Dancing with my heart, my words, my song, and my love, before my God…

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who
LOVE YOUR NAME may rejoice in you. Psalms 5:11

Thursday, January 27, 2011

In Fear I Come Before Him

God, You who Whispers and the earth hears, You who Watches and the earth is under Command, You who Spreads the skies with Your Glory for the earth to ponder.  I bow my heart and give, surrendering to what is Almighty and who Created lightening, what my mind comprehends as unsearchable powerful, but is more Powerful than a million bolts its strike could produce.  I am in awe of Your Thunder this morning as I respect with eyes low Your Voice and yet find Tracks before me to follow to come close.   I fear yet follow.  I step closer but wobble in strength.  There is a Place, Your Place, that Wakes me to so many of the real Life journeys my heart cries for.  The world looks so different from Your Place that when I fall back into my own self centeredness I can’t help but find myself wanting to run and begin a process of self cleansing and then I get caught in its trap of continuance because it doesn’t work.   I want Your Work in my life and yet it comes and I tremble.  I ask to drink from the Cup of Your Life Giving Flow and I crumble as Your Burn sets my heart in Flames.  I am weak, so very weak and need the Waters of Sanctification to Soak into my skin so that the Name of Jesus (His Worth) shows and draws all hearts to the Throne of Grace where we find Your Strength to eat of Your daily Bread.  Oh God, The God, who gave Your Son to Swallow my sin with Grace, how do I come?  How do I plead?  How do I stand under such Wonders?  How, Mighty Spirit of Fellowship, do I stay at this alter and live?   It Consumes and Takes Down the construction I built to fight with; it Forces the sand under my feet to move and I fall; it Pierces my ears with Sounds I am unfamiliar with; it weakens every muscle of my soul… I will be destroyed and die and I am scared…!  But I am Wooed by a Source that Warms my heart and Assures New Life in return.  I want to run but I seem to crawl.  I want to jump but I seem to only fall.  God, with all Greatness and Power, I know only to ask; to ask Your pardon and that Your Strength continue to Embrace my weaknesses so that daily I am brought to This Place, Your Place of Mercy and Love.  I fear but You are Safe… I tremble but You are Righteous… I fall but You are Mighty… I come by the Help of Your Hand…!