On a Sunday I was singing and praying for the worship service
and I was broken as Truth whizzed through my heart
with sweet impartation that
never fails
to change me from seemingly one seeking position
to an acceptance
position
that has this overwhelming effect of divine Love.
On and on it goes as it washes within me
with
its simple yet profound purpose it was sent for;
taking me through the
house weeping with hands raised.
This strength now takes its
adrenalin serious
and begins with new purpose
to shower God's heart within my heart ...
His affection.
- - -
Now, days later I remain in awe
as I wonder about in this invasion of Love talk
which struck me
with its softening that turns a stony heart into flesh.
With confidence the Holy One spoke to teach me,
“It’s not the words we sing,
it’s the heart we bring.”
Without words,
just me,
I go, I bring my heart
and watch Him be delighted.
Oh my…!
But Wisdom continues...
Surrendering with new depth
to the One I have eyes for,
I am challenged yet another time,
as this mama’s heart yearns for children I’m given.
Three birthed and two added gifts through marriage.
I speak their names with ferventness,
causing sensation of passions to curl my body
to crumble under its load.
Too heavy is its love passing through me!
Too crushing is the weight of such strong imprints
upon my heart of need.
Music of worship and prayer playing in the background,
I hear the tearing of another’s words I recognize too well
as they cry…
”get us ready, whatever it takes”.
I recall - September, 2011, setting in a tree
with two granddaughters,
I was visited by the Voice of One’s Commanding Love
coaching me.
Torn by the pain of a traumatic brain injury
that released confusion within my husband’s life,
its load crushed and bruised
my love made for him
a tower to give him refuge
during a time he would never remember.
As my strength weakened and his gained,
I could not escape the trap words built to stone me.
They had a fire I could not seem to pass through.
I weakened day by day until His Chariot rode to my side,
guiding this heart to Come.
In this paradise, a tree,
I giggled and shared in the fun,
the work of my son, for his daughters’ enjoyment
this silly little tree house.
Yet, My heavenly Father came
to offer in a blink of an eye,
the same …
His Work for my enjoyment,
His daughter.
His Love spoke with safety one never ignores
as I heard,
“Go to Oklahoma, no matter what it takes!”
I scarcely heard ‘no matter what it takes’
for my thoughts were focused upon
“GO TO OKLAHOMA”
Hearing clearly
but without the comprehension of experience.
I immediately raised the question to connect Eye to eye
that was screaming in my head,
“WHAT?”
Again, I hear Him say with what seemed to be
an image before me
as big as a mountain
and yet transparent like a faded photograph,
“Go to Oklahoma, no matter what it takes!”
Having but little discerning of what this might mean
and yet a million thoughts of what it might bring,
I felt amazing peace.
I know only to walk in Your Voice’s Call.
With weakness of flesh
but with great intensity
from this mysteriously highly seasoned Encounter,
I walked in the office of a place of employment
with my summon.
I gave my instructed heart's command
to the man I loved.
I surrendered my resignation and cried before a boss
that calls me sunshine.
I remained with no knowledge of how this would go?
I only knew to ‘go’.
On my way to OKLAHOMA I refused to call anyone.
Then after four hours of driving, I knew it was time …
...where would I go?
I called several family members
and no one seemed to have a phone,
for not even dial tones were heard.
Over and over His sweet Voice would whisper ‘David’.
I looked at my phone and with tears streaming
I followed His Voice, I made the move.
David answered immediately
and arms were opened
and comfort drenched my heart.
The beginning of an amazing restoration trickled in,
yet with force like a mighty water fall.
Day and night it was as if angelic harmony was around me.
Family and friends, new and known,
came in vast continuous waves
as weeping was met with healing.
Separated from the gift of my husband,
I rode upon this unleashing New Sound of compassion
I was so unfamiliar with,
as His Heart carried me while my soul surrendered
against the levelheadedness a mind fights for.
That heavy chain that drags us around
as we depend upon our own understanding to prosper.
Five months of His Jealous burning fire
Loved and held me within a celebrated victory
of my surrender.
His Name written upon my heart,
I was singing His Love as it played its song in me,
but the enemy released hell against me.
I lay in the Arms that never grows weary
nor put me down to walk alone,
yet I could see the gates of hell storming the door.
Day and night amazing songs filled my heart
as I gathered His Glory to dance in.
Following His Love to find Grace for my soul,
the same Call to go, made a divine Path
that amazes my heart for a bigger surprise
than I could have ever imagined.
Again adding His Love with Arms outstretched
from the new and old, my world is enlarged.
For my feet now walk His Love
in both Kansas and Oklahoma.
Only my God can give such gifts that take me through life
with my days increasing in relationship.
Why would I weaken when asked to pray
'whatever it takes'
upon the jewels in my life?
Why would I soften to plead against God?
Oh mighty Holy majestic One,
I run to Your alter and take with me my five.
I dance as the Spirit gave His Wind’s Call for mine
but why was I stunned when this came?
Was I holding to some unnoticed grip
that told me ‘I’ somehow could manage alone
to get them to find You?
Why did I weep so when Your request was raised
that I pray this feat - RAID with inescapable contact
to each child for their homecoming to take place.
How favored I am that You have reached so deep
within my soul to cry for those I love.
Oh luxurious magnificent One, I celebrate this moment
and respectfully lay my prayer in line with Your Love
and surrender to whatever it takes,
cause them to know You, Holy One.
Impart what it takes to have full view
of Your Glory which SPEAKS to the soul
and places a yearning run
to the rescue of Your Will, not our own.
I take in Your cry for my children
and I come to this same agreement…
You are their Savior.
With Your Love at each of our turns,
I continue to surrender and pray
pour upon us
whatever it takes
to bring us fully to You.
and begins with new purpose
to shower God's heart within my heart ...
His affection.
- - -
Now, days later I remain in awe
as I wonder about in this invasion of Love talk
which struck me
with its softening that turns a stony heart into flesh.
With confidence the Holy One spoke to teach me,
“It’s not the words we sing,
it’s the heart we bring.”
Without words,
just me,
I go, I bring my heart
and watch Him be delighted.
Oh my…!
But Wisdom continues...
Surrendering with new depth
to the One I have eyes for,
I am challenged yet another time,
as this mama’s heart yearns for children I’m given.
Three birthed and two added gifts through marriage.
I speak their names with ferventness,
causing sensation of passions to curl my body
to crumble under its load.
Too heavy is its love passing through me!
Too crushing is the weight of such strong imprints
upon my heart of need.
Music of worship and prayer playing in the background,
I hear the tearing of another’s words I recognize too well
as they cry…
”get us ready, whatever it takes”.
I recall - September, 2011, setting in a tree
with two granddaughters,
I was visited by the Voice of One’s Commanding Love
coaching me.
Torn by the pain of a traumatic brain injury
that released confusion within my husband’s life,
its load crushed and bruised
my love made for him
a tower to give him refuge
during a time he would never remember.
As my strength weakened and his gained,
I could not escape the trap words built to stone me.
They had a fire I could not seem to pass through.
I weakened day by day until His Chariot rode to my side,
guiding this heart to Come.
In this paradise, a tree,
I giggled and shared in the fun,
the work of my son, for his daughters’ enjoyment
this silly little tree house.
Yet, My heavenly Father came
to offer in a blink of an eye,
the same …
His Work for my enjoyment,
His daughter.
His Love spoke with safety one never ignores
as I heard,
“Go to Oklahoma, no matter what it takes!”
I scarcely heard ‘no matter what it takes’
for my thoughts were focused upon
“GO TO OKLAHOMA”
Hearing clearly
but without the comprehension of experience.
I immediately raised the question to connect Eye to eye
that was screaming in my head,
“WHAT?”
Again, I hear Him say with what seemed to be
an image before me
as big as a mountain
and yet transparent like a faded photograph,
“Go to Oklahoma, no matter what it takes!”
Having but little discerning of what this might mean
and yet a million thoughts of what it might bring,
I felt amazing peace.
I know only to walk in Your Voice’s Call.
With weakness of flesh
but with great intensity
from this mysteriously highly seasoned Encounter,
I walked in the office of a place of employment
with my summon.
I gave my instructed heart's command
to the man I loved.
I surrendered my resignation and cried before a boss
that calls me sunshine.
I remained with no knowledge of how this would go?
I only knew to ‘go’.
On my way to OKLAHOMA I refused to call anyone.
Then after four hours of driving, I knew it was time …
...where would I go?
I called several family members
and no one seemed to have a phone,
for not even dial tones were heard.
Over and over His sweet Voice would whisper ‘David’.
I looked at my phone and with tears streaming
I followed His Voice, I made the move.
David answered immediately
and arms were opened
and comfort drenched my heart.
The beginning of an amazing restoration trickled in,
yet with force like a mighty water fall.
Day and night it was as if angelic harmony was around me.
Family and friends, new and known,
came in vast continuous waves
as weeping was met with healing.
Separated from the gift of my husband,
I rode upon this unleashing New Sound of compassion
I was so unfamiliar with,
as His Heart carried me while my soul surrendered
against the levelheadedness a mind fights for.
That heavy chain that drags us around
as we depend upon our own understanding to prosper.
Five months of His Jealous burning fire
Loved and held me within a celebrated victory
of my surrender.
His Name written upon my heart,
I was singing His Love as it played its song in me,
but the enemy released hell against me.
I lay in the Arms that never grows weary
nor put me down to walk alone,
yet I could see the gates of hell storming the door.
Day and night amazing songs filled my heart
as I gathered His Glory to dance in.
Following His Love to find Grace for my soul,
the same Call to go, made a divine Path
that amazes my heart for a bigger surprise
than I could have ever imagined.
Again adding His Love with Arms outstretched
from the new and old, my world is enlarged.
For my feet now walk His Love
in both Kansas and Oklahoma.
Only my God can give such gifts that take me through life
with my days increasing in relationship.
Why would I weaken when asked to pray
'whatever it takes'
upon the jewels in my life?
Why would I soften to plead against God?
Oh mighty Holy majestic One,
I run to Your alter and take with me my five.
I dance as the Spirit gave His Wind’s Call for mine
but why was I stunned when this came?
Was I holding to some unnoticed grip
that told me ‘I’ somehow could manage alone
to get them to find You?
Why did I weep so when Your request was raised
that I pray this feat - RAID with inescapable contact
to each child for their homecoming to take place.
How favored I am that You have reached so deep
within my soul to cry for those I love.
Oh luxurious magnificent One, I celebrate this moment
and respectfully lay my prayer in line with Your Love
and surrender to whatever it takes,
cause them to know You, Holy One.
Impart what it takes to have full view
of Your Glory which SPEAKS to the soul
and places a yearning run
to the rescue of Your Will, not our own.
I take in Your cry for my children
and I come to this same agreement…
You are their Savior.
With Your Love at each of our turns,
I continue to surrender and pray
pour upon us
whatever it takes
to bring us fully to You.
