Dancing with my heart, my words, my song, and my love, before my God…

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who
LOVE YOUR NAME may rejoice in you. Psalms 5:11

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Whispers Like A Fragrance Slowly Moving Into A Room

Father, You are my everything; my energy, my power, my heart, my friend…
All my time,
my very breath belongs to You
for I want to be so close to You that my thoughts are Yours without division.

How captivated I have grown from
each moment Your Love Touches my heart,
and how I want more.

I groan with hopes
for I have untangled my needs from wants
and found fresh Paths that carry me
like a swift running river to each Gift of Your Supply so satisfying. 

My eyes lower but my heart rises to catch a Glimpse. 
I groan with passion;
intense craze inside my heart
is a pulse that beats violently for my Place near You. 

My heart weeps as it knows little other emotions
that release the attraction it has to Your Magnetism.  

Your Tender Greatness has my interest
and I must investigate all avenues
of such Frolicsome Thoughtfulness.

There where I find Your Love
Pouring upon me Carelessly
to Nurture the awareness and curiosity of Your Knock upon my heart. 

Your Fondness for me is mesmerizing
and I want to somehow keep it
as an ornament or keepsake,
to cherish like a prize of great value. 

has me placing it in top priority
of my life, daily! 

I rest in Love’s Arms,
as the Benefit is hearing
Your Whispers
like a Fragrance slowly moving into a room
to touch the knowledge of all who populate the area. 

Not in a hurry,
oh no,
and not of demand that one catch the scent all at once;
but that it stays until it has penetrated all space
for the enjoyment of those in reach. 

One Whiff of its Beauty and comments begin to articulate as a Song develops of Your Presence so Divine. Each comment forms a Note of Praise and together this Song Rises to Heaven’s Portals for the Pleasure of Your Love seen and heard over Your Kingdom. 

I want, oh, I want to know more
of this Love
even if imperfectly
or in my deficient waywardly failures
I come,
I want to be close to You so that my thoughts are Yours. 

Disappointments do not come from You,
as You Set Your Eyes upon me,
so I can end all panic
and recklessly pioneer
my way to this Kingdom of Love’s Presence. 

You are greater than my catastrophes of collapse
and can take even the throbs of hurt
and make Recreation from it. 

For when Your Son Conquered all things
by His Perfectness,
He brought me along side Him
as He Sat beside You for eternity’s Reign. 

Now I immobilize fears of the g-o-d
I created
and become acquainted with the True God
that Considered my life of such worth that He Sent His Son
to Catch me away to His Dwelling Love. 

I groan inwardly to know more,
I will follow hard after Your Love. 
Listening for the
Whispers that move slowly into the room
and Touches my senses with its Scent of Love's Glory.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Knowledge Of Need

Today I am rejoicing in such a Mighty God that has the stability of Always..! 
He is ALWAYS.  An Absolute. 

I am unstable but have learned to be fearless in taking my brokenness to His Love to Heal.  I found this broken prayer that I wrote March 3 of this year.  What a hand full I must surely be.  Many times, the most needed times to call out to God is the hardest. 

Father, I just want to say thank You for pulling me out of my despair time and time again. 

 Knowledge of Need...
What happens when the sun sets on your heart? 
The darkness of your soul comes out as you walk the road that sees no end. 
You run awhile,
you make noises,
in hope someone might surely hear. 

God has brought you to meet yourself and the image reflects your fears. 

I am at this place, knowing I am walking,
walking with His Love takes me to His Face so Powerful
but oh how difficult when flesh gets smashed and crushed by the Knowledge of His Word. 

Today I lift my voice in praise after His Precious Spirit
makes Repair and Builds back the Work of God’s Faithfulness. 

I found a hole in my heart
and out came pouring the tumbling of brokenness and despair

Knowledge of Who God is takes me to
visualize a Place I am not
and sets my heart aflame. 

His Word made flesh so long ago still Walks with me through the day’s journey while I wonder in His Love Portals as Truth Knocks at my heart for the changes that will take me to the side of
Joy Unspeakable. 

 I find a Strength that I knew not was there until I knew my weakness. 

Spilling out the pain of what crushes around me,
I found the Gathering of heavens looking on to see the outcome of one so drawn into the burden of sin and instability. 

For I was taken to the Cross and found guilty
by the Word of Weight so Pure;
I was drawn to the Hill where Footprints had been left. 

 I was Judged and found in want. 
I am that one, the one who hammered the nail

I am the one who tricked Him and demanded He give me answers. 
I stoned His Word in my heart for the pain it brought. 
I am the one, one who hammered the nail of death. 

I was Ordered before His Word and saw His Spirit Alive and I trembled as I cried. 
I wept with a tortured heart as I sent out begs of Mercy. 
My song was of stain from sin’s cloak. 

Oh, what shame, with the world at my fingertips and the pleasures of taste at my call, I satisfied my flesh. 

I am the one, the one who hammered the nail.

In much sorrow I lament.  In hindsight I see His Righteousness. 
I am Wooed into His Arms as Wisdom encircles the Skills of His Life for me.

An Invitation is Written as I watch. 
A Party is in the Making. 
A Spread of Glorious Clothing is Laid Out for me and its fit has been Ordered in my size. 

A Curtain is Opened and I am Directed to Wash in His Blood. 

He forgives me and opens my eyes to see that though I am fallen,
He has Risen and He bids me to Come Join His Celebration;
be His spotless bride
as I surrender to His Change. 

 I am lost but He has the Way and repentance of sin is the Doorway to His Heart.
The Word of Salvation came to Open its Light. 
I am Found by the Spirit of Faithful Watching. 
His Watching…!

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Kissing My Thoughts To Stay Near

Here I am,
anxious with excitement for how I have missed You Father.  

A day can seem so long to wait for our time like this, You and I, to run away in Your Love.  Run and not stop for as long as time allows me to run.  You, with me, by my side, to all the Places that are like steps to a Kingdom so built out of my realm of finding!  Hidden in Love’s Embrace and only touched by abandonment of heart. 

 I’ve wondered, someday will I be Caught in such a Love as this and be transformed to Life in such?  Will heaven be this magnified?  How will Life in the beyond be more? 
 Just wondering (?) 

I am finding such an adventure and yet
Mercy is Wrapped so tight about me
that I can wonder about in Love that Pardons before I fall. 

You, Father, so Strong and Complete;
and I, so frail with much to learn and experience. 
You with all Knowledge; and I so limited. 

Tears escape my heart as I can’t understand but know only to let go and dare my attempt to fly, knowing Your Wings will catch me. 

You, who hear the sounds of my secret prayers, take all of them- to the memory of forever - with the Pouring of Goodness upon each one.  Faithfully my cry reveals Your Work when I stop to seek and the song my life utters lifts its Music when dancing Your Expressions found. 

Love, Your Love slowly Touches my hand and the Warmth begins its Astonishing Power.
From the Touch of Your Hand I feel the Eyes of Your Heart so Gentle. 

aware Love is Reaching deep with Passion
as You Understand every good and bad thought I have;
and yet,
Your Arms Come Tightly around me to Bring me Close for a Hug so needed. 
Kissing my thoughts with Promise to stay near. 

 I wait in silence as I soak in such an Oath. 

My thoughts go beyond myself and my heart breaks for those I love. I raise my hurt for a grandson, a granddaughter, a child; and You Give me Remembrance of Your Faithfulness to me. 
You Flash through the memories of my life to Show Reasons to Trust them in Your Hands. 
My heart cries once again.   I know I struggle to be yielding myself but You still call me Your own.  Lost in Your Love as You Continue with Limitlessness.  

 I hear You, oh Papa, I hear You and I rejoice, for You have not just Carried me to this Place but also Gone to the Same Length for my children and their children. 

If I know Your Love for me, I will Know Your Love for them. 

Tonight they are Carried and Hugged as You Kiss their hearts with Your Love. 
I love walking with You, my God, for it is an adventure that is endless.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Not Knowing All The Why's Of Your Love

Papa God,
One that Gives me the Safety to all my days. 

Knowing You have Placed me a top all tensions that knock for my attention,
and Kiss my heart
with Promise to always Live there,
always be inside, right in the middle with Your Affections. 

I often wonder what it would really be like
I had no reservations to that Truth. 
I actually walked according to the Knowledge
of what You are Spending all of my days
helping me understand such Amazing Love. 

The Delight
is that I can expect each day,
each moment will Carry me closer
to that very Knowledge of Love so Outrageous. 

So today,
I am going to especially look forward to this Deeper Place,
as I want all Your Ways to be mine. 

 I’ve never known a Love like this
so I want to thank You
that Your Love is Persistent to Draw me close
and is the very Air that
my children
also wake to this morning. 

I love Your Love. 

Not knowing all the ‘why’s’ of Your Love
does not stop You
from the Wondrous Grace and Mercy of Love’s Work
in my heart and my children’s …

Not knowing ‘why’ You are in Constant Thought
over us
does not block the Reality of our days
are Blessed with this Protection. 

Kindness without failure
is very complicated to discern
but what we are becoming acquainted with
by existing as Your children. 

For I look at a situation
of rights or wrongs
according to a broken knowledge of compassion;
but You See
 the Total Work You are Doing
to Pave a Way for eternal Love from Pure Passion. 

I love Your Love in me…!

Thank You Papa, for Dwelling in me and my children...! 

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Forbidden Apples Eaten At A Moment

Psalms 139:1~12 (The Message)
God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand.
   I'm an open book to you;
      even from a distance, you know what I'm thinking.
   You know when I leave and when I get back;
      I'm never out of your sight.
   You know everything I'm going to say
      before I start the first sentence.
If I flew on morning's wings
      to the far western horizon,
   You'd find me in a minute—
      you're already there waiting!
   Then I said to myself, "Oh, he even sees me in the dark!
      At night I'm immersed in the light!"
   It's a fact: darkness isn't dark to you;
      night and day, darkness and light, they're all the same to you.

My God where do I take my thoughts when I become aware of Your Hearing so Involved with me?  How do I gather them and correct them after they have been spilled within my heart. 

Oh God, my first reaction is to flee… to run for I am covered with the painful exposure of forbidden apples eaten at a moment where I felt I would know more, I could be more, I could have more.   No one will know, only be amazed at the results it will bring me. 

Doing what I should not, saying what I am forbidden.  Stumbling to win a fight I start.   My emotions exploding at will, whatever it wants to play.  I am an instrument Carved and Set for Your Service and yet I often amuse my self with wrong notes screeching across the Ears of Your Heart.  In darkness I play as if Your Eyes have no Sight.  I weep this morning for I am foolish.  I can only boost of engaging in folly.  Performances of deadly comedy to my soul, I am distraught with regret. 

(Verse 24)
…See for yourself whether I've done anything wrong - then guide me on the road to eternal life.

I cry out… oh God… I CRY OUT… GUIDE ME… SHOW ME… Guide me to Your Heart so Pure and Wonders of Your Love and Pardon.   I want to Hear Your Guidance so Fine Tuned that I stay on Key and when I hit the wrong notes, I immediately Focus until I have it Right.  Hearing and Listening so that I Sound the Right Cords in the Orchestra of Your Glory.  For I only want to Reflect Your Song, not mine. 

I see Your Life within me and I too often take advantage of its Freedoms. 

My God, My Amazing Unmatched God, I fall to the back, I take the back seat not to gain ground but to applaud Your Heart so Measureless.   Guide me on this Road to eternal Life, Your Life that Lives and Dwells within me. Adjust my thoughts, for You Know what I’m going to say before I say it.  For night is not dark in Your Kingdom, and to walk daily in Your Kingdom is what I seek.  I will not run away but I will run to Your Help for Guidance so Pure.  I want my voice to be Your Voice and my song to be Your Song.  Thank You for Your Outrageous LOVE..!!!!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Holy Spirit Direct The Music Within My Words

Loving Amazing One in Three,

I am whirled about with so many thoughts
and yet
the phenomenon of Your Miraculous
‘Always the Same’
Sets my directions the Stable I need.   

Relentless Love
keeps You Placing my days in Focus of More. 

You Take my lost heart and
build a Temple in which You Dwell. 

Your Sweet Holy Spirit
Directing the Music within my words
to Dance in all my days by the Applause of all heaven and earth. 

I am gathering greater than gold or silver,
to present before You
my jubilant praise and adoration from the Temple of my being. 

Greater than gold or silver is each Piece of Trim Adorning my heart and soul. 
Changing old for New and ugly to Beautiful
as I declare…
You Reign, through Jesus Your Son,
You Reign! 

You are God of my life,
still Building within me
by the Knowledge of Jesus’ Walk,
who You are,
so that I can make a Joyful Noise
from within that Holds the Presence of Your Love. 

Oh Great Music Director,
Holy Spirit of Power and Might… like King David of old,
Instruct my heart
and I will place the Watch upon my heart
to give non stop worship with heaven’s angels declaring
Holy, Holy, Holy. 

Build the temple with Strong Walls that Guard
against the enemy’s attack. 

When the forces of evil come knocking,
I will use the Weapons of the Most High God
and plunder down the lies
to win the life and soul of the massager
he uses,
to Your Kingdom of Great Love.   

I take You seriously
for You Reign forever in Love.

I thirst and I come to the Only River,
Jesus Christ,
where Living Water of who You are
Spills out
and I am forever satisfied…!

Sweet Holy Spirit - always Direct the Music within my words to Dance in all my days by the applause of all heaven and earth.

I Chronicles 16:30-36 (The Message)
   God is serious business, take him seriously;
      he's put the earth in place and it's not moving.
   So let Heaven rejoice, let Earth be jubilant,
      and pass the word among the nations, "God reigns!" …   
...Give thanks to God - he is good
      and his love never quits.

John 7:37-39 (The Message)
  On the final and climactic day of the Feast,
Jesus took his stand.
He cried out,
"If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink.
Rivers of living water will brim
and spill out of the depths
of anyone who believes in me
this way,
just as the Scripture says."

Monday, May 23, 2011

Passion Has Crossed The Boarders Of Love's Edges

Reaching to the heavens, higher and with more enthusiasm, sure of His Knowledge as I lay aside my own understanding.  Purposing to hear what Takes me into the Passion of His uttermost Extremes. 

Assured that
Watching the Gathering of His Remarks
will make the changes I am longing for.  For His
Passion has Crossed the boarders of Love’s Edges
to Include me in the Astonishing Entangled Web of becoming one with Father, Son, and Spirit. 

Foundational Arrangements
have Sketched me into
the Kingdom of the Solid Rock. 

Full Truth is Constructing all the Pieces to Enter my darkness and Release my heart to See the Power of His Trinity so that it will Break down and Shatter all fragments of false deception I’ve accepted. 

For I am Liberated to Feast upon limitless, inexhaustible Resources of what His Love Offers.  I walk in dark shadows when attempting to love by my comprehension of its theme; but stepping into His unmerited Kindness I Hear the Unheard as His Face has a Voice to Reveal Pureness not made of inaccurate assumptions. 

Leaning into the Face of God,
destroys my own dark condemning heart,
whether it be mine I am condemning or my friends. 

I slip over to the Brightness of His Encouragements to be.  Be Brave, be Wild with Forgiveness and watch Repentance Flow. 

Take Courage as Your partner and Jump.  For the sobbing heart will make its entrance once it feels the Safety of Love’s Embrace. 

I am Engulfed in my Father’s Love. 
I Dance in His Fields of Grace…! 
His Passion has Crossed the boarders of Love’s Edges
to find me. 

I am His worth.  
I cry, I sob, for He Loves me too much. 

Ephesians 1:4-9 (The Amplified)

 4Even as (in His love) He chose us (actually picked us out for Himself as his own) in christ before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy (consecrated and set apart for Him) and blameless in His sight, even above reproach, before Him in love.
 5For He foreordained us (destined us, planned in love for us) to be adopted (revealed) as His own children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the purpose of His will [because it pleased Him and was His kind intent]--
    6[So that we might be] to the praise and the commendation of His glorious grace (favor and mercy), which He so freely bestowed on us in the Beloved.
    7In Him we have redemption (deliverance and salvation) through His blood, the remission (forgiveness) of our offenses (shortcomings and trespasses), in accordance with the riches and the generosity of His gracious favor,
    8Which He lavished upon us in every kind of wisdom and understanding (practical insight and prudence),
    9Making known to us the mystery (secret) of His will (of His plan, of His purpose). [And it is this:] In accordance with His good pleasure (His merciful intention) which He had previously purposed and set forth in Him,

Friday, May 20, 2011

Invaded By Your Irresistible Devotion

Wonderful Lord, I choose the word
today because it just feels so appropriate. 

Wonderful as in the gasp of air one takes, as a breathtaking sight or thought comes raiding my heart and suddenly a vision is caught and
a million words
can’t describe all the details.   

I’ve been Invaded by Your Irresistible Devotion and can only stare at its

Oh Wonderful Lord, I am crippled with the Spoiling of Your Commitment.  

Your Pledge to Abide and Loyalty to Watch over my life down to the seemingly insignificance of knowing the number of hairs upon my head.  This very Reflection of Your Steadfastness of Constant Gaze has me staggering in Your Matchless Love. 

I am still feasting upon this early morning’s Walk with You as You Guided me to see the stars and note that they are each placed very carefully by Your Handiwork.  The extension of such Beauty spreading far past what my eyes could see or understand.  Even as the instruments of great visual has given man new abilities to see Your Wonders, we still have only tapped into the beginnings of Your Work. 

The sky is but a fragment of much Depth You want us to see of who You are. 

Then I was shown the body of mankind. 
The individual body,
a single body,
so intricate and complication of design You Carefully Elaborated on to Involve a Complex Work upon earth
so You could Dwell within our thoughts to Further Expand the Palate of Your Wondrous Beauty.  

So Designed that to begin the study of its
Flamboyant Abilities set within by the Presence of Your Life,
I've really not began to know.
Like the sky so full of life and endlessness;
Your Exquisite Designs are far,
far from my comprehension or knowledge of
how to search to Your Level. 

So I ask, 
"The same Work of Infinite,
You say,
within me?" 

"The same Endowment Given,
by what Your Son’s Death did for me?" 

Existing within is the Inconceivable Handiwork of the Master Craftsman who Created every individual with more unreachable Knowledge than we could ever go! 

Undreamed Places Existing,
Unthinkable Spiritual Wonders,
Incredible Life not even imaginable to explore. 

Oh Wonderful Lord, who has Busied Him Self for me; You know I do not know how to say thank You but I do accept Your Gifts and I do enjoy them tremendously.  I will seek today’s Treasures as I listen for all Your Directions.  I will seek You for the Management of all the heart Jewels of God Value I can.  I will cherish Your Love and speak highly of it for it is the Path to all Righteousness.  I will search for the unseen and unknown of Your Love,
for each Piece I find will form me more like You. 

I will study, oh Wonderful Lord. 
I will study and shine like the stars of Your Love so Vast and Infinite. 

Place me like the stars so bright that shines Your Glory.  Place me in the Plan that is inestimable, immeasurable. 
Boundless is Your Love and Extreme is the Beauty You Display. 

I will look deep as You Guide me through Your Kingdom of everlasting Love.

For I’ve been
Invaded by Your Irresistible Devotion
and can only stare at its