Forbidden Apples Eaten At A Moment

Psalms 139:1~12 (The Message)

God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand.
   I'm an open book to you;
      even from a distance, you know what I'm thinking.
   You know when I leave and when I get back;
      I'm never out of your sight.
   You know everything I'm going to say
      before I start the first sentence.

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If I flew on morning's wings
      to the far western horizon,
   You'd find me in a minute—
      you're already there waiting!
   Then I said to myself, "Oh, he even sees me in the dark!
      At night I'm immersed in the light!"
   It's a fact: darkness isn't dark to you;
      night and day, darkness and light, they're all the same to you.

My God where do I take my thoughts when I become aware of Your Hearing so Involved with me?  How do I gather them and correct them after they have been spilled within my heart. 

Oh God, my first reaction is to flee… to run for I am covered with the painful exposure of forbidden apples eaten at a moment where I felt I would know more, I could be more, I could have more.   No one will know, only be amazed at the results it will bring me. 

Doing what I should not, saying what I am forbidden.  Stumbling to win a fight I start.   My emotions exploding at will, whatever it wants to play.  I am an instrument Carved and Set for Your Service and yet I often amuse my self with wrong notes screeching across the Ears of Your Heart.  In darkness I play as if Your Eyes have no Sight.  I weep this morning for I am foolish.  I can only boost of engaging in folly.  Performances of deadly comedy to my soul, I am distraught with regret. 

(Verse 24)

…See for yourself whether I've done anything wrong - then guide me on the road to eternal life.

I cry out… oh God… I CRY OUT… GUIDE ME… SHOW ME… Guide me to Your Heart so Pure and Wonders of Your Love and Pardon.   I want to Hear Your Guidance so Fine Tuned that I stay on Key and when I hit the wrong notes, I immediately Focus until I have it Right.  Hearing and Listening so that I Sound the Right Cords in the Orchestra of Your Glory.  For I only want to Reflect Your Song, not mine. 

I see Your Life within me and I too often take advantage of its Freedoms. 

My God, My Amazing Unmatched God, I fall to the back, I take the back seat not to gain ground but to applaud Your Heart so Measureless.   Guide me on this Road to eternal Life, Your Life that Lives and Dwells within me. Adjust my thoughts, for You Know what I’m going to say before I say it.  For night is not dark in Your Kingdom, and to walk daily in Your Kingdom is what I seek.  I will not run away but I will run to Your Help for Guidance so Pure.  I want my voice to be Your Voice and my song to be Your Song.  Thank You for Your Outrageous LOVE..!!!!