I Live In His Eye

Father, my Poppa,

I must smile,

Sweet Jesus and Teacher Spirit.

I smile with the Knowing

I am unbelievably within a Force

that must be fighting my battles. 

For I have no strength,

yet Peace keeps Crying

I am Safe.

I stand upon Your Mountain

and my smile seems to consume

my whole being,

but only because I met You this morning. 

I’m out of that boat,

the waves are extremely high and crazy,

the wind is blowing in circles,

but I’m living

Oh, I'm Living .... in Your Eyes…!

I’m living in Your Focus, YOUR EYE.  

Living in the Center

of the Eye of God

and so calm I can only marvel.  

Listening to Heaven’s Sounds and Songs,

not my own confusing wingding’s

that make nothing readable

without His Code for Interpretation,

His Mighty Spirit. 

And here…

here in Your Mountain,

I find a Map,

Directions that give Steps. 

Steps that Shelter

and Harness the heart

as the greatest Treasure within the Eye. 

No wonder we all want

to live in the Mountain of our God.  

I know the storm is about me,

I know the wind screams

‘be afraid’;

but Safe,

oh how Sweet Safe feels

to the soul surrendered to only Walk,

not run,

on the Water during the storms. 

Trusting,

oh Trusting with Faith

that has built to become Knowledge

Known. 

I’ve heard the stories

of the ‘eye of the storm’. 

Documentations are had

of the wonders...

feel how it felt to be there. 

And here I am…

for eternity…

Documented in the Book of Life

to Live in the Eye of God. 

What an enormous

supernatural Carriage

this is. 

The Float of my soul

that mystifies and confuses

 and blocks the storms

so the walls of hell cannot trespass. 

This must surely be what Heaven is. 

It MUST BE… it must be. 

For there is no traps,

no lies,

no death,

no worries…

For who can trap God’s Eye,

who can lie to the Eye of God,

who can empower

and kill this Place - the Eye of God?

Who can cause God to worry?  

This is amazing..!

This must be what the Kingdom of Heaven is. 

It must be..!   

Father, my Poppa,

I must smile,

Sweet Jesus and Teacher Spirit.

I Live in Your Eye...!

Love Creates Pictures

Oh how can I stop Time

as This Song Carries in my hearing? 

How can I stop the sun

so that I live in this Explosion

that has ruptured the walls I build

that keep me from His Melodies? 

Sing, Holy One... Sing as I dance

with steps I take

to play in Love's Vastness.

I love, oh I love as Love Pours.

Love Creates Pictures

as the Fountain of Love

Sings to my soul.

Stepping from one moment to the next

with much too much traffic

between my heart's union to His.

I get lost in traffic’s distractions

and

 forget the Music still remains and Sings over me. 

A Picture begins to Form.

 I have seen the stars twinkle in the darkest of nights

and imagined the stretch of such distance and beauty

to only be the beginning

of His Portrait of Enormous Love. 

So much to chase and explore behind this small window! 

Stars that shine in darkness

but cease their twinkle when the light comes out,

remaining in wait, in place,

for their moment again to talk to my eyes as I walk in darkness. 

For in darkness I dare speak inner thoughts

I hide from Light,

seeking Loves Truth,

wondering and stumbling to find my heart again. 

In darkness, mysterious Twinkles

overwhelm my senses

as my eyes

stare at this mass of Love Displayed. 

Then I Watch the Morning Hour

as they Continue in their Position

while the sun fades the knowledge of their existence;

waiting their Plan to Shine

for me again

in my darkness of traffic.

  I am intrigued with His Love within my eyes,

His Heart within my own,

His Song that Sings. 

Does He Twinkle and Shine when the darkness rolls in over my soul? 

Does His Majestic Beauty

show the Billions of His Twinkling Light

 Filling my image while in my own darkness? 

Does He show such vastness one would wonder if there was an end?   

 I won't be afriad

Day or Night...

His Twinkle, His Pure Bright Light Shining...

the Son Rising,

Staying His Place in both moments;

Shining in my darkness as well as my day.

Deepest Of Love's Wait

Here in the Wonders of God’s Love

and with such Love Abounding,

the heart Floats with His Kindness…

yet feeling the pains of worldly jabs

and words that tear at the soul,

I still praise my Lord. 

Oh yes, my soul lifts His Name,

praise of His Goodness

to the One that Pulls me out of darkness

and causes me to rise above

all the cares that want to leave me in shame

and troubles I know not what to do. 

I am going into the deepest of Love’s Wait

as I focus on where He leads me

beside the Still Waters

where I am Calmed by the Songs that He Sings

around my heart,

to Wrap it in His Sweetness.

Here in the Hands of Might I lay my tears

as I shed each one with a huge pain speaking. 

Every tear

that escapes my eyes

have His Attention.

He Hears each one

 =DROP=

He READS it

 as a report of High Importance,

ready to put Action upon the Scene. 

My heart makes melodies of so many styles called emotions. 

Sometimes dancing with giggles

and sometimes dancing in tears of pain. 

But Sitting as the Highest,

He has Open Arms,

it doesn’t seem to matter how I come,

He Smiles with Welcome

as I walk up to His Face Looking at me. 

For I have come to One Bigger than my heart,

bigger than my fears. 

One that has the answers to the rolling thunders of the sky,

has my life written upon the Palm of His Hands. 

I agree with His Love

as I witness His Eyes view me as Precious

while I surrender to His Passion over me. 

He Inhabits my praise

as I melt to all His Love Given. 

Oh yes, I Praise Him who placed His Song within me. 

I am not bound or held

to be a certain tune

before saying His Name. 

I was purchased by Blood

that came from nails piercing

to prove this Message of Love. 

 I Sing His Name just as I am. 

I fall in love with Love who has Moved me. 

Tears or dancing,

I praise the God who Holds my heart with Kindness.

For

I am going into the deepest of Love’s Wait

Failures, Please Don't Show Me

I want to SHOUT… I want to SCREEEAAAAAMMMMMMM..!!!!!  Oh GOD, THE GOD…. THE MERCIFUL GOD OF ALL THE EARTH…!!!!!  LET THE EYES OF OUR HEART BE TURNED TOWARDS YOU and NOT our own love affairs..!!!!  Place us before The Judge so that we see our self which will open our understanding to FALL; FALL FACE DOWN as the Crown of Your Glory takes hold and we find NO ROPE to swing the opposite direction.  It is the Experience that the soul fights against with all that is within but Spirit does not Give In. Spirit of Revelation Wraps His Ribbons of Safety around the heart so that the Wonders of Father’s Purposes can be quickly Down Loaded as this Amazing Direction comes; and the Giant of Friendship Gives you this Power you know is coming from some where inside, but from a Source you did not know yesterday. 

It is sooooo much easier to follow what feels right, follow what sounds right… follow the head that says, ‘but we have always done it this way.’  Oh God, Father, Taker of my eyes, my heart, my soul, all that I am I surrender to the nothing that I know… the nothing that is clear except that my surrender is in You, for You.  I have so much pride in my knowledge and feel I would die in hell if I were to surrender to abandon all and completely follow You.  I, like my sister has said, find it extremely difficulty to think I will be served by the Master… oh how could I… not I… I would never be so crude to have a Master serve me, I am so prideful. 

Oh the humility of seeing one self.  The sweat that feels like blood or like your insides coming out.  There are no words to describe the Mirror of Your Righteousness upon our souls… to be at the bottom of all lists of filth and have Father pick me up and Clean off the dirt as Arms of Love Pierce through all my fears as I am forced to see the failure, Oh GODDDD the failure…. I want to do anything but see the failure. 

Please don’t make me see my failure…! 

If I see my failure I cannot go on.  I can not live.   I hate seeing my failure.  I lose grip with my strength that tells me I must have.  I lose the war inside that protects me and keeps me in my sin and tells me it is my righteousness. 

OH GODDDDDD… I can’t see my failures. 

It will destroy who I am.  It will take me to hell's doors and I will fall in somehow.  I will be captured by the guilt and I will not stand against its nasty grip.  If I just lay in it and feel good about myself, I can be strong, I can say ‘oh, it doesn’t really matter’ or worst….. ‘I’m not really wrong’ …. I can tell myself all sorts of things that will make me believe in lies.  But surrender??? OH GOD….. SURRENDER????  And DIE????  To HONESTY…!???  I will die and go to hell. 

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My Redeemer, my Jesus – You know, don’t You.  You know how I feel, don’t You.  Jesus, Your Words Hug me and Encourage me while I’m awake and when I sleep.  You aren’t easy on me, that’s for sure, but You are Solid and Stern, to the point of such Strength that I want to run, but You Know that, don’t You.  But Your Friendship is that You will Share Life with me and not run from me just because I can’t or don’t want to hear what You have to say.  You just keep on keeping on and Encouraging me to do the same. 

Thank You for Praying for me.  Thank You for showing me You were not a follower of this world and was so hated by those who wanted religion and/or their own love affairs, not Joining the Union of the Trinity You were Giving Invitation to.  Thank You for Showing me how God Sees me.  How He so Carefully and Wonderfully made me for His Pleasure.  How He Sent You for the Purpose of Offering Your Self so that I would be in this Unity.  Thank You for Completing the Destiny God Gave You. 

Thank You Spirit for Safely Blowing the Work in and around my life so that I ‘feel’ my God as Friendship, and Love and Power Touches my heart as I learn to Joyfully count it a pleasure to be a part of all this eternal Home has, as I unite with all the body of Christ’s. 

Jesus, I Climb inside Your Name this morning as I have repented with my sister of my weakness… I dared to see myself again and find my heart Carried High and Rocked back and forth with Your Song Singing over me as I surrendered.  Jesus, I cry on Your Shoulder as I tell you my pain and sorrowful weaknesses, and I Hear the Loud Sounds of Eyes of Passion Guiding me to Father’s Love. 

How can Eyes make such Loud Sounds…. Oh they can.  It is like Words that cannot be spoken for this is much deeper than words, this is Truth and Foundations for the rest of my life.   Eyes, oh Jesus, Your Eyes Pierce my heart and Reaches the rivers of pain and confusion I swallowed and accepted as truth but were just crumbling rocks I grabbed in trying to survive. 

I weep now, oh yeah, I weep because now my eyes are talking to Your Eyes. 

We have met and a New Language called communication happens that brings in the curiosity of angels as they work Your Love to see such Love between human and God.   

Love Walks on the earth as my feet surrender to the Good News.  No wonder the feet of those who carry Good News is so beautiful.  It carry’s Life Given, not life imagined or supposed.  I see You Jesus, I see Your Eyes upon me and I see Your Hand reaching to mine, to support me as I cry.  I hear Your Whispers as You Touch against my ear with Your Lips to tell me Father is Proud of me right now.  I feel the Arms that have wrapped around my chest and rocking me as I cry.  I am heard, I am tended to. 

I am softly patted as Spirit Shows the Personalities of the Trinity to my own eyes.   I know only to sob as I am so dirty and yet You have no fear of my dirt or what You could catch from me.  You only want to Touch me in my leprous state so You can Wipe each sore with Your Answers so I will be Whole and Dance with You as Your Love Abounds. 

Thank You so much Father. Thank You so much Spirit.  And Jesus, I hardly know what to say.  I want to be Friends forever.  I want to know more and I want to come often to this Place.  A Place where I am no longer afraid nor crippled with garbage words I’ve heard from someone or see in someone that I think might be of interest to You.  I will come as called… NOW… exactly as I am.  The way You Called Your Beloved disciples…. ‘Come, Follow Me…’  This is what I want to do moment by moment…. COME FOLLOW YOU.  Asking questions because I’m curious and deeply want to hear You.  Not afraid I will disappoint you with these questions, but honest – where I’m at so that when it comes to the Right…. You can say… ahhh haaaa…. You NOW HAVE IT.!!! 

Oh Jesus… I love You so much.  Thank You for Showing me Father and Leaving the Gift of Spirit.  I am so excited for more.  I kiss Your Lips as Friendship EXPLODES…!!!

Cherished One

Poppa, Jesus, Holy Spirit,

I am so excited about my heart’s Union,

the Dance of togetherness,

with Real

and not things seen as real by my fears,

my disappointments,

my struggles, my own understanding. 

Oh how LONG it feels since the last moment I felt Your Touch. 

If it was but only seconds ago…

its been too long. 

Your Knowledge of my needs

Take me to Heights I need no fear of. 

Your Love is of such Extreme

that Your Work and Love will Accomplish

ALL You have Set out to Do in me. 

I am excited about Living within Your Immediate

and not Your later(s) or past.  

I am not afraid, I found Strength and the Unity is unbreakable. 

Oh, I am a Cherished one… Loved by the Creator of my heart.

Flames of Love's Connection

My heart runs with excitement

as I begin to realize it is time. 

I can now tell You

all about what I’m thinking

and hear Your Voice

as it Thunders like a heart beat

after a fast run. 

Beating so hard

I wonder if those watching

can see its movement about my chest. 

The Union of my heart to Yours,

my desire day and night. 

To Ride the Waves of Your Spirit

that Blows upon my desires

to Increase the Flames of Love’s Connection. 

Passion that leaves behind all other loves

as the Eyes of my Lord

Strike my emotions

like a high current’s demand. 

I grip this Love

to the death of previous wants held to this world,

as I surrender to the Burning Fire

against any resistance. 

Love once Touched,

cannot go back. 

Love once Tasted,

cannot be satisfied with any other flavors. 

Love once Experienced,

cannot find a substitute. 

Love Connected to Real

has eternal Caged Devotion

with unspeakable Bliss that Carries me away

to only One desired Dream,

'to be Here forever'.   

Rising Upward to dance with the Sway of Passions Hold,

I kiss my Loves Face

with my own eyes looking back at His. 

I seem to be out of control

as my emotions dance within my eyes

with tears to speak my message of yearning.

I am Here,

Here in His Locked Grip,

Safe to swim in Waves of Emotions. 

Dancing to Love’s Dream. 

Dancing to my own fever

of hearing His Name

Wrap around me like a Ribbon of Play. 

Up from the middle of all my soul

I can feel the run

that gathers all my thoughts

to focus on this One,

Love’s Fire. 

To feel all its Drawing

to have my complete purpose in His. 

Flames of Love's Passion has Came

and Swallowed me whole

as I burn.