Without My Knowing, I Began To Love

As I come close 

to such a place as Your Presence, 

Father, I want to honor You 

as I take my heart 

now with all its wonders so full 

of what You put there.  

For I am so amazed 

at what seems to be 

Your pleasure in me.  

Giving to You who I am, 

what I am; 

met with so many surprises 

I never quite totally perceive 

how You are going to show me 

Your own heart.  

I only seem to see a portion 

because it has such extremes involved.  

The moment I breathe 

in the delight 

of joy You cause me to be sensitive to, 

I struggle to embrace 

without my own poking of self faults.  

I wonder… do You see them?  

Have You closed Your Eyes 

so that You can take me?  

I suppose it is hard to comprehend 

Your passion while such kicking 

and squirming goes on.  

But, I am learning to love You 

far more than what I thought 

was possible within me.  

It is awesome feeling such love, 

proving an explanation 

of why I am living.   

It seems like only yesterday 

that I recall knowing You loved me 

but it was more of 

something my mother taught me 

rather than the experience 

of such sweetness it is today.  

Now I search for any moment, 

any opportunity I can find 

to bring myself to You 

and lay in this unknown.  

For without my knowing, 

I began to love 

and know You 

with my own purpose of life 

altering my days and affections.  

Fascinated as You gave me courage 

to explore such a 

scary place 

as an Almighty.  

Such an Author 

of this world’s before and after, 

I drew near to You 

with shaky faith 

and an emptiness 

that screamed for real.  

Fearless with extreme Love so obvious, 

I run to You, 

easily grieve when time has stolen 

the ambiance of our joining together.  

How I have enjoyed 

this time in Your Presence.  

Not disappointed, 

I take with me yet another sparkle 

that I will wear 

as I shine of Your Love.  

Papa God, I love You, 

love being with You as it grows.  

Jesus was such a great Gift 

from You 

for my eyes to find You.

For without my knowing,

I began to Love and

find You don't close Your Eyes,

but watch my steps

with pure passion.