Dancing with my heart, my words, my song, and my love, before my God…


But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who
LOVE YOUR NAME may rejoice in you. Psalms 5:11

Monday, January 17, 2011

Open My Blinded Eyes, Oh God

Matthew 20 (Amp bible)
  29And as they were going out of Jericho, a great throng accompanied Him.
    30And behold, two blind men were sitting by the roadside, and when they heard that Jesus was passing by, they cried out, Lord, have pity and mercy on us, [You] Son of David!
    31The crowds reproved them and told them to keep still; but they cried out all the more, Lord, have pity and mercy on us, [You] Son of David!
    32And Jesus stopped and called them, and asked, What do you want Me to do for you?
    33They answered Him, Lord, we want our eyes to be opened!
    34And Jesus, in pity, touched their eyes; and instantly they received their sight and followed Him.


Great and Mighty Creator and One who Called even sound and sight into existence; how Wondrous it is to think and ponder Your Works with such detail.  I am troubled today with blindness… oh no, not with the eyes that easily see the world and what is in front of my steps, but what is Deeper and Greater than these events.  I find myself at a rock, bent with the weight of sin and troubled heart which blinds my vision from the Son and His Light upon my life.  In darkness my eyes are closed to what is around me that will make me stumble; make me fall as I carelessly run for safety I can’t find.   This morning I am crying as the blind men did for that same Mercy and Pity upon my life.  Your stop my way has given me the boldness to ask for Your Pity and Mercy upon my life so that my eyes are opened as I have known Your Love and Greatness.  Open my eyes to see Your Light.  Open my eyes to have Vision of Your Walk.  Open my eyes today so I will receive my sight and follow You…!!!   Have pity on me, I really want to see..!

Friday, January 14, 2011

Reading Like A Child


Oh God choose me today…
Choose me moment by moment,
daily as I come before You. 
Yesterday I pondered the Worthiness of You
and broke that word
Worth-y
down slowly as it came out
Worth It.
Oh God, You are worth it. 
For me and in my doing,
You are worth whatever my flesh has to go through
to find You there,
Choosing me.   
I know I am a child before Your Throne. 
I see my childishness and I am so humbled. 
Working at a medical clinic I came in yesterday
from a business luncheon;
walked in the waiting room
and a child about 4 years old
looked at me that captured me to a
standstill. 
She showed me her book. 
I stopped to ask her if she would read it to me. 
Without hesitation
she began reading the pictures,
not the words,
but the pictures. 
The story was changed but she was confident
to share every page
even though it was far from the written words. 
Father, this is me too often
as I read Your Word;
sharing and reading the pictures
rather than the Written Word of Truth. 
As a child, with confidence and without fear;
Father, I want to grow up. 
I need to grow up
and not just share what my worldly eyes see. 
I need to have Knowledge
inside my spirit
and declare with the Boldness of Your Life
the Written Word of Truth. 
Reading with eyes of Your Understanding
the Precision of Words from Your Mouth
mixed with Your Spirit within me. 
I release this prayer of my heart
as I grow
in Your Wisdom and Power
by the Life of Your Word Working in me.   
Jesus, continue
to Enlighten me of Your Walk on earth
as it Points to our Father
and the Riches of His Will and Kingdom Come. 
You are Worth – IT..!!! 
Worthy of all praise
and in Your Name
Jesus
I find Truth…!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

They Brought Their Children to Jesus

Father, I love the dealings of my heart as I search it and find stirring that seems to gush out.  Oh to find Your Sweet Spirit so Alive and working beyond my mind’s ability to Know Your Master Plan, not the one we design but the one You Design.  The ‘MASTER’ Plan…!  Wow, it causes my soul to leap with such expectations of Heaven’s Realm Manifesting on earth as the Light that brings our footsteps to Your Throne.  I have reached the top of something this morning that gives me assurance of who You Are past my own flesh which may crawl and become weary and even wonder of Your Reality as my earthly eyes see so differently than the eyes of my spirit from which You Dwell; but inside where the Word has made its residence and inside where Your Master Plan has the Blueprints for my day, I sing loud with a push of my own words to Your Throne.  I am taken to somewhere Glorious.  Here in Your Presence I bring again a parcel, my request; that which is more real than my breath.  I bring my request that takes in the existence of where my love has scrambled since 1972 from the birth of my first born.  Now holding two more births since then that continues to raise my level of understanding Your Mighty Abundant Love.  Father, while Jesus walked the earth the people began to see the Wonders of Your Son and mothers who knew the Value of Jesus’ Touch upon the heart of their beloved began to bring their children to Him.  Knowing it would Change the lives of those given to their womb. In the center of their soul, where the Life of Jesus was stirring them as mothers and servants, they boldly began to take their children to the lap of Jesus.  I am stirred this morning as I remain in prayer for my three boys and while I am before You I bring them to You to Touch and pray for their lives as Jesus prays.  Jesus, You who rebuked Your disciples when they tried to push the children away, in this assurance I stand welcomed to bring my children before You for the Touch of God’s Love. Give Command over them, release Your angels to minister to them with the Master Plan You are stirring to be theirs.  Hold their hands and Laugh with them as they play, Reach into their thoughts and Give them Assurance You are always with them as You continually Change them with Growth in You.   I am so grateful and find Your Warm Assurance as I ask for the TOUCH of the Master’s Hand upon my children just as the mothers so long ago pushed their way to Jesus.  I love Your Plan.  I love Your Changeless Essence as we so weakly bring before You the secrets and honesty of our heart.  Knowing Your Mercy, knowing Your Love and the Power of Your Master Plan against our burning flesh.  Finding Your Face and Hands Reaching to my children to Give Life, Oh God, I weep before Your Kindness.  I will sing of Your Love FOREVER.   Never of my own ability to conquer but of Your Ability in me that will bring Your Kingdom to my heart and to my children and to their children forever and ever AMEN..!

Matthew 19:13-14 (Amp Bible)
Then the children were brought to Jesus, that He might put His hands on them and pray; but the disciples rebuked those who brought them. But He said, Leave the children alone!  Allow the little ones to come to Me, and do not forbid or restrain or hinder them, for of such (as these) is the kingdom of heaven composed.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Mother's Prayer

How special to take the thoughts and concerns
of my own grown-up babies to my Father,
to whom I call Parent, Daddy, my Maker;
concerns for my sons You placed in my arms so long ago
 while I was a child myself. 
Forever grateful for the Gift of these babies
who have never stopped filling my heart,
birthed to me by Your design. 
What a wonderful inspiring prize they have been
as I watch them grow,
even to becoming grandparents themselves,
and how it has better developed my own knowledge of
Love from above. 

My oldest child holds keys
to the smiles of those he works around,
in constant servitude which brings such delight
as he views their pride of his work,
so happy to give. 
Always with the attitude of how
Good You are to him. 
Such a grateful heart.

My middle child giving me adopted children
 and enlarging my love strings
to be tied to the gracious world of
beyond children from my own womb.
His gigantic heart sees right from wrong,
peace verses stress,
and truly operates as the middle man
between so many situations
to bring balance and peace to hearts. 
I watch those who know him
see a unique tenderness as he calls upon God
for his life and family. 

My youngest a strong warrior
standing as a tower
for his children given to him as treasures,
like I do. 
Moving in the Life given him
with little ones in constant mind.  
Power of a strong man
but the heart of a soft daddy. 
His direction solid with eyes of steel.

Three boys Given to me
as a continuance of my own life! 
Your choices for me
as each of my boys have such Special Assignments
from Your above intelligent Foresight
and matchless Love. 

Oh the miracles I see as an overwhelmed receiver
of their love
from such miraculously enjoyable treasures;
treasures placed with me. 

Why me? 

These sort of splendid favors
are hard to understand
how I was granted such inheritance. 

I read yesterday how
Mary, Jesus’ mother,
was so surprised
when an angel by Your Request
 came to her
to tell her she would bare a Son. 
 How excited she was
as well as concerned
for her role in this amazing event.
  She pondered this call
as she accepted
Your Pleasure be done within her
and no doubt watched
it play out in her life
with eyes of love
and devotion to her Given son. 

I understand her great excitement
as I too find such joy in the Gift of sons. 
How I relate when Mary felt
such loss
and worry
when Jesus remained in the temple
while her and Joseph returned home
after traveling to Jerusalem
for the Feast of Passover
and could not find their son, Jesus,
in their party
for He had stay back
to speak with the temple scholars
to both ask questions and give His own Answers. 
When they finally found Him,
He was so at ease to tell His mother
that He was about His Father’s business. 

Oh Father, Daddy to my given and myself;
I find myself in this state of loss and worry
over my three treasures
and know only to come to You with these concerns
and run in search as Mary did. 
And when I do run to find them,
to find them at Your Temple as I do
puts my soul at ease.
For as I am put in remembrance
that they have
the dwelling of Your Sweet Spirit within them
and that Your Spirit
is greater than anything in this world,
I am put to ease of heart. 
My God
let the Mind of Christ be strong in their hearts
as You Dwell and Move them to the Knowledge of Your Love
 as they mature by walking out
Your Call within them. 
Stand them tall in Your Knowledge
and
Perfection of Your Love. 
As they stand
in the Temple of the Most High God,
Answer the curiosities
they hold of Your Kingdom
so they may declare
to the scholars of this world
Your Glory and Your Love’s Purpose. 
Carry out today and tomorrow’s Wisdom
over their own desires
as You so kindly did
when I ask
for things less than Your Greatness. 
Move the mountains
that tries to blind them from Your future
and the future of their children given
that far exceeds any desire
we might carry of our own flesh. 
Oh to hear they bring You Pleasure
as they have brought me. 
Thank You
for escorting me through the caring of such treasures. 
I know Your Eyes are in constant watch
and I see Your Favor upon them
as they grow in Your Wisdom
and find the favor of men
as their lives become closer and closer
lined up with Your Walk Designed for them. 
In humility I have this confidence
because
I cannot credit these treasures
as my work
but simply because
Your Work is/was/and forever will be
done through Christ who Dwells within us. 
Cause Your Love to be
Abundant in them,
just as Your Son’s work was accomplished
let my sons Work Through You
be done
with the Tremendous Power
of Jesus Blood
over their numbered days,
held Tight by the Sweet Holy Spirit.
I remain in Your Arms
and bring my children
in Jesus Christ’s Holy Name.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Love Capacity

I am after You, my Lord today, I am after You now. 

Oh what joy to search my heart to love You.  To go deep and find it full of emotions and smiles of delight.   Love that carries me from moment to moment in a different atmosphere of Spirit.  Finding You there and so Excited to find me searching.   You seem so Pleased to return Your Sight towards me as You move my heart to a larger capacity to hold Your Love so enormous. 

I accept the enlargements as I consume what You have to Give.  I weep as I encounter it touching my heart.  I am humbled as I find it so over the top of my own love to return.

I have given birth to three beautiful boys and each time I wondered… oh how I wondered… how would I find room to add love to my heart for each.  How can I add to what I have for this first child, for this second child...But what a marvelous explosion to my soul as each child seemed to not only add their life love to me but to add multiple love lives to my heart.  How I stand in awe of its addition to the abundant capacity to hold and experience past my expectations. 


Now I find the pleasures of my sons' loves and children.  Multiplied by 100 by each one to my heart to love and cherish. 

How this must be something like You feel as we come into Your Kingdom with our love to return to You.  Filling You with such Joy as one by one a child comes to the Feet and surrenders to Your Son as the Only One to Follow..!

Accepting us and Adopting us to Your Kingdom and multiplying Your sons and daughters to love with more love beyond what visual or hearts could know.  Oh how Beautiful and Awesome to be Yours.  Your daughter, the one you love. 

As You Ask but one thing from me… simply "Follow" You.  Oh how wonderful it has been to follow You this past year.  For I have been so void of answers and knowledge but to follow You has been the pleasure of my heart.  Adding, adding, and adding to my love capacity like a child born in my arms.  Worth it all!  Worth everything You place before me to find You.  Worth opening my heart to all that is set for me as I follow You, the answer to all things. 

To follow You to the end of time.  I seek after You today.  I seek after You now.  To follow, to go; enlarge my heart with love, my God, as I follow. 

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Awaken By His Love

What a Special morning after Christmas as I am awaken
with an extra satisfaction in my heart that
amazed me
and caused me to ponder its soft
and refreshing increase of affections. 
You know how mushy you feel when you received what
you wanted for Christmas or your birthday…
something that satisfies your heart in great measure
 and it carries an extra ump to it.
This is as close as I can come
to explaining my heart
as songs of worship
explored words of praise from my heart
 and stirred me awake
 out of my calm deep sleep this morning. 
Amazing yes,
always,
as I slowly become conscience
 of the morning hour nudging me of its arrival;
speaking to me as I sense the vibrating
of songs happening inside me
and the Joy it offers me of Comfort
while the waves of its Messages make melody
all through my being of the One I love
and who Loves me deeply. 
The Sounds slowly penetrate my consciousness
with its tender kisses until I respond. 
So pleasing and rich to my soul
as my spirit is lifted! 
I understand in part
that this One finds pleasure in my praise
but reluctantly I must admit
I worship at times with almost a non-connected mind.  
Like entering a store and absent mindedly begin singing
the song playing while I shopped. 
But this morning there is a beautiful awareness of connection
 as a love affair is tied
and accepted in my mind, heart and soul,
with He who walked
the same earth I now find my days numbered in,
so, so, long ago. 
A Love that gives pleasure to both I and He
and causes the little girl in me to jump out of bed
with giggles! 
 Worship to honor generated from
true feelings
towards the One who has won my affection
and such Good towards me.
One who has awaked my eyes of love
to desire a playful reunion
after the slumber of a fulfilled night’s sleep;
excited for the day as the heart of my passion
runs for the search of which fun thing to do first?
A heart so completed and full;
choices so many,
oh where do I start? 
What a wonderful play-date He is,
this One who has knocked upon the door
of my awakened heart this morning. 
A firm foundation of Love
poured upon my thoughts,
causing the voice of my inward treasures
to expose its face with the words of my song to Him. 
My countenance speaks the loudest
of its fulfilled joy. 
Nothing within me has the strength to remain silent. 
All my emotions explode
as my arms reach to accept the call of His Dance. 
Carry me
in this abundance and power of its existence! 
I must begin the process
of shedding the weight of such Love
as it leaves its tracks where my feet walk. 
My body overly filled with this Substance
spilling in order to continue moving. 
I must hold hands,
speak with a smile,
give my ears to the sounds of all the beauty around me. 
The simple becomes brilliant
 and the complicated becomes simple. 
Heaven comes to earth
and torment has passed far from me. 
My eyes begin to wonder around
to soak up all the satisfaction of this Lightness
as the weight of weariness drops its hold. 
The sounds of this day
become the background for my song to He who I love. 

And there it is… I hear His Name again
…Jesus…  
I say and hear it with a smile
as Love boils inside me with this Heat of Passion. 
Over and over and over
I listen with Passion
of this love and soak in all His Name holds
for it carries
millions and millions of stories and pleasures. 
So many experienced
and so many more to explore! 
My heart beats more excitedly
as my entire attention has been captured. 
The Passion I ran to
has encircled the room I occupy
and its silence consumes all my hearing. 
With all creation, the earth and the skies,
I join in declaring it is He who I give praise
and my own heart of devotion. 
The air that fills the atmosphere
holds His Presence with this silent Power.
My love knows only to return to this Source
that first awakened me
this Christmas day after
 and express my affections
as I walk in its Life giving
constant
availability. 
I know only to enjoy…
only to accept His Touch
to my heart
and sing back my love. 
I love His Goodness and hold it dear today.