I Cried. I Wept.

Oh Blessed Awesome God, I am so excited for today I have tasted such

Delicious Love!

It fills not only my mouth with Your Praise but my whole belly with Substance that Satisfies wondrous, deep lasting, cravings.  For in a dry and thirsty state I sat at an instrument I use to accompany me as I sang from the pain of a distraught heart. 

I remember often the story my mom will tell of my youth.  I went through a period of time as a teenager that I refused to cry.  I do not recall this very well but she has mentioned it often throughout my life.  In these years so cold to discipline and hardened to my own understanding of life’s tormenting struggles, I slightly remember vowing to stop crying as life hurt to much, so I did.  It broke her heart as she saw me dry up. 

This morning as my fingers made its way up and down a few simple keys on my keyboard, I began to hear You Say her words, “its okay to cry.”  Over again as the Softness of Your Plea came Rolling in, “It’s okay to cry.”  

I looked up to the Bible opened before me and saw a beautiful picture as I read Psalm 3:4  To the Lord I cry aloud, and he answers me from his holy hill (NIV).  Suddenly I saw King David crying, literally crying with the tears that come from one broken and struggling to accomplish what seems to be so strong within his heart.   

I cried as I confessed I cannot give up my dream.  It pounds me hard night and day.  I cannot lay it down as it appears I must. 

I cried.  I wept. 

I shared my broken heart to Him, to the One that Delivers me from my enemies, even when the worst enemy is my soul.   As tears streamed from my eyes I began to sing in my broken voice as I cried like David cried, “Break my enemies teeth so it no longer makes sense to me.  Cause them to be jumbled words that cannot give utterance to my ears”

Psalm 3:7 Arise, O Lord! Deliver me, O my God! Strike all my enemies on the jaw; break the teeth of the wicked.(NIV) 

I continued to sing my cry against my enemy… ‘my thoughts that take me to misunderstand the God that I serve.  My yearnings that pull me aside and hinder my path that was Designed from His Love.’ 

 I cried.  I wept. 

I felt His Love begin to Pour.  I felt new Strength as I yielded to a cry of such deep pain.  I could feel something Rising inside so I sang from this Strength as David sang… “I will not be afraid of tens of thousands of thoughts that have spoken against me… no, not even tens of thousands of thoughts.  I will Rest. I will lie down and Rest.  For You Lord Deliver me from them all.” 

Psalm 3:5-8  I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.  …. From the Lord comes deliverance….(NIV) 

I am not going to give up.  I will set my eyes upon my Father.  My dream will not move so I give it to Him for I am Satisfied in His Love.  He will take my dream and Mold it to be the Delicious Love my heart craves.  It is in the Greatest of Hands.  For He will Mix and Match the Ingredients to Serve me a Delicacy fit for His Owned.  I look towards His Holy Hill as all its Wonders come rolling down upon my soul so dry and thirsty.  His Appetizers have Glory as it’s the Serving Dish and Filled is this Cup to the Order of my appetites.  I have been Taken to the Courts of Worship and my senses have Turned as His Delicious Love is Set before me.

He speaks as I found my fingers suddenly turning Pages of His Word to Sing back to me. 

Song of Songs 2: 4 All I want is to sit in his shade, to taste and savor his delicious love. He took me home with him for a festive meal, but his eyes feasted on me! (The Message) 

I cried.  I wept. 

His Love is Soaking into all my thoughts, Devouring all pains; and confusion no longer has any worth.  I ponder His Delicious Love as I do not want to waste a single Morsel.

He continues to Speak as again I turn to His Word to Sing back to me. 

Psalm 2:7 Let me tell you what God said next. He said, "You're my son (daughter), And today is your birthday. What do you want? Name it: Nations as a present? continents as a prize? 

I cried. I wept. 

My voice no longer has sound, only my fingers play as my heart Hears His Love.  I hardly know how to respond.  I did not understand so I asked, “How is it my birthday, Lord?” 

My heart tunes in to listen as I hear Him say, “Today is a new day I awoke you to.  Every day is your birthday for I make them Fresh and New each sunrise and you are my daughter from its start. Brand New to you. Now tell me your dream. 

I cried. I wept.

I begin to meditate on such a Word, my mind searches my heart to give Him my honesty and not my self hardened desires….?

Lord, I cry in sobs now,

 I want to be near my children.  I want to be next to them so I can be a part of their life but I cannot tell if it is Your Plan. 

I cannot get out another word. 

I cried. I wept.

As If He Knew that would be all I could say, He Responds.…

You are closer than you know. 

You are so much closer than you realize. 

I cried.  I wept. 

Tell Me, He asks again…Tell Me about your dream.

With Renewed Acceptance I began to sing as I heard His Love and Understanding and no condemnation….I knew there was so much more to my dream than I had imagined so I searched my heart. 

I sang loudly as the Spirit within me Gave Truth…! ”

Lord, I want my children to Know You the Way I Know You. I want them to be Close to Your Heart as I am.  I want them to have Your Life within them." 

I cried.  I wept.  

His Gentle Understanding begins to Fill my heart, My Daughter, He Calls me, I have seen your dream and I have Known the Meaning as you have ran to its call.  For your desire to be near Your children is Me wanting to be near your children.  Me wanting to live in their lives.  Me wanting to be at every event.  Me wanting to Love them with Passion I cannot contain.  You are walking out my heart and I will Fulfill this Love for you.  Give me your hand and we will be a Song of Love. 

I cried. I wept. 

He Holds my dream as His Own.

Love Speaks Its Wisdom

Where is my fight, Lord?  What happened to the spunk that kept me smiling and giggling as the world kept pushing me along?  Am I wishing to return to a wilderness?  Am I sitting on one side of a river in the hopes to live on the other?  Why can’t I be stronger?  Where is the key to unlock a tag-a-long nipping at my heels all the time?  

And then Your Love Speaks its Wisdom…

James 1:4 (Amplified Bible)

So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed. Not deficient in any way.

Lord, I must like immaturity as it allows for so much foolishness. Forgive me as I awake to the Ways of Truth and ponder what it must be like to not have deficiency.  For I look at maturity in another and find such desire but in no way do I want the Road they traveled, yet I hunger after what I see. 

And then Your Love Speaks its Wisdom as His Word Again Stands Out…

Luke 6:21 (Amplified Bible)
Blessed (happy--with life-joy and satisfaction in God's favor and salvation, apart from your outward condition--and to be envied) are you who hunger and seek with eager desire now, for you shall be filled and completely satisfied! Blessed (happy--with life-joy and satisfaction in God's favor and salvation, apart from your outward condition--and to be envied) are you who weep and sob now, for you shall laugh!

Take a hold of my selfishness and cause me to be aware of the multitude of Your Love’s Armies around me. 

And then Your Love Speaks its Wisdom as a Song comes on the internet…

You are not alone…You are not alone!  I will send a Helper, He says, You are not alone.  You are not alone. You are not alone, I will send a Helper to you, says the Lord.  He will Abide in You, bringing to remembrance everything I’ve spoken to Your heart.  I will not leave you as an orphan.  I will not leave you alone. I will give you a helper for you cannot do it alone. You are not abandoned but I have given You my Spirit. Lean not on your own understanding; lean on me, I will give you strength. You are not alone; I will send a Spirit of Comfort. Where ever you go He will be with you.  Where ever you go he will be near you always.  Wherever you go He will be in your heart abiding with you.  

In this Sound of Song’s Love I bathe for I forget so easily Your Wrapping around my heart that Sets Your Spirit to my life.  I take in each Note of Sweetness as if it were the Bouquet of Fresh cut Roses to bring instant pleasure only; for each Moment speaks New Songs over this Truth of never being alone.  You stop my striving to find that outside, and Open my eyes to Hear Your Sound of Truth Inside.  Your Spirit of Truth Closer than a mother or father.   I come now as Your Love Calls for I am not alone.  You have Sent the Spirit of Comfort.  I am not alone.

Acts 2:39 (Amplified Bible)
For the promise [of the Holy Spirit] is to and for you and your children, and to and for all that are far away, [even] to and for as many as the Lord our God invites and bids to come to Himself.

My love speaks back to He who Came

 I love You so much!  Thank You for Showing me again Your Love…!  You are Right; I cannot do it alone.

Intoxicating Wine That Steals Away Our Sins

Father, Almighty that Establishes me and those who have been Placed in a Connection to me with a deep family unit, carefully Thought out by Your Opinion and Inspiration so that Your Name will Deliberately have a Place for Reflection of Your Identity.  This Fact has such Mysterious Extremes that are difficult to absorb but it is not about an ego or my qualities, but in reference to Your Compassion and Kindness Poured Lavishly into my life so that I Walk Your Life as the Excitement and Direction it is.  I know not but to accept this overwhelming Love that seems to awake me each day.  The more I find this Affection, the more I want to come to its Fountain of Constance as all sorrow gives way to the Fondness of Your Eyes so Kind.  In such Wisdom of this Cup Given, I am shattered in its Splendid Life of Abundance, so I cry out for my children to also be acquainted with this Intoxicating Wine that Steals away my sins as Your Love Flows through our veins.   Father, Almighty, with Corrective Moves, Lift up Your Foundation to be the Teaching of Communication for a Right mind set for my children.  Taking them from their own understanding to Your Understanding that makes a day carry Value.  Giving them the Wisdom that surpasses the structures of their own strength so that leaning upon You has Room to Grow.   As Your Spirit Floods their heart with a Gush of Might, Show Your Vision as the Way, the Truth, the Life of all Roads to travel.  You have Designed us all so individually that Your Passionate Dazzling Love brings us to such a desire to serve.  Serving becomes the Weakness that brings us to Triumph.  The world seems upside down in its rules to success, while Your Promises become the Unwavering, Permanent Guide to find Riches beyond imagination.  I am so thankful for the Guidance that Jesus was Sent to Show us.  He was with You and left that Place to Give me eyes and a heart to Know what He Knew with such Magnificence.  Walking out a Life so that when we see Him, we have seen the Father.  Jesus You are so Wonderful.   I owe a debt I can never pay and yet the Spirit of God Teaches me I don’t have to pay, You did.  Father Continue to Open my eyes to have more Clarity of this Pure Way and continue to Renew the mind of my children and grand children.  As we all call upon the Name of Jesus as the Rock we stand upon, keep my family Solid in Your Ways and keep us at Your Table so that we drink with a heart sold out to Your Intoxicating Wine that Steals away our sins as YOUR LOVE Flows through our veins.

Weakness For Me

God… Chosen?  I am chosen? 

That really messes with my mind, my God.  Every time I think about it I am so delighted in the Midst of this Truth but it feels so contrary to how my mind works.  For this morning I woke and thought it was 'I' that chose to either talk to You or allow my thoughts to wonder about in other conversations that float in the spaces of my time. 

Did I chose or did You Chose me this morning? 

I recall my song this morning as my day was beginning; I asked for the Spirit of Wisdom to carry me through the events I would face today.  Do You Chose to Give me this Wisdom or is it because I asked?  Oh God, I am altogether broken in the Company of Your Heart’s Love for me and I just want my heart to fall deeper and deeper in knowledge of the Love You are. 

My seeking has become such deep desires for You and what it looks like to hold You inside. 

It has to be You that is planting these questions, these moments that Rise in my soul to bring the Thirst of such Amazing Dwelling.  As each Piece of Your Love Causes me to be in Your Situations, I want my residence to read this Address.  As You Arrange my Steps You surely must be Placing the Rank of this Degree of Hunger for Your Matchless Absolutes.  Yet the confusion for me is that the Unfathomable, Bottomless, Hidden, Mysteriously Silent yet Thunderous, Profound Truth of Your Love, Reveals something so Zealous and what appears Your Ultimate Weakness for me. 

Weakness for me?  

My search for why I might be chosen only exposes or uncovers more questions about Your Love of Irresistible Pleasure over me, not my own labor to exert some sort of performance or come off as my own handiwork.  But in quest of reality I ponder the Masterpiece You are Creating, not of my creation or boost; but what Your Love, not mine, is all about.  Your Work, Your Love, Your Show-n-Tell Moments of Your Work in Progress. 

Giving me microscopic Portions of Your Love’s Supremacy and watching the Energy of such Weight Construct Your Image.   

God, what an Incredible Marvel it is to just let You Love me.   This Weakness for me..! To allow my doubts and fears be Seized by Your Zeal to Show what Your Blameless Extremes can Accomplish in something broken because Your Love needs Places to Inhabit.  You have Chosen me, and not because I am a vessel of fine art, but because my cracks can Show Your Sweetness that Flavors the cravings of my soul; which then Portrays the Deepest Places where such Beautiful Springs Refresh a weary mind. 

I am Chosen by the Eye of Your Grand Search for lost and broken street dwellers, homeless on earth.   

I am Given Your Royal Feast because I am now ravenous and running in hunger to sallow the Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner You Serve as You have Opened the Door to the Never Ending Banquet set for the broken and homeless.  Your Weakness for me has Devoured my heart and I can not leave, I can only ask for more and to live here forever.

   I was Chosen by Your Love’s Need and I will play in Your Garden with Jesus who Showed me Your Name for eternity. 

Miracles Continue

Father, sort of dreary outside.  Funny how that can sometimes make me feel less than perky myself.  There is nothing more that I want than to have Your Son Shine within me and yet I often stumble down the Road.  I think about this weekend of remembrance of Your Sweet Son’s Great Work, traveling to the Cross with me in mind.  Before the walk, how difficult it must have been for Jesus to watch one by one as all His friends and followers fell away from supporting and standing beside Him until He was alone, just You and Him. Many made commitments with determination to go anywhere He went but finding it was much more than they expected to remain faithful to be the believer they intended.  I hate that when that happens to me.  I feel so defeated and wonder why I am not stronger.  I want to pretend it isn’t me or my fault as I fidget around with guilt and shame the enemy wants me to hold on to.  I’m always grateful that You allow me to see my failures so that I can search and find Answers to my weaknesses but I know I cannot stand under them long.  Oh God, knowing I need the Teaching of Your Spirit left to Dwell in His Owned when Jesus returned to His Throne, I raise my prayer this morning.  What a Fearful and Wonderful Passage Jesus made.  Ascending to heaven but replacing His body with the unseen, hidden, out of natural sight, Power of God on earth, Your Spirit, Your Personality He Taught so well.  Now existing and breathing within those who accept the Sacrifice Jesus was on that Cross of pain.  What Words of Amazing Life so concealed in this Burial and Resurrection.  Mysterious, Mystifying this Love that Parts the waters that trap me in a corner!   I simply raise my praise and the mighty unpassable sea before me Parts so I walk on Your Dry Land as Your Miracles continue.

This morning I lean into the Results of that Walk to the Cross, and worship; for what You have done may be Mystifying but I walk in the knowledge of its Grace and my heart finds incredible Safety as the harmful attitudes of my mind cause the stumbling confusion while Your Miracles continue.  Weeping repentance for my weaknesses but what mind-blowing Joyful Celebration for Your Love’s Sacrifice!  A heart that sees the Blood that was Offered as the Compensation for my weakness of not being faithful.  How remorseful I am but how elated, ecstatic I find myself as Your Victory over these disappointments, Cover me.  I am alive in Your Love as the Breakdown of my flesh makes adjustments to the Work of this Miracle Made for me.   The Exact of what I now breathe and move in, Your Miracle made for me.  The Miracle of today, the Miracles of tomorrow… and the Miraculous Miracle of the Cross for me in the yesterdays.  Father, You are so Holy and I bow in thankfulness this morning for You are my Strength to continue as ugliness falls and Your Plans are accomplished today.  I have no payment except my heart so broken and confused, but I gladly give it to You.  Jesus said I would have Life Eternal if I went His Way.  Continue, Jesus, to Show me the Way as His Miracles continue…!

Scared Of The Deep

Father God, I come this morning as a child to sit upon Your Lap… maybe just to cry.  I’m so stumped this morning.  I can’t seem to gather a direction because it feels like there is just too much happening that feels sad to my heart.  It frustrates me because on the other hand I can see Your Hand making the Giant Steps in my life that are so obviously Your Work.  So all I know to do is bring it to You.  You are so faithful to Correct my thoughts to pull me out of darkness or unknown dead ends of selfish attractions rather than the Better Goals of Your Road.  I feel like I’m on a huge wave and I can’t tell if it is pulling me to shore or taking me out into the deep ocean.  I can feel the Joy of Floating and yet unable to see what is in the waters, I whine in fear.  I’m afraid like a child in a dark room calling for her daddy to come check out all the closets and under the bed.  I want the light on so that I don’t have to sleep in a dark room.  I need Your Voice to tell me everything is okay. Tell me You have Looked at all my surroundings and Secured the Doors and nothing is here to harm me.  Can You Sing a Song about me like my daddy did in those times when I felt so lost in fear as his child.  Can You Hold me close so that I no longer care whether it is dark or light, I am safe.  I can’t reach the light switch because I’m scared to put my foot on the floor.  I can only cry in the night for You to Hear me because I know You’ll Come, You always do.  My fears begin to calm even when I hear You Rising and those Powerful Soft Footsteps are Sounded; for I know You will not stop until You Reach me.  Your Soft Voice Speaking, ‘What is the matter?’   I embarrassingly say, ‘I hear too many voices talking to me.’  And the Song Begins.  I am Your Daughter and You Find Pleasure in me.   My mom and daddy on earth is of great age now and now I need to tell them all is okay.  I need to sing to them that they are my greatest treasures on earth.  Thank You for Showing me how to Love, and how to be Loved by this example of my own parents.  All You Want for me is to Love and all avenues of life will be Guided.  So this morning, as I struggle to gather a direction, I will chase Love and Friendship will be my Guard against darkness.  For if I have Love, I will be Stationed at Your House and all Things are of Your Design; and Safety is an eternal Promise as worries and fears are left outside.  Thank You for checking all the noises and unfamiliar sounds for me and Giving me the Okay that all is Safe.  While I stay in this Place I will Rest as the Beautiful Song You Sing Gives me Peace. 

SOFTLY  HE  SPEAKS:  You are MINE, You are the creation of my Longing.  My Eyes have Watched the sunrises as your beginning was just as delightful as your end upon earth.  I Called You and you came running.  When I Reach to Hold your hand you giggle and often will shrink but soon realize I want to Take you somewhere Special.  I Loved how you climbed and rarely was afraid of heights.  Climbing into New Places as you would explore My Territories.  I Love Touching your heart with a Thirst for My Rain; Watching you Play in My Rain is so Delightful.  Do not be afraid of the Deep.  I have My Eyes everywhere.  Under you, over you, beside you, and completely around you.  I Am and you are Mine.

Holy Character

Holy God, Holy One of Pureness that has my all today!  I am so intrigued with the thought of Your Holy Character this morning.  I have heard the Description many times today and have let it sound from my own heart as well.  Loyal, devoted to a Deity as the Rule and Complete Path to a Destiny is how it feels to me.  I have asked the Teacher of Mightiness to come and bring me closer to this understanding as it takes me to so many attitudes and reactions as I call out this Sight of who You are; Holy.   It always Gives me a Place I enter.  It sets everything else separate and Draws me to a Secret Place that Takes me Inside a New Realm of Air Filled with Amazements to a Freedom unfelt prior.  It Pulls my heart to Wants; Wants that Take Hold of my thoughts and desires.  For the Wooing of this Freedom Un-pinches the tight knots of stress and Opens a Love Nest of Curiosity between me and this Holy Character.  I widen my eyes so that I miss nothing.  I begin to slow down and listen more than speak.  My thoughts roll with what my eyes can scan over.  I know I am somewhere else from where I was.   I look at the Ground I stand and it is built of different Substance.  I want to take my shoes from off my feet so that I can feel what I now stand on.  The Ground seems to begin to Rise and Consume me like a Water Pool as it Heals every inch of My being. Something so Big and Great is in the Room, the Room of my heart.  As I allow this Description of You so ‘Holy’ escape from the Knowledge of being here before, where I Catch the results of sitting under Your Glory, I find a Drawing that this Holy Character Gives an inability of resistance.  It is like a Connection of Love Sparks with Enormous Power, and an Electrifying Charge Grabs my heart and it becomes impossible to let go.  I am Shaken in its Grip as all flesh begins to burn up and all I want is the Spirit of Your Life to remain.   I quickly recall seeing this happen as others have also been here… Touched the Holy Character of You by expressing who You are and they become Inflamed with that Electrifying Charge that demands its Right to Own.  How amazed as I watch it’s Beauty of Unity.  Conversations change, questions of life changes, and steps of their day change… something is obvious inside and out to Reveal the Electrifying Charge they now are connected to for life. I watch as a Drawing to Remain is Building as this Current gets Stronger and Stronger.   All other distractions begin to have no actuality, no voice to call me.  I am laying in a Pool of Sweetness as Your Kisses Roam the Room to Cover all my pains.  I begin to repeat what my heart knows… Oh Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God Almighty… Who IS and WAS and IS TO COME.  I Swell with Your Love as all the Holy Character of Your Jealous Love over me Consumes my being.  I am in aw as Your Holy Name Fills my heart and voice and I Walk in the Power of Jesus as This Name now owns my soul.  Zeal is the Call of Your Holy Character as You Electrify andWash over me, Your bride.

Ordered Steps

"I am so thankful that God sits on the throne

and orders our steps."

Chris Ogden

Oh Wonderful One,

You are ALWAYS so Kind. 

Your Ever Lasting Voice

has so many Avenues to Speak

Clarity

to the anxieties of my shortcomings. 

An email came today that declared a

Direct Message

that intruded into my

heart

like a fun tune heard

at a public gathering

that caused me to

announce

the same in my own path

by singing it over and over,

For it went not only to my hearing

but deeper

to my subconscious. 

What a Stunning Song of Power

that gives such a

fresh thought

of knowledge known. 

How astonishing when that happens! 

It’s like my world stops

in track

and out comes, ‘oh yeah – I forgot!’  

For I was rummaging in search

for what to do,

where could I

find

my next move? 

And Your Voice

Writes upon a Wall

The Single need

that will control the

spinning of my unmanaged thoughts

that fought for dominance;

Taming the wild urgent pleas

demanding audience

as I was so divided and crippled

to give eye

to any one plan screaming. 

I see You so Towering,

Sitting upon the Throne

of Grace and Mercy’s Love

Articulating with Ease

my steps Ordered

to be Delivered upon the

Instant of Need. 

Ordered

as supernatural Phenomenal Balance

was Placed in the earth’s core

for my existence to remain upon it’s land. 

Not forgetting a single Detail

that would cause me

to fall off the earth,

Neither

have You forgotten a

Detail

to keep me from falling away

from You

As Your Spirit of Ultimate Balance

lives within me. 

I move about Your

Specific Orbit’s Destiny

for me

with the Scientific Science

Created

by Your Unlimited Omnipotence. 

Your Authority Reigns

with just a

Thought

as One Who Sits on the

Only Throne of Truth. 

The Absolute

in which I cast my cares

before Your Throne;

Leaning upon

Trust Given

by Example after Example

of Steps Created for my life to travel.  

Oh, I am thankful. 

I speak with gratitude

from the depths of my heart

For I am a

Beneficiary

of these Life Flowing Ordered Steps. 

Abundance

of Ordered Steps

Designed for no one but me,

I am seen Pure and Righteous

and Worth all of Your Love

because the Holy One

Died

for my faults. 

Jesus Placed His Life

before the Throne

for the Purchase of My heart. 

He Followed Your Directions

to every Detail

for my Pardon;

becoming all my sins

for my Right Standing. 

You Sit on the Throne and

Rip Back darkness

with Force of Lightening

because Jesus

Won

So my steps

would take me

to

Your Kingdom;

Teaching

me beyond minutes and seconds,

Dividing time

so no Good Thing

will be held from me.   

I smile with Content. 

I laugh with Joy

as I sit in Your Counsel

for my Steps Ordered

are by the One I delight in. 

I join in the Celebration

upon earth

with those who know You

for…

’I am so thankful that

God

sits on the throne

and

orders our steps.’

Never Hide Your Feelings

Father, I am here so heavy this morning and can’t wait to talk to You about it for I never want to hide my feelings from You.  Tears seem to be my countenance and discouragement my garment. I have lots of wants and I really don’t like this feeling.  It isn’t really even how I perceive the Word encourages me to be.  I hate it when I know within how satisfying Your Walk is and yet I am so distracted by what has stumbled my thinking.  So my Answer, my Faith Builder… I just want to know You’re near.  I just ask this morning that my heart be held up a little higher as I set my eyes upon You instead of my circumstances.  For in all this mess, my heart continues to burn for what has started between us.  You have Full understanding, I only have partial.  I find it thrilling to find a Treasure You have Sent and so I can not help but seek to find much on this Trail of Joys.  The more I find these Places, the more all the difficulties seem to be just common and not so enormous that they scream for full attention.  I marvel at how a Picture of Beauty Develops into a Masterpiece from the days journey with You.  So gladly and excitedly, I give this day to You and will keep my heart open to hear Your Love as I wonder about in all that is ahead.  You have Sent the Best Friend to be at my side Constantly and I truly know no better gift of friendship.  Your Sweet Holy Spirit has all the Right Answers so I will stop and rest in this Smile upon my life as I Wait in Your Waiting Room that keeps my life encouraged.  For the Music Playing has such angelic mystic about it.  The Magazines spread around to capture my thoughts Lead me to Your Love.   Often I find an Article that is so Rich I must share it with another friend.  You make Waiting such a part of the Journey to all the Pearls of Great Price You have for me.  So I will not leave and seek another way nor ever hide my feelings from You.  I will wait with my heart open wide for the Showing of Your Power because I have watched This so Attached to my life that it is the Strength of my eternity.  I truly love Your Name, Jesus, that is Written upon my heart.  It is the Solid Corner Stone that I build all my hopes and dreams upon.

Psalm 34: 1-8 (The Message Bible)

I bless God every chance I get; my lungs expand with his praise. I live and breathe God; if things aren't going well, hear this and be happy: Join me in spreading the news; together let's get the word out. God met me more than halfway, he freed me from my anxious fears. Look at him; give him your warmest smile. Never hide your feelings from him. When I was desperate, I called out, and God got me out of a tight spot. God’s angel sets up a circle of protection around us while we pray. Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see how good God is. Blessed are you who run to him. Worship God if you want the best; worship opens doors to all his goodness. Young lions on the prowl get hungry, but God-seekers are full of God.

You Record My Love

Good morning my Sweet Lover of my soul.  I am so anxious this morning. I couldn’t wait to come Here.  Here where it is just You and I and our hearts speaking.  I find this time always goes too swiftly, like a long awaited get away runs its clock with extra speed.  I swallow hard and take a deep breath, close my eyes and go to our Secret Place where You Speak Your Love with such Penetration I hear with the Vibration of Warmth throughout my heart.  I lay my words of love in return before the Messenger’s Basket so all my heart can be taken to the Ears of the Only One to which they belong, the Lover of my soul.  Proven over and over as the Intimacy Grows between hearts so Captured by one another. So much to talk about and so much to learn as I lean hard into Your Voice and You Listen so intently to my words.  I ponder and ask myself, ‘why write’ and so Tenderly You Speak to Say You do the same.  You Save my love?  My heart melts as I ponder this.  For as I start each stroke to write I find myself searching inward… what do I long for You to know?  What is it that I hope You hear me say today?  So I begin and my heart speaks my love I have been saving up for such a time as this.  And to my surprise, oh my, You have been doing exactly the same thing I have; You Record my love and Place it in Your Favorite Collections.  You set it to Music that Sounds in heaven’s Hallways.  Our Love Feast has Flavors of the Day and You Delight in my selection for each setting.  Oh how blushingly I listen to my words and yet how boastful I am of Your Love for me.  You have even Recorded my thoughts and they are the Wallpaper in Your House of Prayers that Reveal Your Magnificent Glory.  Beautifully Displayed for angels and all creation to hear and find the Wonders of Your Amazements.  I am overwhelmed with this Knowledge and return to excitement that carries a bride into her wedding day.  For I am Engaged to Love’s Perfect.  I am Engaged to Love’s Ultimate Romancing.  I am floating in the Extreme of its Sight over me.  Our eyes have met and I can see nothing else.  I can only hope to stare into this Love forever as it Lifts me into its Embrace as one You have Longed to have for so long.  I write, oh I write my heart upon this tablet for I want every sound of my life to sing Your Love.  I write my love for I too want its Embracing Fragrance to Decorate the soul of my being.  I write for I am in love with You and I want to record Your Love and place it in my favorite collections.

Love Waiting For Me

Holy God, oh Most Holy God, Great and Mighty One that is forever.  How I hear in my heart so given to You, the angels singing Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God Almighty.  With them I want to join in and contribute my own praise with their voices so purposed to You.  I want to make a sound of praise that lifts high to form the Hugs of what makes up the Rainbow around Your Loving Kindness. Surround You with my kisses that speak with action and praise.  I set my affections toward learning from Your Responses to my hunger towards the Knowledge of such Holiness.  For I lean not to my own understanding but just acknowledge that You have the steps of my life.  I have fallen so deep in love with You.  I have choked so often on my own cares and yet found Your Love Waiting for me.  Your Love is like a flame that burns and takes over all the territory until it owns it all.  I can feel Your Love Consuming my life.  I await my next moment by moment time with You, always finding Your Love Waiting for me.  Oh Most Holy God, I am Rich in Love’s Safety.  Standing on a cliff with my toes hanging over; and yet Your Wind Pushes me to remain in the Safe Realm of Your Arms of Power.  I am so grateful and can only wish for those You have Given me to know this same Freedom.  May I see Your Love Abound in them and may they see Your Love Abound in me so that each Glimpse we see can give us a Clearer Picture of Your Glorious Way.  May we find Your Love Waiting for us as each day brings us Closer to that fulfillment that yearns within us.  Thank You for giving us a Desire to eat and sleep. Thank You for Giving us a Desire to have Knowledge.. .and Thank You above all for Giving us a Desire to Know You more as it takes us into Joy Unspeakable and so Full of the Wonders of Your Glory.  Finding Love unlike we had ever comprehended.  Thank You for Your Love Waiting for me.  Show me Deeper so that my children will also find my life revealing Your Love Waiting on them.