Dancing with my heart, my words, my song, and my love, before my God…

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who
LOVE YOUR NAME may rejoice in you. Psalms 5:11

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Gift To Me From God No $$ Can Buy

A Gift To Me From God No $$ Can Buy
Delivered Through My Sister, Roberta

My heart is singing today for you!  I am seeing someone who is mighty in the land and yet doesn't know it yet!  Oh how I love you, Sister!!  Yes, I am crying WITH you.  My heart is breaking WITH you.  I feel like the burden you carry is partly on my shoulders.  I'm not complaining though, because it is God's love that pours in me, to pour out of me. 

My Sister's Prayer

Father, Our God who carries us through these times; Your mighty works You do are being manifested in us on a continual basis.  Those who know us and hear us cannot possibly NOT understand that it is You who lives and breathes through US!  Oh how marvelous are Your ways!!  We are humbled before You today, as we see Your handiwork among us.  Today is the day You work.  Today is the day of rejoicing.  Just because You are the Master of today!  Strength, courage, vigor, force...they are in our hand, in our footsteps, in our hearts.  Doom, gloom, despair and agony are me are the words to a song that I WILL NOT SING!!!!  For WHO holds me, none other than the Author of the stars!!!  Every single star is singing praise to You because THEY know what I don't... just who holds THEIR tomorrow!!  THEY know that if their last shine was tonight, and they fall to their place of destiny tonight, that they will be richly rewarded for their obedience to The Almighty!  Even the stars are rewarded!!! Yes Lord, You have not left one rock, one blade of grass unrewarded for their obedience to You!  Yet YOU created US in YOUR image, so that WE could sing out the songs of praise to You alone!!  So we could REFLECT an image of YOU!!!  How can we who are constantly struggling reflect One who NEVER struggles???  Yet we do just that, because in it all, the more we fall, the Higher Your Majesty appears!  Like all who fall on their faces so the Queen will be the only one standing!  Oh yes, today is Your day.  Yesterday was Your day.  Tomorrow is Your day.  And how we rejoice to know that they are not ours!!!!  We would struggle in them on our own.  But in You we rejoice in them!!!  What do YOU, the One in whom EVERYTHING points to, have for us individually JUST today???  Oh my, we can only assume to know!!!!!!!!!!!  I am anticipating the newness I will see.  I am excited to be near You.  I am saying, let me be ANYWHERE, but let it be WITH YOU!!!  Oh I count my days as one more reason to rejoice!  One more reason.  I have so many!  But You alone, ONLY YOU, are MY reason to sing!!!!  I don't sing for the relationships of this world.  They are pleasures, but in You, they pale so shallow!!  The fog between You and them is thick because You are so vivid, You are so ... faultless.  Let today be ORDERED by You.  I am Yours... order my day and DEMAND that nothing gets in the way of it's perfection!!!  Let it be as a plate of perfect pancakes from the most perfect place!  Send it back if it is not perfect as YOU expect!!  For my day is Yours.  I've given today to You, because You own it.  As I sit or stand, or kneel or walk, or run or leap or fall..... take my hand in Yours and let us dance it TOGETHER.  Seek my heart for hidden treasures today, that YOU TOO will be rejoicing in ME!!  Let me give back some of what You give to me!  Oh how I hope to please You!  My love overflows towards You!  I don't want to move from Your presence.  But today is Yours, so I move as You will it.  One foot before the other, I move, as though moving TOWARDS You!  If I see my day as moving TOWARDS You, then I will not dread my day.  I will not refuse to walk.  I will not go with my head down or my heart anything but full of the Love that You placed there for You.  Father, take my sister's hand today and as she is reminded of where she is, all the dreams and hopes that have been crushed and powdered and are only bits and fragments of what might have been had her plan worked, open up her eyes to see that NOW You, The Master architect, can perform the greatest masterpiece that You set out to make in HER!  Oh God, You are not busy giving MAN favor so that MAN can run around being praised!  You are busy giving MAN favor so that MAN will SEE YOU in the handiwork of Your fingers!  Wow, I see that clay being formed and each of us has so much to give back!  Look at the Potter's work!  Look at the Architect's work!!!  Isn't it amazing?  Isn't it awesome?  Isn't it beyond imagination??!!  Oh how much bigger it is than what our barely open eyes see!!!  Rub our eyes to enlarge them today so that as this day goes forth, we see something brand new we've never seen before... a new part of You.  Knowing in part is scary, Father.  It's a really scary place to be.  GROW us UP.  Let all our armor be in place and ready for THIS battle!  And Father, as a sister, I ask this favor of You because I know You have been very busy doing favors for me... Will You love my sister today like I can't?  Will You take ALL that You have given me to give to her, and ADD to THAT and give her what I can't?  I know that You will.  I have no doubt that You will.  I've seen You do this for me before, without my even asking!  But today, as You are especially fond of THIS one, let Your work be mighty in her and Your love be even more REVEALED.  I realize You can't love her any more than You already do.  You love her enough to die.  I don't.  But You do.  Change ME to love her that much too!!!  Remove my blinders of self-love and replace it with sacrificial love as You know so well how to do.  I know, I know, I realize that  Lord, it means I will suffer as You have suffered.  So be it.  If it will change me to see YOU better, then I am willing, even waiting!!!!  For THIS earth, as beautiful and great as it is, has such a paleness to it when I consider You.  It's colors have a film over them.  Yours are so vivid and real!  I want to pray for my sister, but I keep coming back to praising You instead!  This is how the colors of this world pale in comparison to You.  Let our day today reflect ALL it is meant to be.  And then let us be satisfied that it was.     In Jesus Holy and Precious name, Thy Son, My Brother.  Amen.

I am loved beyond my imagination...!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I Live In His Eye

Father, my Poppa,
I must smile,
Sweet Jesus and Teacher Spirit.

I smile with the Knowing
I am unbelievably within a Force
that must be fighting my battles. 
For I have no strength,
yet Peace keeps Crying
I am Safe.

I stand upon Your Mountain
and my smile seems to consume
my whole being,
but only because I met You this morning. 

I’m out of that boat,
the waves are extremely high and crazy,
the wind is blowing in circles,
but I’m living
Oh, I'm Living .... in Your Eyes…!

I’m living in Your Focus, YOUR EYE.  

Living in the Center
of the Eye of God
and so calm I can only marvel.  

Listening to Heaven’s Sounds and Songs,
not my own confusing wingding’s
that make nothing readable
without His Code for Interpretation,
His Mighty Spirit. 

And here…
here in Your Mountain,
I find a Map,
Directions that give Steps. 

Steps that Shelter
and Harness the heart
as the greatest Treasure within the Eye. 

No wonder we all want
to live in the Mountain of our God.  

I know the storm is about me,
I know the wind screams
‘be afraid’;

but Safe,
oh how Sweet Safe feels
to the soul surrendered to only Walk,
not run,
on the Water during the storms. 

oh Trusting with Faith
that has built to become Knowledge

I’ve heard the stories
of the ‘eye of the storm’. 
Documentations are had
of the wonders...

feel how it felt to be there. 

And here I am…
for eternity…
Documented in the Book of Life
to Live in the Eye of God. 

What an enormous
supernatural Carriage
this is. 

The Float of my soul
that mystifies and confuses
 and blocks the storms
so the walls of hell cannot trespass. 

This must surely be what Heaven is. 

It MUST BE… it must be. 

For there is no traps,
no lies,
no death,
no worries…

For who can trap God’s Eye,
who can lie to the Eye of God,
who can empower
and kill this Place - the Eye of God?

Who can cause God to worry?  

This is amazing..!
This must be what the Kingdom of Heaven is. 
It must be..!   

Father, my Poppa,
I must smile,
Sweet Jesus and Teacher Spirit.
I Live in Your Eye...!

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Love Creates Pictures

Oh how can I stop Time
as This Song Carries in my hearing? 

How can I stop the sun
so that I live in this Explosion
that has ruptured the walls I build
that keep me from His Melodies? 

Sing, Holy One... Sing as I dance
with steps I take
to play in Love's Vastness.

I love, oh I love as Love Pours.
Love Creates Pictures
as the Fountain of Love
Sings to my soul.

Stepping from one moment to the next
with much too much traffic
between my heart's union to His.
I get lost in traffic’s distractions
 forget the Music still remains and Sings over me. 

A Picture begins to Form.

 I have seen the stars twinkle in the darkest of nights
and imagined the stretch of such distance and beauty
to only be the beginning
of His Portrait of Enormous Love. 

So much to chase and explore behind this small window! 

Stars that shine in darkness
but cease their twinkle when the light comes out,
remaining in wait, in place,
for their moment again to talk to my eyes as I walk in darkness. 

For in darkness I dare speak inner thoughts
I hide from Light,
seeking Loves Truth,
wondering and stumbling to find my heart again. 

In darkness, mysterious Twinkles
overwhelm my senses
as my eyes
stare at this mass of Love Displayed. 

Then I Watch the Morning Hour
as they Continue in their Position
while the sun fades the knowledge of their existence;
waiting their Plan to Shine
for me again
in my darkness of traffic.

  I am intrigued with His Love within my eyes,
His Heart within my own,
His Song that Sings. 

Does He Twinkle and Shine when the darkness rolls in over my soul? 

Does His Majestic Beauty
show the Billions of His Twinkling Light
 Filling my image while in my own darkness? 

Does He show such vastness one would wonder if there was an end?   

 I won't be afriad
Day or Night...
His Twinkle, His Pure Bright Light Shining...
the Son Rising,
Staying His Place in both moments;

Shining in my darkness as well as my day.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Deepest Of Love's Wait

Here in the Wonders of God’s Love
and with such Love Abounding,
the heart Floats with His Kindness…

yet feeling the pains of worldly jabs
and words that tear at the soul,

I still praise my Lord. 

Oh yes, my soul lifts His Name,
praise of His Goodness
to the One that Pulls me out of darkness
and causes me to rise above
all the cares that want to leave me in shame
and troubles I know not what to do. 

I am going into the deepest of Love’s Wait
as I focus on where He leads me
beside the Still Waters
where I am Calmed by the Songs that He Sings
around my heart,
to Wrap it in His Sweetness.

Here in the Hands of Might I lay my tears
as I shed each one with a huge pain speaking. 

Every tear
that escapes my eyes
have His Attention.

He Hears each one


 as a report of High Importance,
ready to put Action upon the Scene. 

My heart makes melodies of so many styles called emotions. 
Sometimes dancing with giggles
and sometimes dancing in tears of pain. 

But Sitting as the Highest,
He has Open Arms,
it doesn’t seem to matter how I come,
He Smiles with Welcome
as I walk up to His Face Looking at me. 

For I have come to One Bigger than my heart,
bigger than my fears. 

One that has the answers to the rolling thunders of the sky,
has my life written upon the Palm of His Hands. 

I agree with His Love
as I witness His Eyes view me as Precious
while I surrender to His Passion over me. 

He Inhabits my praise
as I melt to all His Love Given. 

Oh yes, I Praise Him who placed His Song within me. 

I am not bound or held
to be a certain tune
before saying His Name. 

I was purchased by Blood
that came from nails piercing
to prove this Message of Love. 

 I Sing His Name just as I am. 

I fall in love with Love who has Moved me. 

Tears or dancing,
I praise the God who Holds my heart with Kindness.

I am going into the deepest of Love’s Wait

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Failures, Please Don't Show Me

I want to SHOUT… I want to SCREEEAAAAAMMMMMMM..!!!!!  Oh GOD, THE GOD…. THE MERCIFUL GOD OF ALL THE EARTH…!!!!!  LET THE EYES OF OUR HEART BE TURNED TOWARDS YOU and NOT our own love affairs..!!!!  Place us before The Judge so that we see our self which will open our understanding to FALL; FALL FACE DOWN as the Crown of Your Glory takes hold and we find NO ROPE to swing the opposite direction.  It is the Experience that the soul fights against with all that is within but Spirit does not Give In. Spirit of Revelation Wraps His Ribbons of Safety around the heart so that the Wonders of Father’s Purposes can be quickly Down Loaded as this Amazing Direction comes; and the Giant of Friendship Gives you this Power you know is coming from some where inside, but from a Source you did not know yesterday. 

It is sooooo much easier to follow what feels right, follow what sounds right… follow the head that says, ‘but we have always done it this way.’  Oh God, Father, Taker of my eyes, my heart, my soul, all that I am I surrender to the nothing that I know… the nothing that is clear except that my surrender is in You, for You.  I have so much pride in my knowledge and feel I would die in hell if I were to surrender to abandon all and completely follow You.  I, like my sister has said, find it extremely difficulty to think I will be served by the Master… oh how could I… not I… I would never be so crude to have a Master serve me, I am so prideful. 

Oh the humility of seeing one self.  The sweat that feels like blood or like your insides coming out.  There are no words to describe the Mirror of Your Righteousness upon our souls… to be at the bottom of all lists of filth and have Father pick me up and Clean off the dirt as Arms of Love Pierce through all my fears as I am forced to see the failure, Oh GODDDD the failure…. I want to do anything but see the failure. 

Please don’t make me see my failure…! 

If I see my failure I cannot go on.  I can not live.   I hate seeing my failure.  I lose grip with my strength that tells me I must have.  I lose the war inside that protects me and keeps me in my sin and tells me it is my righteousness. 

OH GODDDDDD… I can’t see my failures. 

It will destroy who I am.  It will take me to hell's doors and I will fall in somehow.  I will be captured by the guilt and I will not stand against its nasty grip.  If I just lay in it and feel good about myself, I can be strong, I can say ‘oh, it doesn’t really matter’ or worst….. ‘I’m not really wrong’ …. I can tell myself all sorts of things that will make me believe in lies.  But surrender??? OH GOD….. SURRENDER????  And DIE????  To HONESTY…!???  I will die and go to hell. 


My Redeemer, my Jesus – You know, don’t You.  You know how I feel, don’t You.  Jesus, Your Words Hug me and Encourage me while I’m awake and when I sleep.  You aren’t easy on me, that’s for sure, but You are Solid and Stern, to the point of such Strength that I want to run, but You Know that, don’t You.  But Your Friendship is that You will Share Life with me and not run from me just because I can’t or don’t want to hear what You have to say.  You just keep on keeping on and Encouraging me to do the same. 

Thank You for Praying for me.  Thank You for showing me You were not a follower of this world and was so hated by those who wanted religion and/or their own love affairs, not Joining the Union of the Trinity You were Giving Invitation to.  Thank You for Showing me how God Sees me.  How He so Carefully and Wonderfully made me for His Pleasure.  How He Sent You for the Purpose of Offering Your Self so that I would be in this Unity.  Thank You for Completing the Destiny God Gave You. 

Thank You Spirit for Safely Blowing the Work in and around my life so that I ‘feel’ my God as Friendship, and Love and Power Touches my heart as I learn to Joyfully count it a pleasure to be a part of all this eternal Home has, as I unite with all the body of Christ’s. 

Jesus, I Climb inside Your Name this morning as I have repented with my sister of my weakness… I dared to see myself again and find my heart Carried High and Rocked back and forth with Your Song Singing over me as I surrendered.  Jesus, I cry on Your Shoulder as I tell you my pain and sorrowful weaknesses, and I Hear the Loud Sounds of Eyes of Passion Guiding me to Father’s Love. 

How can Eyes make such Loud Sounds…. Oh they can.  It is like Words that cannot be spoken for this is much deeper than words, this is Truth and Foundations for the rest of my life.   Eyes, oh Jesus, Your Eyes Pierce my heart and Reaches the rivers of pain and confusion I swallowed and accepted as truth but were just crumbling rocks I grabbed in trying to survive. 

I weep now, oh yeah, I weep because now my eyes are talking to Your Eyes. 

We have met and a New Language called communication happens that brings in the curiosity of angels as they work Your Love to see such Love between human and God.   

Love Walks on the earth as my feet surrender to the Good News.  No wonder the feet of those who carry Good News is so beautiful.  It carry’s Life Given, not life imagined or supposed.  I see You Jesus, I see Your Eyes upon me and I see Your Hand reaching to mine, to support me as I cry.  I hear Your Whispers as You Touch against my ear with Your Lips to tell me Father is Proud of me right now.  I feel the Arms that have wrapped around my chest and rocking me as I cry.  I am heard, I am tended to. 

I am softly patted as Spirit Shows the Personalities of the Trinity to my own eyes.   I know only to sob as I am so dirty and yet You have no fear of my dirt or what You could catch from me.  You only want to Touch me in my leprous state so You can Wipe each sore with Your Answers so I will be Whole and Dance with You as Your Love Abounds. 

Thank You so much Father. Thank You so much Spirit.  And Jesus, I hardly know what to say.  I want to be Friends forever.  I want to know more and I want to come often to this Place.  A Place where I am no longer afraid nor crippled with garbage words I’ve heard from someone or see in someone that I think might be of interest to You.  I will come as called… NOW… exactly as I am.  The way You Called Your Beloved disciples…. ‘Come, Follow Me…’  This is what I want to do moment by moment…. COME FOLLOW YOU.  Asking questions because I’m curious and deeply want to hear You.  Not afraid I will disappoint you with these questions, but honest – where I’m at so that when it comes to the Right…. You can say… ahhh haaaa…. You NOW HAVE IT.!!! 

Oh Jesus… I love You so much.  Thank You for Showing me Father and Leaving the Gift of Spirit.  I am so excited for more.  I kiss Your Lips as Friendship EXPLODES…!!!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Cherished One

Poppa, Jesus, Holy Spirit,
I am so excited about my heart’s Union,
the Dance of togetherness,
with Real
and not things seen as real by my fears,
my disappointments,
my struggles, my own understanding. 

Oh how LONG it feels since the last moment I felt Your Touch. 
If it was but only seconds ago…
its been too long. 

Your Knowledge of my needs
Take me to Heights I need no fear of. 

Your Love is of such Extreme
that Your Work and Love will Accomplish
ALL You have Set out to Do in me. 

I am excited about Living within Your Immediate
and not Your later(s) or past.  

I am not afraid, I found Strength and the Unity is unbreakable. 

Oh, I am a Cherished one… Loved by the Creator of my heart.