for Your Love, Hope, and Safety.  I cannot find sorrow but so the opposite.  I can count on the Absolute of Purpose and Steps that Lead to Happiness not predictable. 

Finding You is like having all confusion dissolve in such a way that I forget that pain was even there. No wonder I want to stay Here, seeking, knocking as You Open Doors so that I Find. 

I am in a Perfect Climate, Perfect Atmosphere, Perfect Treasures as Love Gives Everything.

Singing, oh God, my heart sings…. How does a heart sing like this?  How can a song be so Rich?  It’s as if my thoughts sing, my movements sing, it’s as if I am a song…! 

I feel like an instrument playing a song just by my thoughts as Your Vibrations take me to something of Heaven’s Beauty.  I hold tight to this sound as I desire to complete its melody.  I have come to reach into Your Kingdom and stand Here. 

I have something inside that I cannot identify.  I have Movement that is working like curiosity captures one away.  I walk closer.  I peer into unknown.  I look as if I have others wondering also.  What is this object?  What is this that is always available? 

I see a glass that is reflecting light.  I know only to go closer to the glass.  I can’t wait to look inside.  Oh what… what will I see?  I look just above the rim and I see my own eyes.  I see my own face. 

I do not understand…!  I do not want to see myself but the One that has Wooed me to this Secret Place.  And Your Voice Reaches to my hearing.  With something More than I can understand Your Love so Deep Speaks that You have Come inside to Live every moment of my life with me.  Your Love is so Extraordinary that You have taken on my appearance with great Pleasure. 

You have Created me before I was born with the High Light of getting to Love me and Walk with me as Your Dwelling Place.

Father, I Welcome You, You are so welcome to Live within my life.  I will be still and know that You are always with me.  To know You are God.  Trusting in Your Work within me as You Love me with Complete Pureness.  The Light that reflects off the Glass (me) is Your Presence.  Oh how I love Your Presence. 

Come, Dwell, please Shine Your Light within me so that Your Kingdom comes on earth as it is in Heaven…!  I love Your Presence.

Innocence and Trust

God Speak STRAIGHT to my heart…!

And in You Come.  My head spins with the Mighty.  I wiggle and cry as Pureness has its uncomfortable Justice that Stirs every emotion I was Given.  Holy Walks into my thoughts and I fall in worship.  I realize above every fear and thought that You are Worthy of my completeness. 

Your Throne I prepare in my heart for Your Pleasure.  Beautiful becomes a Visual now as Mercy Covers over my kingdom. 

The Ancient of Days

of no beginning and no end

Takes my hand in His;

Lifts me to look into His Eyes. 

How can I? 

How can I, for I have sinned. 

He Bleeds and I become Snow,

Faultless and Righteous according to His Purposes in me. 

The Light

that Created the sun of lesser light

Looks into the eyes of my heart. 

I am Taken to His Love with Excitement He Acknowledges. 

His Light begins to Shine like a Jewel of Pure Worth

as His Glory makes my heart His Home. 

So full of Majestic Splendor His Shine I feel with devestation.  He has a Better Way, His Love Sounds to my hearing.  His Mystery starts His Fire within.  

Dare I ask for 'the cause' of my spinning headache

rather than relief of such Jealousy His Fire Burns?

Dare to turn toward this Wind and walk forward

rather than hide behind a wall to escape its Force. 

Dare I seek Word

from the Heart of He who Gives from Pureness

rather than from man

who will speak it carefully so I reject not his loftiness. 

Dare I give up my reputation to the Hands of His Heart’s Cry who Walked in when I asked, rather than the opinion of man’s discernments. 

I shout with earnestness…

CALL ME… Take me to the Mountain of Your Glory. 

I know I am not ready but only Your Love can Do This…!

How Shocking to flesh when Holiness comes with its Passion.  Every dirty dish in your house seems exposed and yet the Eyes of Holiness remains so Focused to only Love with Help, not condemn.  

How overwhelming as flesh looks upon dirt as impossible laundry while His Holiness just picks a start and Rejoicingly Cups it with Beautiful Smiles of Encouragement to Join His Work as He Turns ashes into Beauty. 

I fall as His Love Informs me,

“Obey Me.  Follow Me to a place you haven’t seen yet.  I want you to return to the place of ‘innocence and trust'”. 

Weeping takes over and every muscle in my body withdraws and expands with brokenness.

I Ponder His imposible Thunder:  ‘Look for Innocence… Look for Trust’  

I have none, I cry…! 

His Love Breaks the burden I cannot carry.

Don’t go back, go forward.  Clear your closet (inner man) of what you should keep, not what you should destroy.  We are looking for innocence and truth to take out and save, as we destroy the old you. Don’t mistake your old innocence for the new innocence that I am giving you. The old innocence was ignorance.  The new innocence is wisdom.  A child does not cover his gown with a robe (heart with reasons).  It does not need covered.  It’s too innocent, too full of truth and trust to cover.  …

I run, I shut down, I cry, I cannot go here! 

I am ugly without make-up. 

I am old and I cannot climb like I used to. 

 I cannot rescue myself…!

His love Gives Instuctions and His Love Gives Its Own Kindness..!

I am dissolving the guilt you feel,

like saliva dissolves food with acid. 

There’s a lot of it,

it’s been going on so long. 

But I will destroy it naturally.

 I lose all my words for response.  I shake with fear as He Holds me Tight within His Loving Embrace.  I only want Him even Closer; Closer than I’ve ever known or felt. 

Today is dark to flesh so strong, for His Love Gives Hope and there will be no return. 

 Oh my soul, why so downcast… oh my soul, worship His Holy Name..!

I have been Taken with such I cannot explain.  Oh God, I am falling so Deep into Your Love.  How could I ever go any other way.  You are my Strength, my Fortress.  My Help in all times…! 

You have set ten thousand angels to my side

as my strength deminishes

and Your Strength Takes me to this Place I have never seen. 

Call me…. Take me to the Mountain of Your Glory…!

Falling

Father, I have to hear.  I have to know.  I have to see. 

You have Given me such Glimpses of Your Amazements

and I have become so bold

to come with my hands out. 

I only know to ask for the Revelation You are to be in Extreme.  How can I not?  How can I restrain when I know there is so much more? 

I feel like I am at the top of a huge waterfall

watching all the Beauty and Sounds

its Power possesses

as the rushing Mighty Water demands with Control. 

The Wind it causes is blowing my whole being as I stand in awe of its Intense Force.  Do I jump?  Do I dare go closer and be Taken by this Ultimate Surrender.  Nothing will survive once I jump.  There is no return. 

The Valor of this Sound has a Song of many voices. 

Voices that Speak with the playing of unfamiliar musical instruments. 

Bells that do not ring,

they Tremble in a Fear of the Mighty

and Beauty is heard that we hush to hear. 

Notes that Roar like drums

as it Splashes praise and Strikes the Heavens. 

Raising the level of tears as the Song continues. 

The Swift fall of surrender

creates a sound like strings

being singled out, chosen,

selected by the Master Musician for Perfect Pitch.

Each surrender offering a different Sound of Heaven’s Tune.  

Great is the Depth of this Waterfall.  Great is its Song that Roars. 

The Name of Heaven’s Thunder Sounds

as the Hum of ‘Jesus’

Stretches as a Note Held for many measures.

I call with all that is within me for the Courage,

for the Confidence,

Assurance that Your Commitment towards me is complete Loyalty. 

Why do I hesitate?  What is the step that will take me over this edge?   

I hear as this Song Bounces

and is Tossed with such Waves that Build

to Top every obstacle;

owning all that might try to complicate the Journey.   

And then it happens. 

It just happens; and there I am

- in the fall -

with no idea how it came. 

Falling as I sing with those who have fallen also. 

The multitude of words that come forth

make a Sound of one meaning, one Song….

Holy, Holy, Holy are You Lord God. 

Who was and is and is to come. 

Falling, I soar as He Owns my path, my heart, and my life. 

I fall to His Wonders….!

Songs, How Do They Happen

Early Morning SONG to my Lord:

VERSE 1

You’re the Wonders of my Universe

You are the Song that Sings

You are the Beauty my eyes return to me

You are the Ultimate that Life Brings

CHORUS:

You cry over my desperation

You cry seeing my lost hope

Crying while I yield to thorough defeat

You Extend Your Saving Rope

Peace becomes my New Song

VERSE 2

Carefully Your Music Moves me

How Softly it Carry’s my heart

How Unwavering Your Love is for me

How Perfect from the start

VERSE 3

Songs Spread before me, asking to Reign

Releasing Melodies of Scenic Hum

Love’s Invitation to be One in Spirit

Love Sings to His Bride, Come.

BRIDGE

Ohhhh, Ohhhhh, God of Mercy and Grace

Ahhhh, ahhhhh, I Bow in honor, as I look upon Your Face

Fountain of Thoughts After Song...

I’m Carried away…. Oh with Love’s Secrets that lay within my heart like Eyes of Passion that will not release.  For what is outside?  What is there to want?  What does the outside have that can compare?  I have Fallen so Far into His Love deep within.  I have Sunken into the Threads of a bow that Rubs against a Violin and out comes a Sound of Heaven’s Ring.  Taking in the Vibrations of the Touch as Instruments combine to Play, a Sound Rises and I Ride…!  I quiver and shake as the Emotions of Love Read me like a loud cymbal.  I am Companion to Jesus who has Joined my thoughts to Sing Devotions to our Father.  I am Exposed before His Glory.  Again and again this High Note Escapes from somewhere Placed by Divine Creation and I Sound it with the Push of His Spirit that Lives within a Secret Place.  It Comes like a trial as I must find Faith to Carry it forth.  It Comes like a thought so Entwined with mine that I must Listen so carefully as It Speaks of Heaven’s Throne, One who Sits High.  I hang on as I dangle onto wonders of love Enlarging in my sphere of existence.  This Love Breaks into my love Learned and the Music goes out as if it is Air He Breathes.  I see Eyes Searching for my song sung of my own love Learned.  I am Pulled into Higher Ground, Higher Sounds, Higher Notes.  Notes so High I no longer can hear in the natural.  No more questions, just Love Songs Singing…!  The Father, my own heart beat and what Pounds Softly to keep me singing.  The Rhythm begins to Form as I unite with unknown but daring to explore further.  Like a musician trying the keys of their instrument to explore new sounds.  I am humming with thoughts that Soar.  I am seeing with eyes that have Mist as its Window.  What is now my outside world becomes my inside world as this Love Gives Explanation.  The earth, His Love’s Tabernacle for His Glory, becomes Full.  Beauty Melts and becomes Songs.  Songs that Beat with Purpose and Set Motion into Orders as Strength of another World Takes its Place.  This is how Songs Happen...His Kingdom Comes on earth as it is in Heaven…!!!!

America ASK 'Who Are You, Master?'

Father, Your Grace Uncovers so many things. Even with such Extreme Love Scorching my heart with Grace and Mercy, I coward with my heart of passion for it is still all about me and not about Giving what You are so Faithful to Shower me with.  I found Your Favor that was there all along. I Found Your Eyes so Devoted to Safely keeping me before I took my first breath. I play in Your Playground specifically made for me to Wonder about and find this Love that has Built a Kingdom of eternity to Worship (Love) as time loses meaning.  I am mystified as affections have reversed - to dedicate my mind, my body, my soul, my whole heart, to You as I surrender to accept the Offering of Your Love.  How do I walk this Road so Loved? How do I break the whips I have for myself and for others, that I made, to keep in position the flesh demands to reinforce.  I heard Love Calling and I ran to its Showers and felt Love’s Song Singing into my soul.  I race to be at every Meeting Love has for me; but I stumble with doing as I see.  I stumble at practicing what I preach.  I stumble at giving what I got.  I stumble at forgiving when I’m forgiven.  I am zealous, yet I stumble in my work for You. 

Poppa, I read of a man that was Mighty with Your Spirit within him.  Saul, later called Paul, written of in Acts in the New Testament, became fearless.  Many told him he would be bound if he went to certain cities but he feared not the bounding but went to speak to the lost at whatever the cost.  He found all his circumstances not to be the issue; what mattered was Following the Life Jesus Taught.  I seek this as flesh cautions; but want to be loosed from any fleshly fears.  I am troubled with the need to have this world’s substance, which holds me back.  With all the me's out there, our country is having to adjust to its long term need for this world’s substance. We have Played in the Playground of Your Favor and found Extreme Love Saturating.  Your Faithfulness in all our going is bringing us to repentance as we are stopped in our tracks by Your Spirit. 

I read this morning another story of Saul/Paul’s journey that rationally challenges my own careless perception upon my blundering zeal and causes me to pray for such an awakening to Set my Course.

Acts 26: 12-16 (MSG)  Saul, who was later called Paul, tells us - - -

"One day on my way to Damascus, armed as always with papers from the high priests authorizing my action, right in the middle of the day a blaze of light, light outshining the sun, poured out of the sky on me and my companions. Oh, King, it was so bright! We fell flat on our faces. Then I heard a voice in Hebrew: 'Saul, Saul, why are you out to get me? Why do you insist on going against the grain?'

"I said, 'Who are you, Master?'

Poppa, Paul heard a voice in his language, he heard a voice that he understood. 

I seek to hear this Voice, Poppa.  One I know and understand in spite of my zeal.  One that takes my heart to the core of Your Gift, the Son, and His Walk for me.  It turned Paul around when he heard in his own tongue the Triune’s Direction for his life.  He was blinded, uncomfortable, troubled… but NOT without Knowledge that he was being Guided.  Speak to us, Speak to America so that we say….’WHO ARE YOU, MASTER?’ and we truly find our Road to walk under the Anointing and Power of such Love Given, the Son of God who died and Rose for our Salvation and eternal Life.  We are Loved, this we do not question… but we fail in hearing the Guidance and selflessness of such Love.  Poppa, Speak to us.  Speak to this nation.  Jesus, Build Your Kingdom on earth as it is in Heaven.  Speak to America as we ask 'Who are you, Master?'…! Amen

Singled Out One

Poppa, You are so Wonderful, so Marvelous in all Your Splendor..!  

You put me to sleep with such Sweet Dreams and wake me with a Son-Beam Radiating from within.  This morning I woke with Your Tickling Thoughts that Entertained me while You allowed me to begin my wake.  I know I must have been grinning even while I lay upon my pillow. 

I saw You Looking at me;

Your Presence was that Penetrating. 

I ponder as I know I am of no specialty

to those of this world,

yet You Single me out,

as You do each child of Yours,

and Create the Special for us to Live in.   

I Wonder about so many things that have my heart intrigued of Your Existence within my life. I hear that You are with me ALWAYS… Promising to never forsake or leave me.  Then I wonder… oh I wonder with such big wonders…. How does that work? 

Yesterday I went to get fuel for my vehicle and when I went inside for a delicious breakfast pizza, this person (?) opened the door for me.  Light seemed to Pour from their Countenance.  What was that all about?  I couldn’t get past this Reflection all day.  Even a day after, it Stirs this Hope and Assurance of Your Love somehow as it Sealed itself in my heart for remembrance as if it just happened.

Their Voice so Sweet

and yet with a Tickled Heart, they said

‘Only on Tuesdays’.  

I somehow wanted to bow

but I didn’t,

I just laughed and wondered? 

Poppa, the morning was filled with Fresh Words that I could not help but open my mouth and Taste for You have again set a Table before me as I Feast.  I open my eyes and Look as You Walk my steps with me.  I am Peeking into today with Knowledge that You are Here even greater than yesterday for I build upon Your Love Chasing me. 

You Inspire my day with Gladness

and Arranged the Scenery

to Seize my interest.  

I found this Love Song from David that surprises me how he seems to say it like I do, or I have said it a lot like he has.  How fun to share similar thoughts…! 

I ponder as I know I am of no specialty

to those of this world,

yet You Single me out,

as You do each child of Yours,

and Create the Special for us to Live in.   

Psalms 36: 5-12 (MSG)

^5-6 God's love is meteoric,
      his loyalty astronomic,
   His purpose titanic,
      his verdicts oceanic.
   Yet in his largeness
      nothing gets lost;
   Not a man, not a mouse,
      slips through the cracks.

 ^7-9 How exquisite your love, O God!
      How eager we are to run under your wings,
   To eat our fill at the banquet you spread
      as you fill our tankards with Eden spring water.
   You're a fountain of cascading light,
      and you open our eyes to light.

 ^10-12 Keep on loving your friends;
      do your work in welcoming hearts.