In Fear I Come Before Him

God, You who Whispers and the earth hears, You who Watches and the earth is under Command, You who Spreads the skies with Your Glory for the earth to ponder.  I bow my heart and give, surrendering to what is Almighty and who Created lightening, what my mind comprehends as unsearchable powerful, but is more Powerful than a million bolts its strike could produce.  I am in awe of Your Thunder this morning as I respect with eyes low Your Voice and yet find Tracks before me to follow to come close.   I fear yet follow.  I step closer but wobble in strength.  There is a Place, Your Place, that Wakes me to so many of the real Life journeys my heart cries for.  The world looks so different from Your Place that when I fall back into my own self centeredness I can’t help but find myself wanting to run and begin a process of self cleansing and then I get caught in its trap of continuance because it doesn’t work.   I want Your Work in my life and yet it comes and I tremble.  I ask to drink from the Cup of Your Life Giving Flow and I crumble as Your Burn sets my heart in Flames.  I am weak, so very weak and need the Waters of Sanctification to Soak into my skin so that the Name of Jesus (His Worth) shows and draws all hearts to the Throne of Grace where we find Your Strength to eat of Your daily Bread.  Oh God, The God, who gave Your Son to Swallow my sin with Grace, how do I come?  How do I plead?  How do I stand under such Wonders?  How, Mighty Spirit of Fellowship, do I stay at this alter and live?   It Consumes and Takes Down the construction I built to fight with; it Forces the sand under my feet to move and I fall; it Pierces my ears with Sounds I am unfamiliar with; it weakens every muscle of my soul… I will be destroyed and die and I am scared…!  But I am Wooed by a Source that Warms my heart and Assures New Life in return.  I want to run but I seem to crawl.  I want to jump but I seem to only fall.  God, with all Greatness and Power, I know only to ask; to ask Your pardon and that Your Strength continue to Embrace my weaknesses so that daily I am brought to This Place, Your Place of Mercy and Love.  I fear but You are Safe… I tremble but You are Righteous… I fall but You are Mighty… I come by the Help of Your Hand…!

Prayer Made SIMPLE, Just Believe

What ever you believe in prayer, you shall have it. Matt 21:22 (Message Bible)

We have been afraid of what we believe and have tried to pray things we don’t believe. 

Okay, here is what I’m thinking.  Jesus is hungry! Okay… I can identify with that, …I SURE get hungry!  He sees a fig tree… I LOVE figs!  He goes to pick some for breakfast and finds it isn’t producing so He tells it; Fine, you’ll never grow fruit.  Wow… Okay, so I was with Him until He did that. 

I’ve heard all sorts of sermons and thoughts on this scripture but I can’t recall hearing the thought it gave me this morning.  This act of authority over this tree absolutely amazed His disciples, as it does me!  Why did He do this; and even a more intriguing question I have is HOW?  Jesus tells His disciples it is more or less ‘simple’, you just have faith and do not doubt…!  Hum…. No doubting??  Oh my, I’m bad about doubting L 

BUT, not in all things J Ah ha..!  That’s it… My thoughts begin to swim around a little…! 

My faith has built so much in the last year simply because of the falls and successes of tremendous trials.  As I was bombarded with them, I began putting all my trust in Him, the One who cares for me and I started being more real than I have EVER.  If I was screaming mad, I took it to Him and told Him I’m screaming mad and allowed His Love to calm and direct me, and this occurred many times through family and friends.  If I was excited out of my wits, I took it to Him and gave praise.  But I began TAKING it ALL to Him… good and bad....all that I am, all that I want to be and absolutely all my doubts and fears with a new confidence He could handle it, or better put, He would ‘help’ me with it. 

I learned… praise moves my heart, honesty moves His Heart..!

I saw His Hand over and over and over building me as He gave me room to grow.   I see this scripture as a new Light and reason to be glad when trials come my way.  Why, because it will built my faith as I look to the One Source and He works over the ‘real’ me…!  BUT I must be real, pray real, and not be afraid to look in the mirror and see myself for who I am and take that image to Him to change to become Like Him.  And in that building, I will find faith to move the mountains and cause the fig tree to die. 

Jesus was so involved in the mighty moving of mountains; but even so and more where I am, the small hungers of our day. 

This is just amazing to me…!  What a Great Savior to show us the Way to the Father..!

Here is the story told in the Ampliphed Bible.

Matthew 21:

   ¹⁸In the early dawn the next morning, as He was coming back to the city, He was hungry. ¹⁹And as He saw one single leafy fig tree above the roadside, He went to it but He found nothing but leaves on it [seeing that in the fig tree the fruit appears at the same time as the leaves]. And He said to it, Never again shall fruit grow on you! And the fig tree withered up at once. ²⁰When the disciples saw it, they marveled greatly and asked, How is it that the fig tree has withered away all at once? ²¹And Jesus answered them, Truly I say to you, if you have faith (a firm relying trust) and do not doubt, you will not only do what has been done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, Be taken up and cast into the sea, it will be done. ²²And whatever you ask for in prayer, having faith and [really] believing, you will receive.

Loved So Deeply

I offer now,

early this Sunday morning,

something in my heart that smiles. 

Something that one might even call cheesy…

it’s just so full of mush. 

I have a grateful heart this morning

and from that attitude

I find all sorts of giggling thoughts. 

Loved so deeply,

I keep finding my walk more like a skip! 

Loved so deeply,

my conversation seems more

like a song

rather than just a combination of words! 

His Name that brings such Rewards,

has this Melody

that rolls around in my mind

as if a waltz

in step with the Melody. 

The Foundation and Strength of so much Love

causes me

to feel consumed and satisfied

as the total Life Source for my existence. 

As my eyes began to open this morning

I pondered

this Miracle of Life so Abundant. 

With a childish acceptance

I realize I didn’t deserve it

but was Awarded its Gift just because. 

Just because He Is...! 

Just because

He has this Abundant Supply

and long ago,

He Gave it to the world...!

:-) 

I didn’t do anything

to earn it. 

I didn’t do anything

 to own it. 

I am just His and so I get it. 

I am so Loved…!

I Love You, Nana

I stare before me, my Lord, a note upon my monitor that says, ‘I love you Nana’ and a drawing of a heart to represent this love from a portion of the center of my precious granddaughter’s feelings, her heart. 

She placed it on a door

and then decided that her choice of location

was extremely too far away from my eyes. 

She wanted it to be

at the utmost prominent place

where I had no choice

but to get this message she did not take lightly. 

For as a child,

they are quick to say or expose

those they do not like also;

so if you are loved by a child…

you are truly loved.  

And what brings them such delight

when sharing this message with you

is to see your response in return…

your love. 

This morning as I look at this note,

I am reminded

that Jesus has written me so many notes

and in that same hope of my response,

to favor His Gift of Love to me.   

Oh Jesus,

I do,

oh yes, I do! 

How many times

have You wrote upon my heart

and placed it so I would not get through

without stumbling into it. 

How many times have You placed it

on the very objects of my affections

so that You could

Shine Your Presence

and very Heart Beat of Love

where I could not possibly overlook it. 

How many times

have I simply walked my day

to find Your Fingerprints

upon my work and play. 

Oh Jesus, I Love You too. 

So much,

I love You too…!

Open My Blinded Eyes, Oh God

Matthew 20 (Amp bible)

  ²⁹And as they were going out of Jericho, a great throng accompanied Him.

    ³⁰And behold, two blind men were sitting by the roadside, and when they heard that Jesus was passing by, they cried out, Lord, have pity and mercy on us, [You] Son of David!

    ³¹The crowds reproved them and told them to keep still; but they cried out all the more, Lord, have pity and mercy on us, [You] Son of David!

    ³²And Jesus stopped and called them, and asked, What do you want Me to do for you?

    ³³They answered Him, Lord, we want our eyes to be opened!

    ³⁴And Jesus, in pity, touched their eyes; and instantly they received their sight and followed Him.

Great and Mighty Creator and One who Called even sound and sight into existence; how Wondrous it is to think and ponder Your Works with such detail.  I am troubled today with blindness… oh no, not with the eyes that easily see the world and what is in front of my steps, but what is Deeper and Greater than these events.  I find myself at a rock, bent with the weight of sin and troubled heart which blinds my vision from the Son and His Light upon my life.  In darkness my eyes are closed to what is around me that will make me stumble; make me fall as I carelessly run for safety I can’t find.   This morning I am crying as the blind men did for that same Mercy and Pity upon my life.  Your stop my way has given me the boldness to ask for Your Pity and Mercy upon my life so that my eyes are opened as I have known Your Love and Greatness.  Open my eyes to see Your Light.  Open my eyes to have Vision of Your Walk.  Open my eyes today so I will receive my sight and follow You…!!!   Have pity on me, I really want to see..!

Reading Like A Child

Oh God choose me today…

Choose me moment by moment,

daily as I come before You. 

Yesterday I pondered the Worthiness of You

and broke that word

Worth-y

down slowly as it came out

Worth It.

Oh God, You are worth it. 

For me and in my doing,

You are worth whatever my flesh has to go through

to find You there,

Choosing me.   

I know I am a child before Your Throne. 

I see my childishness and I am so humbled. 

Working at a medical clinic I came in yesterday

from a business luncheon;

walked in the waiting room

and a child about 4 years old

looked at me that captured me to a

standstill. 

She showed me her book. 

I stopped to ask her if she would read it to me. 

Without hesitation

she began reading the pictures,

not the words,

but the pictures. 

The story was changed but she was confident

to share every page

even though it was far from the written words. 

Father, this is me too often

as I read Your Word;

sharing and reading the pictures

rather than the Written Word of Truth. 

As a child, with confidence and without fear;

Father, I want to grow up. 

I need to grow up

and not just share what my worldly eyes see. 

I need to have Knowledge

inside my spirit

and declare with the Boldness of Your Life

the Written Word of Truth. 

Reading with eyes of Your Understanding

the Precision of Words from Your Mouth

mixed with Your Spirit within me. 

I release this prayer of my heart

as I grow

in Your Wisdom and Power

by the Life of Your Word Working in me.   

Jesus, continue

to Enlighten me of Your Walk on earth

as it Points to our Father

and the Riches of His Will and Kingdom Come. 

You are Worth – IT..!!! 

Worthy of all praise

and in Your Name

Jesus

I find Truth…!